Trying for a Baby Part 9

Mrs_T_M

Thanks loulou. I've been a bit mentally unstable since I hit puberty at 11, but it was definitely made worse by my ex (7 years of pure hell). Definitely not getting into that on here. I think that the combination of a 'dark' by my standards winter, even with taking vit d tablets, and the move to a new country with nothing familiar has finally caught up with me. Don't get me wrong, I love it here and prefer it to where I grew up, it was just a really big change. It's been over a year ago since I moved here now, but I'm one of those 'lets shove it down deep so it won't hurt us' people. I think my brain and body can only take so much of that. I need to grieve for my dad as well, who passed away nearly 4 years ago now, but I've no clue how to begin. I was extremely close to my dad, and I don't want to feel sad about his passing, I would rather remember him as he was before the cancer. The defence mechanism of shoving my feelings down to keep from being bothered by them really kicked in with that.

At least I know I've taken a step in the right direction now. Hopefully if we can get the depression under control, I'll be able to finally lose this extra weight. If the depression gets under control, I won't need to comfort eat or feel like I can't even get out of bed some days (unless it's being sore from the gym).

Sorry for the ramble.

picklekin

*hugs credit* Sorry to hear you feeling down MrsTM,I know what depression feels like, sounds like you've taken the first steps..

My temperature went up by 0.25 today so I THINK that means I'm 1DPO but could be wrong as its my first month temping. Tried to get my hubby to BD this morning, but he wrinkled his face up and went to walk the dog.. do I look THAT bad in the morning???

chelseablue

Hi all

Havnt posted in a little while but I always lurk and follow everyones stories; a little update from me:

I took my last pill on Friday

Not going to start TTC until August, hopefully fingers crossed my cycles will be ok by then

Excited and nervous all at the same time (1st baby for both of us)

OH's face was a picture when I said its condoms for the next few months :rotfl:

Im sure I'll be asking for advice, for example I only just found out today what the luteal phase means and Im 29!

xx

loulou123

MrsTM - I'm the same and push everything into the back of my mind, until one day I can't keep it there any longer. My grandad (who brought me up, so more like a dad to me) passed away from cancer when I was 16 and my world literally fell apart, but although its taken time I can now remember all the good times and they have become my memories (not the bad ones from him being ill) you'll get to that point too.

If you want to talk more, feel free to PM me, as I find having someone to talk to often helps and sometimes the more of a stranger that person is the more honest you can be.

Going to the docs is Definately a good step in right direction xx

beautybutterfly

Now 5 days late. Still no sign of AF or BFP grrr

loulou123

beautybutterfly wrote: »

Now 5 days late. Still no sign of AF or BFP grrr

Hugs to you, I'm about 4 days late, and no sign of AF either (not done a test yet though...)

picklekin

Oh, fingers crossed for both of you, I know from my obsessive goggling that lack of bfp is not always a bad sign, hormone levels can be pretty low at that stage.

codemonkey

loulou123 wrote: »

Hugs to you, I'm about 4 days late, and no sign of AF either (not done a test yet though...)

Loulou go and test immediately.

teaandcakeordeath

I second code...

claire16c

angeltreats wrote: »

Sorry to see you both back here Creditcrunch and Sophiasmum (in the nicest possible way). Hope you've got some support at home. Big hugs to both of you x

TACOD, your poor OH and poor you too, I know you really wanted a go at the clomid. Good to know the stuff about the exercise, my friend who has so far had one cycle of ICSI was told the same thing, she was allowed to swim but that was really about it, definitely no spin classes or body combat.

Claire sounds like your appointment went pretty well, and the specialist lady you'll be seeing definitely sounds good, fingers crossed it doesn't take too long to get an appointment.

Kynthia that is a LOT of cheese! I thought my DH was bad

Lily I didn't see the other thread but have caught up now. So glad everything is ok. Lots of love xx

FF has given me crosshairs this morning and says I'm 3 dpo. I reckon I'm only 2, not that it really matters either way. Last night we had one more try for good measure (thinking I was only 1 dpo) and I realised just how mechanical it has all become - I had a cake in the oven with the timer set, told DH he had 20 minutes max, and kind of just let him get on with it which is terrible really, I think I need to book us a weekend away with no opks, thermometer or TTC talk allowed.

Weve done that once before when the dinner was in the oven! I said right you've got until the beeper goes off :rotfl:

It is terrible but sometimes needs must I guess!

Loulou if you know 100% when you ovulated then go and test now!

I just got another negative opk. Theyre lighter than the almost positive I had about 10 days back. Ive got one run tomorrow which completes week 5 of 8 weeks of the running thing, so only 3 weeks left. Which could be the entire length of this cycle anyway unless I randomly start AF like I did last time. So Im determined to finish it as this cycle is clearly going no where, but then after that I will revert back to the couch.