I need support before I kill myself!

make_me_wise

Could your Aunt let you lodge at her place or are there any friends you could move in with?

meritaten

HI LisaB - sounds like things are getting worse for you.
you say your aunt came round and she is sympathetic to you? is there any possibility of her taking you in? even on a temporary basis?
I remember your previous posts hun - I sense that YOU feel even more trapped now.
Lisa - go back to your GP and tell him that you are thinking of suicide and you need help. perhaps even some time at a mental health unit just to give you breathing space and sympathetic people to help you. you cannot go on like this! something will snap and you could harm yourself or others - you dont want that do you?

I really urge you to see your GP or phone the Samaritans when things get too much for you.
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LisaB85

tescobabe69 wrote: »

My wife loves riding too, unfortunately we cannot afford it, do you get a special deal ?

I know the yard owners.....

u_r

may i ask firstly how old are you , as you are still living with parents (just to undrstand the situ a bit better)

secondly- regarding the matter, gas issue, leave it to them.they do as they please.whwn things go wrong they sort it out.I know its easy saying.but once you have advised about the correct procedure, noone accecpts it, say to yourself you done your duty, your job is done!!!!!!!

try ignoring and blanking out some of the things that are thrown back at you when you advise-I am sure then when things do go wrong after that they will feeel guilty for not listening to you.then when they ask u to fix that problem, just dont go out of your way to do it.tell em the professionals are ther to do it!!!!!!

sausagesandwich19

I feel drained after reading that

LisaB85

make_me_wise wrote: »

Could your Aunt let you lodge at her place or are there any friends you could move in with?

No room there else it would be ideal, I'd rent a room off them.

I have very few friends since they settled had kids etc, I have worked hard to try and rebuild my confidence but I have a long way to go.

I can meet people once I have spoken to them first through other means but people talking to me in day to day life out of the blue worries me, I don't trust them.

Job interviews are ok once I know who I am seeing but still need to work on that as I'm sure I come across nervous.

Humphrey10

LisaB85 wrote: »

I can only imagine how much it would affect me having to give up and being stuck in a town where I am even worried walking round in day light. It isn't like Iraq but it is not a nice place.

Why do you have to move to that town? Why not just move somewhere else if you don't like that town?

LisaB85

u_r wrote: »

may i ask firstly how old are you , as you are still living with parents (just to undrstand the situ a bit better)

secondly- regarding the matter, gas issue, leave it to them.they do as they please.whwn things go wrong they sort it out.I know its easy saying.but once you have advised about the correct procedure, noone accecpts it, say to yourself you done your duty, your job is done!!!!!!!

try ignoring and blanking out some of the things that are thrown back at you when you advise-I am sure then when things do go wrong after that they will feeel guilty for not listening to you.then when they ask u to fix that problem, just dont go out of your way to do it.tell em the professionals are ther to do it!!!!!!

I'm 26 I moved back home 3 years ago after a relationship breakdown, I wanted to stay in Lincs but thought coming home, going to college etc was a better option.

It isn't just the gas though, they were nearly evicted due to their mistakes, I deal with their debts as they ignore it and the calls etc are constant, deal with their banking and benefits as they cannot budget, write letters for them, help my mum cook as she can't manage to look at the time she put things in the oven etc.

She seems to be getting very forgetful/unable to read insructions etc but that is another story.

I keep getting told to let them get on with it but can imagine they would end up in prison or a cardboard box, not sure I could watch that happen to anyone.

u_r

LisaB85 wrote: »

I'm 26 I moved back home 3 years ago after a relationship breakdown, I wanted to stay in Lincs but thought coming home, going to college etc was a better option.

It isn't just the gas though, they were nearly evicted due to their mistakes, I deal with their debts as they ignore it and the calls etc are constant, deal with their banking and benefits as they cannot budget, write letters for them.

I keep getting told to let them get on with it but can imagine they would end up in prison or a cardboard box, not sure I could watch that happen to anyone.

very tricky situ u are in.................u have to just persevere and when theay are not in a shouting mood make them realise that they are in deep sh** and what actions can be put into place to handle this and that you cant afford to see them in trouble.

how old is your sister and why is she acting the way she is i.e leaving dinner and then you get told off for that.can she not play her part in explaining things to her parents, even if she is as young as 15, 16 she still can do that.may say all above to her first instead of parents and get her on yourside to help the whole family!

WestonDave

Is it worth speaking to your GP (presumably the same one as theirs) as it appears that your mum might be showing early signs of dementia.