Is it time to give up

CuffCake

Evening all,

I have been looking for work for over a year now and i am now tired of lookimg. I'm tired of the rejectio, tired of filling out endless application forms, tired of the debts. Tired of everything. There's no hope. Everytime it looks as though I might get a break, i have the rug pulled from under me.

I'm really considering ending it all. I used to worry about what my mother would do but she's old and probably won't live much longer any way so what's the harm? Sorry but I've really had it with this crap.

paddedjohn

Sorry OP but i think you should go see your doctor for a chat first thing in the morning. Good luck.

CuffCake

I have no intention of seeing my dr. Theres no point to it as he is not able to provide me with a means of income,.

Sorry but I'm not really looking for advice or reassuarance. I just wanted to air my thoughts somewhere anonymous like a public forum because it makes me feel better and relieved. Sorry

debtfree_future

Sorry OP
I agree with Padded John you need to make an appointment with your doctor.
But Please contact the Samaritians 08457909090 or email
jo@samaritians.org. They are non judgemental ,will listen to you and anything you same to them is confidential.

ohreally

CuffCake wrote: »

Sorry but I'm not really looking for advice or reassuarance. I just wanted to air my thoughts somewhere anonymous like a public forum because it makes me feel better and relieved. Sorry

http://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help-you/contact-us

simson3325

i am like you same situation 55yrs old and cant get employment,feel like ending it but keep on batting on,existing not living.

wilfulsprite

Never ever give up, please. I've been in some horrible places, but things can and do change. Sometimes you have to give yourself a rest and regroup. You never know what's around the corner, and it doesn't have to be the same or worse. Perhaps if you talk to someone it would help - it's too easy to get trapped in a dark and isolated corner.
I hope things get better for you, and anyone else in your position, very soon.

marybelle01

CuffCake wrote: »

Sorry but I'm not really looking for advice or reassuarance.

So what are you looking for? Nobody is going to tell you to give up, or that it would be better if you slit your wrists. The advice you have had is excellent - see your GP and see them NOW if that is how you feel. As my mother used to say: "You are a long time dead". In other words, while you are alive then there are always possibilities and you should grab every moment you can. I can tell you right now exactly what the harm would be - your mother would be devastated and so would everyone else who is in your family or who knows you. You think nobody would miss you or care? You are wrong. While you are alive there is ALWAYS hope.

Get some help. There is no shame in feeling this bad. But there is in doing nothing about it and depriving your familly and friends of your company. Trust me, I know. A close friend killed herself last year after many attempts. She thought this would be better for her and better for her friends. She's dead, so I don't think she feeling better. And I can tell you for a fact that it it is not better for her friends. Despite the fact that we couldn't have stopped her or done anything more for her, we all live with the wondering about whether we could have done something better, or different, that would have stopped her. We will live with that for the rest of our lives. We will never get over her death. That's the legacy she left us with. We loved her and cared for her. Still do. But what she did was cruel and selfish.

Do you really want to be responsible for all that? I don't think you do. See your doctor. No they can't give you a job. But they can help how you feel. And a year out of work is miserable and hard. But people get back to work. After a lot longer than that. Use this board for what it is meant for - tell people why you are out of work, why you can't get a job, what you want to do and what is stopping you. You can get loads of useful advice on those things, maybe enough to be back in a few months saying you got a job! There is always a chance and always hope, no mater how bad it feels.

Woodyrocks

OP, for what it is worth, there will come a day when you will see how truly unimportant all the stuff you ever worried about was. I am not sharing this by way of advice or reassurance but as someone that knows that life itself is pointless yet the task falls on us to give life, our own life that is, direction. As in we are the point. Or the pointer if you would rather.

If the character you are currently playing sucks and the role is no fun at all, find yourself a new script to work with. Redefine, redesign, rewrite and resurrect your part because you cannot get away from your self regardless of which tactic or route you choose.

Hang in there and you might just end up surprised by your own story. And at the end of the day, all of our mortal lives will enventually reach its own natural conclusion soon enough without any assistance from us.

getmore4less

Go talk to your mum.

CuffCake

I understand what you are saying ad it does all make sense but I've tried the dust it off and keep going thing for so long now I am tired and not motivated. I know because before I would worry about what my mother would do, how upset she would be, She was the only reason I would not attempt to do this but now to me, it doesn't really matter. She is old so she doesn't have to long to dwell on the hurt so that's my reason for feeling better.

Sorry I will not talk to her because shes always going on about god and telling me to pray . Its rubbish and not helpful anyway because I don't believe in god. Sorry to ramble and sorry to come here and bore you and feel sorry for myself but believe me when I say I am not, I am more relaxed and happy/relieved to get this off my chest.

Thanks.