Oh come on! Stake through the heart. A little sunlight. It's like falling off a log"

Buffythedebtslayer

Oh Ant and Dec make me laugh!! I never watch any of their stuff but love seeing them interviewed.


and that gorgeous Irishmen. Oh GOD I want a boyfriend!!!!


*jumps up and down like a small child having a strop*


have been on a dating site. should be called "where weirdo short married men try to get girls"


I am going to start Flyladying tomorrow. have LOADS to do.


work is stressing me out.


Oh Ant and Dec


and Graham. so funny.


why is it as soon as you don't have any money you want to buy "something nice"


UGH.


XX

skintygerlinky

Yes yes!! STOP the poncification of the bloody job!! **jumps up and down cheerleading Buffy on **

Poncification? New word! Liking it.

Let us know how flylady goes, lovely - and get on another dating website. What's the Guardian one like? My mate met his other half on there.

Just watched Time to Kill on More4million + 2, Matthew McConnaghy. Mmmmmmmmmmmm.

in_need_of_direction

Buffy, just hang in but tell me, what gorgeous Irishman? Believe me, there aren't too many when I walk down the street. My oh is English. Also skinty, I think you have many great attributes but, a girl guide? Really?

Buffythedebtslayer

in_need_of_direction wrote: »

Buffy, just hang in but tell me, what gorgeous Irishman? Believe me, there aren't too many when I walk down the street. My oh is English. Also skinty, I think you have many great attributes but, a girl guide? Really?

I love the accent. *daydreams*


Ahem I was watching Graham Norton and he had Ant and Dec, and some Irish bloke who was called Jamie Doran? I think? He is an actor and really lovely in my opinion.


I have LOADS to do. Which does explain why I am sitting on the sofa in my dressing gown!


Just going to write me a list.


1. take car to mechanics
2. argos for hoover and plastic boxes
3. homebase for paint (already have the money)
4. should have gone to the bank but over slept so no clue when that is going to happen now.
5. food shopping? the guinea pigs need veg.
6. back home to clean/ wash/hoover and maybe paint but I have LOADS of school work to do


I will turn this day around.

Emzilla

Hey Buffy.

Hope your day is going better.

I love a good Irish accent too. Just something about it. I've recorded Graham Norton so I'm sure I'll be drooling over that guy later

Take care

Emz xx

Buffythedebtslayer

It was going fine till I updated my old email account, I should just sign in on line all the time.


I totally thought I had till September to resubmit my dissertation.


I don't


I have till the 10 th July.


And my tutor will have to read a draft before that.


Holy !!!!ing !!!! bags. I am shaking.


I don't even belong to the university library anymore.


I have not written a thing. not one word. There isn't even a document on my laptop that says dissertation.


I really want this.


ok..................


date is 18 weeks away.


Realistically I would need at least half that to write it (ha, perhaps that should read optimistically)


10 weeks time is 10 th May.


Get tutor to read it.


have 7 weeks to redraft (she would need a week to read it)


I could berate myself re the date but really there is little point.


woah. this is big and tough and scary. going to go swear for a bit.


XXX

Buffythedebtslayer

You know I don't know how many other people feel like this.


But do you ever think. THIS IS IT.


It is now or never?


If I don't walk down this path now it won't be there.


My fb feed just happens to be full of people who have got married had babies and got new jobs. Life is here now and it is happening now. not in six months when my job finishes or my debt is paid. God I don't have six months to write my dissertation. or declutter the house. Time spent must not be time wasted.


*more swearing*

mothernerd

Keep calm love -we're all with you. Just keep doing a bit. Re the dissertation,you're way ahead of me - I was coming to the end of a 2 year Foundation course when my brother died, trashed the report I was in the middle of writing (was only a few words off finished,then mis-read the question,tore the whole thing apart to get to new length only to find when I handed it in that the original length was right.One of my best subjects too) got writers' block,struggled through exams but couldn't write any more. Automatic moving into third year meant spending 3 days a week at a college 20miles away over the summer (I had work and also had to travel 300+ miles to sort out my brother's house and selling it -mum couldn't handle anything) and they had lost their 'science' element (was hoping to end up teaching and get extra funding whilst studying).

