What to do for the best?

BitterAndTwisted

I suspect your worrying about the knife is a symptom of your illness. Nothing bad will happen now that you've handed it over.

As to your wife, look at it this way: as you say she's got the kids, she's got your family home and now she's demanding money you don't have. it;'s not possible for you to hand over that which you do not have. When you have made a recovery and you are well enough to work then I'm sure you'd be happy to contribute all that you are able.

What's happening to that lovely house you found to rent from that nice couple?

HappySaver1968

Hi fellow moneysavers. I can't tell you how much your support means to me, really overwhelmed if I'm honest.

I just thought I'd check before bed, and to let you know I had a good look over the CSA website and it does seem like my wife is really trying to tip me over the edge. There is no way I can pay this £200, as much as I love my children and surely she knows this already. I don't want to divulge exactly what she's been doing because it's very personal but I do know from what I've been told by the social worker that she could be charged and the social worker wanted me to take forward a complaint because she said she HAD to report what I was telling her due to my circumstances. I have postponed my house move for now and thankfully the landlord and his wife were very understanding of my situation. They have given me another week to sort things out but did say they would have no choice to put it on the market again if I didn't get in touch and to please not let them down.

I feel I should mention the medication I'm on just for my own peace of mind and in the hope someone can advise me about a new one they want me to start? have you heard of Abilify? my CPN said the Consultant Psychiatrist wishes for me to start on this and at the moment I'm on Prasozin, Solifenacin and Escitalopram which does seem more than enough. My CPN is well aware that my wife is making things difficult for me and understands that I can't just contact with my kids, love them too much. My wife obviously plays on this and seems to be very good at leaving me a complete mess. I'll try and get some sleep, many thanks again and hope someone can help on the medication side of things, fingers crossed.

Goodnight, John.

BitterAndTwisted

John,

I doubt that you'll get any sensible advice about the medication: there aren't any psychiatric nurses or psychiatrists who post on here to my knowledge. Trust the advice you are given by the specialists who know you, your condition and your circumstances best.

Don't accept any unsupervised contact from your wife for the time being until you think you can cope with her better.

brummiebabe

I'm a CPN......would recommend that you ask your CPN for some information about Abilify. Briefly, it's an Anti-Psychotic drug but is also used as a mood stabiliser. The Escitalopram is an anti-depressant, but I'm not sure what the other drugs are. Please ask the CPN - they will have access to lots of information, which should be in an easily understandable form.

I wish you all the best......but know we're not meant to give medical advice etc on here, so would encourage you to speak to your CPN - part of our role is psycho-education, so they won't mind you asking!!!

Heart_Shaped_Diamond

John, I too have suffered from depression in the past. And your posts make me very worried that you'll do something drastic. If your nurse knew you were contemplating suicide they'd refer you inpatient. Don't you think that might be the best place to be at the moment?

Being an inpateint will help you clear your head. You will be able to talk to professionals who deal with people in similar situations to you, ever day. And you'll be in a protected environment where you won't have any access to 'kitchen knives' or 'pills'. As you say, you've had experiences in the past. For your children's sake, more needs to be done for the sake of your life. Even if you don't feel like living at the moment, with everything that is going on around you. Please don't leave your children to grow up knowing their father brutally killed himself.

You must inform someone imediately. If not your nurse then a help line, at the least.

HopeLine UK – 0800 068 4141 – for practical advice on suicide prevention.