The Travelling Fund; £10,000 in 10 months!!!

Karmacat

Hiya! No, I'm not there now, but I grew up on that side of the water (the Mersey) - Hamilton Square was the pivot point of my first steps to freedom

Its very beautiful too - take a look at the garden in the square itself if you can, just a little green lung moment (I may be exaggerating there )

apple_muncher

NinjaSavingKat wrote: »

. I don't travel well so it will probably kill me but I can sleep for the entire journey so it's okay!!

Ummm, won't this be a slight issue in your 5 year epic adventure...?!

NinjaSavingKat

apple_muncher wrote: »

Ummm, won't this be a slight issue in your 5 year epic adventure...?!

I should have clarified that I don't travel well on boats. I probably won't eat for 12 hours prior to the jounrney and if I go on the day trip at least I have a nice view outside to hurl into.. :rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

( Okay it's a bit of a lie buses, planes and car kill me too - must always remember to look straight ahead, take ginger or something similar and not talk to anyone as this involved turning my head the only thing I can travel in without any issues is my beloved trains...as long as they aren't too fast.... )

NinjaSavingKat

Just wanted to share this... looking into ways of working in a visit when I get to Japan. Forgive me if I have shared this before but my trip will include some of the most amazing sites I can find.. this is the Kawachi Fuji Gardens in Kitakyushu, Japan. I used the picture with people in so you can see their true size - only flowering in late May.

NinjaSavingKat

On ones mind today - the need for a new laptop.

And considering I never want to return to the organistation I am in now how long do I wait until I resign (they have contractual hold over me due to the sabbatical) or do I resign at all knowing I have a job to come back to in this climate? Or am I playing it too safe?

Hmmm ponderings................

Karmacat

Find out exactly what the contract says first, NSK.

NinjaSavingKat

You mean work contract?.. Yes am up to scratch on what can and can't be done (they drill that into you) I meant more for security. Follow my dreams by taking the plunge to become a wandering nomad or see how I feel in 4 years then resign...

Actually sensibilities tell me not to resign. I just hate being tied to a company who haven't helped me much at all... And them having a hold over my down-time so to speak.

Does that make sense..? I won't come back to the same position anyway and will be dumped into the 'redeployment pool' for the first available position. Which might be anything.

apple_muncher

Dss had a year's sabbatical and once he'd come back, he worked the necessary amount and then resigned to do 2 years down under. I think he only did 6 weeks. Have no idea what he plans to do when the 2 years are up! But I doubt he'll return to Blighty.

NinjaSavingKat

Sooooooooooo on my mind today? Gettin skin resurfacing at an International Hospital in Bangkok to deal with my facial scarring. Another collegue who is leaving in two weeks will be booking into the same hospital soon for a breast reduction and lift. She has researched this hospital considerably (although I will be doing the same ) and before she said this is what she had planned I was thinking of the same thing...

So I think the package deal I might need is £280 although I don't know how many session this is or if it's the right choice for my level of scarring. I will expect an online consultation then another in person to "have a chat" and for now it's a thought - not a definite.

So there you go.... get my face sorted in Thailand.... then hide from the sun for months. Although I have a lot of research to do....

NinjaSavingKat

Well good morning to diary lurkers.....


Lots of musings in my little head recently. Perhaps a little worry and anxiety as to whether I will pull off my great feat of evacuating London. Booking a flight to Bangkok has become more and more important so I will need to think about that by the end of the month however it's the "no-turning-back" point when £400+ is spent on a one-way ticket....

I have sudden waves of fear, usually late at night or early in the morning when thinking about this traveling. Not sure why. It's something I am trying to fathom as there will be a lot of late night / early morning starts and finishes while on the road. I first realized this when I went to Paris on my own in 2009. My then soon-to-be-new-boyfriend was on hand to tell me it would be ok.

It started at 0600 at Kings Cross St Pancras while waiting for the Euro-star. It took 2 of my 4 days in Paris on my own to calm down and not consider returning earlier than planned. This little revelation makes you all fear for my safety now doesn't it..:o

I think it boils down to my INTJ need for order and a routine. Routine makes me calm and happy. Chaos and spontenaeity make me anxious and unable to focus. People say it's good to be spontaneous as it makes you feel alive. It's take me 10 years to realize it's ok not to desire sponanaeity.

Oprah has an acronym on her website describing FEAR as False Evidence Appearing Real - my F.E.A.R is possibly the lack of safety net. Whereas I have cruised through London from 2002 relying entirely on no-one but myself - the idea of being a nomad at times worries me simply for one reason.

What if I can't shake off this fear.

My job, in all it's glory, has institutionalized me. This is why my desire to really feel free is not a case of getting up and leaving but more a mental trait that can only be realized if this total freedom is encapsulated in the act of resigning. Then and only then can I tell the world who I really am. Right now my job, my position, owns me. Not all jobs encompass a person to the degree mine does. It's not the way I think about my job that's killing me, it's not a frame of mind in that I am a workaholic, its the actual physical contract I signed, that I knew I wanted back then, but now is strangling me and crushing my being. I have signed my live over to these people and I need out.

So my fear. My real FEAR that pushed me through these weird feelings, that makes me get up and get moving is the fear that I will regret.

I don't want to be 70 years old wondering "what if". What if I managed to stop thinking too much and settled in Fiji for 6 months? What if I managed to get over and reconcile my need for order with the chaos of not knowing where I would be in a few months time or know who I will be with - what memories could be made?

More than my fear of fear is my need to experience!

So this 70 year old in a 30 year old mind pushes herself to her limits. Mentally for now but the physically will follow. She will bore you with her thoughts but make you think about yours.

What do you fear?