Would have loved to have re-done second year where I was but they didn't have any students after us (college not putting resources in -to close course down) and the building we were using was being knocked down (recurring theme in my life, I tried to do my French 'A' level dictation to the sound of the toilets in the cloakroom next door being smashed up -school to be re-used for littlies and worked out the other day (following on from what skinty was asking about whether times were harder for young ones now or for older generation) that 5 places I used to work at are now housing estates and 2 are car parks.

I would still like to go back to studying but haven't been able to get myself organised enough to sort out a fairly local college,doing the right sort of course,who are willing to take me and persuading the student loan people to give me the money to continue (now past the 55 year old deadline but the government has added 6 years on to the time they expect me to work so they could extend this).

Sorry for hi-jacking your diary (will get one of my own sometime,but the next 4 weeks are likely to be 'up a ladder,painting' or 'outside,digging').

The dissertation is something you really want to do and is important for where you want to go next. Prioritise that and looking after yourself. This is most important. I think I had got run down and when I was forced to take a break, I found it hard to get started again. So do the dissertation, eat properly, get enough sleep,try to get a little fresh air every day. Take as much sick leave as you are entitled to -your job is stressful and you want to leave anyway - try to think of it as a means to an end (I know you are dedicated but that can mean that other people take advantage and your health is suffering as a result).

On 'management speak' - the one I love is 'the seagull manager' - flies in, sh*ts all over everywhere and flies out again.

mothernerd

Think we cross posted. Loads of time for partners and babies.This is where you are now,don't waste your life wishing you were somewhere else. People in relationships only tell you all the bad bits when they are splitting up,anyway. Until then they have to keep up the front to persuade themselves as much as everyone else (apologies to those of you who are blissfully happy) especially if they feel the need to keep telling everyone they know (or are acquainted with) how great everything is. Think of all those sickening couples in Bridget Jones.And all those women who cling to 'their' man in case you try to steal him -while you're thinking "I wouldn't want him, gift wrapped and with £30,000 as well."

It is much easier (sorry it always takes effort, I am not belittling your task) to study now than fitting it in around children (doing assignments between midnight and 5am and running back from an accounts exam to breastfeed).

This is your time,put your energy into you.you have the Guinea pigs (and don't forget Spike and Giles)and all of us when you need us.

Buffythedebtslayer

mothernerd wrote: »

Think we cross posted. Loads of time for partners and babies.This is where you are now,don't waste your life wishing you were somewhere else. People in relationships only tell you all the bad bits when they are splitting up,anyway. Until then they have to keep up the front to persuade themselves as much as everyone else (apologies to those of you who are blissfully happy) especially if they feel the need to keep telling everyone they know (or are acquainted with) how great everything is. Think of all those sickening couples in Bridget Jones.And all those women who cling to 'their' man in case you try to steal him -while you're thinking "I wouldn't want him, gift wrapped and with £30,000 as well."

It is much easier (sorry it always takes effort, I am not belittling your task) to study now than fitting it in around children (doing assignments between midnight and 5am and running back from an accounts exam to breastfeed).

This is your time,put your energy into you.you have the Guinea pigs (and don't forget Spike and Giles)and all of us when you need us.

There really isn't plenty of time for babies, am too old for kids, that ship has sailed, some days that makes me so unhappy and other days it doesn't. That's life.


However that was sort of not the point of post, I was more thinking about enjoying life and living rather than repeating the same behaviour. People are out there doing things and I am frankly here with the guinea pigs! Although I have made some stupid decisions in the last few years which I have chosen to live with it doesn't mean life has to completely pass me by. It really is time, especially with my job ending and my dissertation, I really could take a new path or do something different. It was just something to think about.


I suppose with the dissertation needing to be done I won't have time for much spending!!