Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

Waves_and_Smiles

WaSp says thank you, whitewing! I didn't peek!

Aw, tea have a hug. There are bound to be memories that make you feel sad. I don't mind watching WaSp play pretty adventure games, Myst and Riven were gorgeous to watch and I played those myself. Shooters aren't really my thing though, I feel bad for everyone!

tea_lover

Georgiegirl256 wrote: »

It's only natural you remember the good times and reminisce about them.

Are there no other games that interest you that could get you back into gaming again?

There really are, I did loads on my own before, that's why this whole thing is so stupid. For every half-decent memory I can think of 10 awful ones without any effort. I can fully appreciate that I'm looking back with rose-tinted glasses, but I can't stop myself.

If I just wanted to speak to him I would. If I just wanted to move on I could. What feels like it is literally driving me mad is the constant veering between the two. At the moment I feel like every cell is screaming at me to call him, it's like a terrible craving. At the same time I can totally see that that's a bad idea. I feel like I've got no control over my own mind and I hate, hate that.

Oh !!!!!! am so annoyed with myself! I'm a grown woman, I've coped fine with relationships ending for the past 20yrs or so. But I can't get a grip at the moment, it's like I'm always on the edge of a panic attack. There are so many actual problems going on and all I can do is bore myself and everyone else rigid with how much I miss possibly the world's worst boyfriend. I'm also very aware of the irony that FOH probably feels similar and yet I'm punishing him for that. We're both upset and confused, but somehow I'm getting sympathy and he's getting a criminal record.

I want the knockout drugs!

Georgiegirl256

codemonkey wrote: »

Georgie - i would quite like the shouting at the tv thing. Mr CP hogs the remote then mocks me when I'm not as efficient as him with it. .
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When he first set it up I thought 'great, another useless gimick, probably won't understand our accents', but it does and it's really good, although it does make you very lazy! It wasn't working the other day and I was like "xbox, watch itv1.....gah it's not working! I'll have to get up now!" :rotfl:

Hope you and Mr CP are feeling better soon. Hopefully you an reschedule your plans for another day when you're feeling better.

whitewing

tea,

I do sympathise with FOH. Just because we think that you shouldn't contact him at the moment doesn't mean that we are immune to his pain and distress. I certainly feel that he needs the opportunity to talk through his feelings and thoughts with someone who cares about him and can support him. But I know from experience (of my family) that it can be very difficult to change the way two people interact until both sides realise that something needs to change. I think it would be too easy for you and FOH to slip into very unhealthy patterns.

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codemonkey

It's bizarre how far tv watching has come. I remember having my first tv in my room in the 80s and it was a black and white portable. And our video was great cause it had a remote control which was attached by a wire, but that was so cool at the time. Then we got one with a barcode reader and that one seemed very futuristic. Now you can record multiple things at once and rewind/pause mid-watch and switch rooms and stuff and control it with your voice. Seems perfectly normal but it's totally mental if you think about it.

We've rescheduled for Mr CPs birthday but it's not the same. He feels really bad about it and it can't be helped but still...harrumph. I knew this birthday would be rubbish.

mellymoo74

She's very bossy

elsien

Is she nagging you?

Had a good day with Gitdog today - there is a possibility of a small amount of impulse control finally penetrating that thick skull. Only taken two years.

mellymoo74

She is
Apparently I am failing to understand that it is cuddle time
Now
Not when I have drank tea she's been waiting hoooouuuurs

mellymoo74

Not helped by heavily snoring boo tucked behind me on the chair

My boys going grey

Wellyboots6

I managed to do eBay shopping last night whilst in the midst of insomnia fog, and only just found the confirmation emails of what I bought!

I so need sleep