My special boy was PTS yesterday and I can't stop crying

Marktheshark

Grief is the price we must pay for the love in our lives.
You will meet again, until that day.
Peace.

gettingtheresometime

Oh Hun I'm so sorry to hear this.

Even thought your head is telling every fibre in your body it was right the right thing to do, your heart is breaking.

There's no quick fix - take each day as it comes and if you want to cry then cry....my OH wasn't a lover of our mog but he shed tears when the cat died


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Kathy535

Crystallady - I'm so sorry for your loss, our cats are treasured members of our family and its hurts so much when they leave. My beloved Milo was PTS on the 10th December, I've cried every day since; like your boy he was the most loving creature. My only consultation is that I know I did the right thing by sparing him more pain, but even that is small comfort.

However, every day gets slightly easier, the wound scabs over a little more and it gets easier to remember that he had a life filled with love, affection and everything he wanted (plus the occasional mouse) and to remember him with regret rather than tears, and smiles rather than sadness. I'll never stop missing him but, like your boy, he's in our garden and come spring we'll plant herbs. I'll take great comfort from being able to look out of the kitchen window and see his garden, if I can't have him then at least I can know that I saved him from being in pain and gave him a quick and peaceful end.

Crystallady

Thank you all for your kind words - crying again.
Kathy I'm so sorry to hear about your Milo x
I remembered that poem yesterday Charlie3090 - I said no more cats when he died but hubby says we should rescue another as there are so many needing loving homes.
He was very vocal since his brother passed 2 years ago and always announced his arrival with a meow or 10 so it's very quiet in the house now.
There was a perky little Robin on his grave yesterday so maybe that was a sign that he's not in pain anymore and playing with his brother at Rainbow Bridge. Funny that I don't believe in heaven/afterlife but want to believe in the bridge.

Kathy535

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There was a perky little Robin on his grave yesterday so maybe that was a sign that he's not in pain anymore and playing with his brother at Rainbow Bridge. Funny that I don't believe in heaven/afterlife but want to believe in the bridge.[/QUOTE]

I known exactly what you mean! i'm the same and really hoping it does exist and I'll see him again.

Offering a rescue cat a loving home when you feel ready would be a lovely thing to do, some of them have had such upsetting starts to their lives, it's heartbreaking. Catchat has a list of rescue organisations in each area and photos of cats and kittens, I've found myself looking in their of an evening but we have two other cats and I'm not sure whether we should potentially upset the balance.

http://www.catchat.org

Crystallady

Kathy I know exactly what you mean. When we lost EJ's brother 2 years ago I thought about getting a kitten as he'd never been on his own before but felt that he was too old to "bother" with a kitten and it might think he was being pushed out so we didn't do it, in hindsight we should have as he was afraid when left alone overnight - we only did it twice in the two years but both times he was hiding under the bed when my son came to feed him and when we came home. Your other two still have each other for company so even though they'll miss Milo it won't be so bad for them.
I originally said no more but I expect I'll change my mind when things are more settled, I can't imagine life without cats in it - we've never been without at least 1, usually 2 or 3 for the last 37 years, all have been rescues apart from the first one who adopted us after being dumped on the main road which our garden backed on to and consequently had a litter of kittens a few weeks later.
Maybe in the spring.

Kathy535

I agree, a catless house is not a long term option for us despite all the hassle it brings. I'll be thinking of you over Christmas.

gunsandbanjos

Sorry to read this, I lost my girl in August and I was devastated. Just got a new rescue kitty last week, house feels complete again.

li'l_p

I feel your pain completely. Our cat got run over just over a week ago and I am beyond devastated. It couldn't have happened at a worse time as Christmas just seems to give it much more gravity as it's meant to be a time for family, etc.

I feel like I have had my heart ripped out; I can't help but think she should be here. She was not even two, so she should have been with us a lot longer. I am trying to focus on what a good life we gave her, if even for the short time it was, but that just makes me feel even worse as I just keep thinking of the what if's and that I was looking forward to spending some time with her over Christmas, with being off work. It just adds so much weight to it. Everything I do around the house, I miss her.

Thinking of you, it's not easy x

longwalks1

So sorry for your loss, I'd imagine there's a lot of females posting replies but you've also bought a big and strong (ish) 38 year old male to tears sat in work on his night shift. My cav king charles is only 5 and I'm already dreading the day, heartbreaking.

Sorry again for your loss