I lost my baby on Wednesday

Rm-ca

I wonder if this pain will ever go.

She never goes near the road but that morning
she did. I keep remembering the moment
over and over.

I feel so guilty ....

lavandergirl_2

I'm so sorry for your loss.

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marmitepotato

Grieve, cry, give in to your emotions. Time will heal. Xxxx

whitewing

So sorry that you are hurting so badly. Do talk to someone if you can, even if it's just an understanding stranger on the other end of the phone. I think talking will help to stop the 'looping' of the trauma so that you can cherish your memories.

Rm-ca

I can't seem to stop crying. Every time I go into our
room where she always was, whenever I go outside as
she was always with me there. I feel like my heart
has been ripped out.
She was more than a dog, I never realised how
much I loved her till she was gone.

I even found myself looking for a dog today
The house is too quiet and I miss her too much.

Then I realise that no dog would ever be her.

I wish this was a bad dream.

chris_n_tj

I am so sorry for your loss, and believe me many of us here know the pain you are going though. Words dont help I know, but we are here if you need a shoulder xxx

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Scrapaholic

Really sorry to read this and feel for you . Be kind to yourself as you have had a shock and you're grieving too . All of us animal lovers relate to how you're feeling now . Sending you kind thoughts and hope your pain will ease in time .

puppypants

I can empathise with you, as I had to have my little dog PTS two weeks ago.. It is devastating to say the least. Just sending you a big (((HUG))). x

walwin

I'm so very sorry for your loss

Thinking of you xx

Artytarty

^^^ Me too.
The shock and trauma of that kind of loss is in my experience worse than losing a pet to old age related illness. I know just what you mean about reliving every moment of it. I will take time , get help if you need it, but you will make it through.

Rm-ca

Thanks for your kind words.

I feel so guilty. She was out there with me and
I didn't even hear the bus coming. She
never goes near the road. I looked down at
my phone and when I looked up it
was too late. Too late.

The noises she made haunt me. I thought
she'd just broken her leg. She died a minute
later. My son heard the sounds. My daughter
collapsed with grief. Mitzy was only 3. How
does the pain and regret ever leave me.
It was my fault. I was supposed to protect
her. She was the centre of our lives.
Some people may think its only a dog but
she wasn't.