Dont know what to do.

mystery07

kentguy07 wrote: »

through out my life i have been treated like dirt by other people i used to get the hell beat out of me in school and this continued up until i was 17 then i locked myself away i wouldn't go out i then started to self harm but with some help from my family i got therapy and got meds and i started to feel better.

I am 23 now and 6 months ago i was beaten again and in fear i punched the person back hard and they called the police said that i hit them first and their girlfriend backed their story up by lying to the police to i went to jail then i went to court but the case got thrown out on.

I spent 1 night in a cell which was cold had no hot water then i was kicked out of the police station on bail at 1am with nowhere to go the police banned me from going within 9 miles of my home town i had to call my god mother who is elderly at 1am in the morning and she kindly let me sleep on the sofa where i cried myself to sleep all i could think about that night was suicide.

ever since then i have not left my new house i cant face it i lost my jsa claim/benefits because i cant face leaving my house and i just don't know what to do.

i feel worthless and i just want to fade away. I cant face being around people anymore. my life is going no where and i feel worthless. I have put on a lot of weight i have trouble sleeping and i keep having flash backs of when i was beaten and the events that happened after that.

Hi Kentguy

Sorry to hear you are feeling so depressed. Talking to people on here is a great start. You say you spent a night with your godmother..........then ever since youve not left you new house?!

Im assuming this must have been quite recent?! I think just from that, your underestimating how strong you really are!!!!

So youve managed to move house (Im guessing youve done that alone, since it doesnt sound like you have much family?!) youve at the bare minimum got your PC working & an internet connection (otherwise you wouldnt be here)....so you are able to manage some things. Im not by any means trying to take anything away, from the pain your going through, but perhaps you need someone to say that you can get through it.

As youve said, when you were younger your family helped & you got better! Could any of those people help now?

I would agree with the other guys on the benefits front. Your clearly not ready to go out to work just yet, I would try ringing the DWP & seeing if you can claim Incapacity benefit/DLA or alternatively speak to CAB.

If you think about your situation logically (or as logically as you can!), if your depressed & locking yourself away, you will become more depressed just because your seeing the same 4 walls every day. If you could just do a little, like walk to your local shop for a newspaper or some milk every day or so & go & see you GP & be honest about how your feeling, Im sure all these little things would help. As would even just coming on here to chat........there are lots of people whove had tough times for different reasons, you might find you have something in common with some of us!

Take care & Big hugs, things can only get better

XxX

samanthag

i just wanted to say good luck to you kentguy i wish you all the best on your recovery hopefully you will get there with lots of help and support.
do keep us posted
sammy xx

kentguy07

Hey guys Thank you so much for your replys since i posted this i have been to the doctors and i am getting the help i need i also have made a claim for incap &
income support i called the help line and they said that if i dont get one benefit i will get the other.

My gp offered me meds and also counselling i have to go back in 2 weeks time for a follow up and to start counselling.

just thought i would let you guys know. hopefully in the future i can get over what has happened and carry on with life.

thank you all for your advice and kind words.

RoCas

kentguy, thank you for the update. I'm glad to hear you've managed to go to the doctor and that he is giving you the help you need. Well done, also, for making your incapacity & income support claims.

Please keep posting to let us know how your getting on.

Morglin

MIND may be able to advise you - they are excellent with issues around depression etc.,

http://www.mind.org.uk/Mind+in+your+area/

Lin