Baby steps to mortgage freedom for beanielou.

savingholmes

I like veggie pasta but it depends what's in your store cupboard. You could perhaps try the mse store cupboard challenge? They will give you suggestions if you list what you have in.

beanielou

Just been watching Mayflies.
Fantastic Scottish talent in the actors.
Very very thought provoking.
It's the forth for me.

milann

Haven’t watched Mayflies yet but it’s on my list to watch. We’re ploughing through Happy Valley as we’d never watched any of them. We also watched a film on Disney last night - very strange…..The Banshee of Inisherin. I don’t know what I expected but it wasn’t what I saw 😏

Cheery_Daff

milann said:

Haven’t watched Mayflies yet but it’s on my list to watch. We’re ploughing through Happy Valley as we’d never watched any of them. We also watched a film on Disney last night - very strange…..The Banshee of Inisherin. I don’t know what I expected but it wasn’t what I saw 😏

We watched the Banshee of Inisherin too - not what we were expecting either! Most unsettling!

lucielle

Love Happy Valley, shame it’s the last season. 

L

beanielou

Well it is late on a Saturday night & I am reflecting on my life. Not the best thing to do I am sure.
How did I get here?
Can hardly walk
Cant always afford the heating on
Counting every penny
No meaningful relationship
This is what comes of watching Rod Stewart & then the end of the Freddie Mercury film.
No I have not been drinking, I am just pondering how much my life has changed & I cannot quite work out how I got from there to here & how this is my reality.
I don't even think I am sure what I am trying to articulate.
I just feel such sadness & a abject failure.

Sun_Addict

I think most of us do this from time to time, I know I do. I see people living the sort of life I want to lead and wonder why I pulled the short straw. Then I think about the positive things, not that there are many, but I can usually come up with a couple. Then I think what it must be like for people such as those living in war torn countries such as Ukraine. After that I realise I’m luckier than I think, dust myself off and battle on.

Big hugs Beanie, hope you feel more positive today xx

I watched Rod too, well up until around 10pm. 

DrCarrie

beanielou said:

Just been watching Mayflies.
Fantastic Scottish talent in the actors.
Very very thought provoking.
It's the forth for me.

I thought it was utterly wonderful...

I then researched how much it costs to go to Dignitas. 


Beanie, I too have moments like that, how did I get here, why am I alone, why did it take so long to sort out my relationship with money...

I am so sorry about your lack of mobility. 

skint_spice

Sorry to hear you are feeling down Beanie, I realise you probably mean a relationship with a significant other but your support means a lot to many of us.
 I hope things look brighter soon.

EssexHebridean

Sounds like the sort of introspection we all get from time to time there Beanie - I try to go with the flow on it, accept that sometimes we all have those feelings of “it’s just me, my life is all wrong” but know from experience that it will fade and I’ll return to appreciating what I have soon enough. I’m not one for the “you must count your blessings” approach I have to say - to me that’s too much like telling someone they shouldn’t be feeling depressed - not the case at all, we feel what we feel! 

Echoing what Skinty says about how supportive you are to so many on here too, although also understanding what you mean!