Preparing to say goodbye to my boy

anarchied

Who's cutting stupid onions?! My eyes are watering..

I'm so sorry for you and your baby boy. My thoughts are with you at this difficult time and, like your vet said, he'll let you know.

*big hugs*

anarchied

dawnie1972 wrote: »

Thank you - it wasnt a good start to the vet visit yesterday, we pulled into the car park and there, backed up to the back gates was the pet crematorium van, that set me off, thinking of my baby being taken away in teh back of a van (it won't happen).

I completed work experience at a vet practice (will be studying vet nursing in September 2014) and the PC service the practice used were very thoughtful and careful, making sure to treat every individual as if they were still there. It may not be of any consolation to you, I know; but rest assured should you follow that route that their staff are trained to be empathetic, caring, humane and well.. just.. decent people.

*even bigger hugs*

dawnie1972

I've booked Milo in for his final journey. The past few days have been hell. After our visit to the vets on Monday I finally heard back from him on Thursday after he'd spoken to the specialist, nothing much to report the specialist was concerned re the belly bloating and didnt want to increase the steroids until the stomach had sorted itself out, I expressed my concern about Milo's lack of eating and after a long chat the vet agreed to put him on 2 further tablets one which should boost his appetite and the other to stop any sickness he may be feeling. The bloating had almost gone by the time I heard back from the vet. However, my boy has not almost resided to eating nothing, he wont' take chicken, fish, anything I offer him he wont' take it, the last 48hrs he's been very unsteady and wobbly and although hasnt fallen over has looked like he was having difficulty standing up. He has had a couple of accidents on the bed (I think during his sleep)and is drinking enough to sink the Titanic. By Friday I was very concerned but said I would give the new tablets chance to work but after a 2nd sleepless night thinking/worrying I've made the decision and have booked him in. I can't bear to watch him waste any, he doesnt respond to me much anymore (ie before I would get happy waggy tails Milo now I'm lucky if i get a waggy tail), i don't get kisses anymore and I know he's fading away. Today also he has been sick, and what he brought up was something he ate 2 days ago that has come back looking the same as when it went down so his body hasnt broken it down or digested it. I took him out for a walk today as I thought it might cheer him up, we went to the fields we normally go to, and for an hour, just one hour, it felt like I had my Milo back again, he was happily running around with his ball, we had a little scare in that he went too near the edge of the lake and fell in then panicked when he didnt have the energy to climb out but I guided him to the edge where the bank had sloped down into the lake. I wanted to go to the beach but I don't think we will get there as he's not well enough so I will take him one day after he has left us. We have a couple of things to do over the next couple of days but mostly lots of cuddles and loves for my little man. I havent slept for 2 days. I lost my job lost Friday but it was a blessing as its given me time to spend with Milo, I found a new job and start Mon 19th so next week I will be saying goodbye to my little man and trying to stop the tears before I start my new job.

Froglet

So so sorry that you are going through this.All of us who love our animals so much that we are prepared to hurt so they don't have to any longer,know exactly how painful it is.

At times like these i always look to my list of poems that may help just a little

[SIZE=+3]The Last Battle [/SIZE]



[SIZE=+2]If it should be that I grow frail and weak
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then will you do what must be done,
For this -- the last battle -- can't be won.
You will be sad I understand,
But don't let grief then stay your hand,
For on this day, more than the rest,
Your love and friendship must stand the test.
We have had so many happy years,
You wouldn't want me to suffer so.
When the time comes, please, let me go.
Take me to where to my needs they'll tend,
Only, stay with me till the end
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time you will agree
It is a kindness you do to me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I have been saved.
Don't grieve that it must be you
Who has to decide this thing to do;
We've been so close -- we two -- these years,
Don't let your heart hold any tears.

[/SIZE]

Froglet

and afterwards,when you are understandably grieving

[SIZE=+2]I'm Still Here [/SIZE]

[SIZE=+1]Friend, please don't mourn for me
I'm still here, though you don't see.
I'm right by your side each night and day
and within your heart I long to stay.

My body is gone but I'm always near.
I'm everything you feel, see or hear.
My spirit is free, but I'll never depart
as long as you keep me alive in your heart.

I'll never wander out of your sight-
I'm the brightest star on a summer night.
I'll never be beyond your reach-
I'm the warm moist sand when you're at the beach.

I'm the colorful leaves when fall comes around
and the pure white snow that blankets the ground.
I'm the beautiful flowers of which you're so fond,
The clear cool water in a quiet pond.

I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in the spring,
The first warm raindrop that April will bring.
I'm the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine,
and you'll see that the face in the moon is mine.

When you start thinking there's no one to love you,
you can talk to me through the Lord above you.
I'll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees,
and you'll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze.

I'm the hot salty tears that flow when you weep
and the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep.
I'm the smile you see on a baby's face.
Just look for me, friend, I'm everyplace! [/SIZE]

Mrs_Z

So so sorry to hear, but you know when the time has come.

All I would say that if you have the possibility, consider getting the vet to come home. We had that for our cat and it was the best send off we could have given her and there was no stress for her (nor me) either. She had a sedative injection whilst on her bed, her favourite spot and then finally went in my lap, very peacefully.

Poppy_Jane_Parka

All of these posts have had me so teary, I agree with post that says Milo will tell you when he is ready to go. Its nearly 3 years since we lost our 2 and while it still hurts horribly, DH and I know we did right for them xxx

dawnie1972

Milo and I said our final goodbye this morning. He had become so weak, stopped eating etc so I took him on his final journey. I've cried a river the last few days, trying to treasure every moment but now I just feel numb, lost, shocked, it feels so unreal. The vets were amazing (as they always are) - Milo had lost 6kg in weight this week :-( but I took him the to crematorium and that was horrible.
Am at home now feeling totally lost and thinking this has all been a big nightmare. Can't believe I'm never gonna see my boy again.

GBNI

I'm so sorry for your loss. It sounds like Milo was very lucky to have such a caring owner. Treasure those memories of the good times you had with him xxx

cardi80

So sorry for your loss.