Depression

Sazbo

Good morning my lovlies :hello:

Tiffy! You're a marvel, as if we didn't know that already! Well done you on joining the gym :T Sounds like a great place. You'll be whipping them into shape in no time;):D I'm bracing myself to be a very green sazzy, envious of how fab you'll look at the wedding:) You'll put everyone else in the shade, I just know it. Will be thinking of you today and sending you much love as always.

Ethel hun. Do you think you'll go get your results today? Totally understand your being apprehensive about it - but I guess the sooner you know, the sooner you can sort a plan of action either way. Hows DD? Is she back at original place now? Sazbomberxxxxxxxx

MIRO! :wave: :j Great to see you, I've missed you a lot. Rarely a day's gone by I haven't wondered how you were, if you were ok. So it's really good to hear from you. I've not been on here as much myself recently, you know how it is. Good phases and not so good phases.

To everyone here - much love and big hugs to all of you. At least it's Friday today...

Sazxxxxxx

EthelBloggs

sazbomber!!!!!!!!!! :hello:

well I had the tests on tuesday and they said 3 days for the result so.. would that be today or monday? anyway I rang the surgery and they only give out results after 2pm so either way i got to wait, lol

daughter is back in the original place.. apparenlty her consultant went ballistic on monday as a different doctor moved her on his day off. the place they moved her to, while very nice wasn't really appropriate.. there were some real basket cases in there which I think might have made her deteriorate further. Her consultant said pretty much the same thing

Got a meeting this afternoon.... as per usual.. to see what's going on and how things are etc. I don't think she'll be coming home this weekend but who knows.. I'm usually wrong.

How's you doing sazzy? it's not the same without you about the place, I know I can't talk after my absence but..... you know wht i mean

Big huggs xxxxx

blinky

Hi Sazbo :hello: :j:

Hope you are well and have a good weekend

Sazbo

Hi sweetheart! Aww, you are kind to me. It's nice to feel wanted:) Poor DD though, getting moved around like that. Does sound sometimes with her care it's a case of the right hand not knowing what the left hand is doing? But hope the meeting goes well anyway.

Re results, I guess three days would be today - no harm calling this afternoon I reckon. How's things with b/f?

I'm not bad hun thanks for asking. Don't know what happens, I just get these phases where I need to withdraw. Not just from here, but from things in general. Don't know why really, think I've always been like that/this

Did 45 mins on the treadmill this morning :eek: Wearing me feet out! Is this wise? I'll be even shorter than I am already! :rotfl: Who's idea was it to do a 10K?!

Sxxxx

Sazbo

blinky wrote: »

Hi Sazbo :hello: :j:

Hope you are well and have a good weekend

Hi Blinky! :wave: Bearing up hun:) Hurrah weekend soon. Glad to hear things are still going well for you - you give the rest of us hope!:D

You take care,
Sazzyxxxxxxxx

patchwork_cat

Hi
I am feeling very down today. We have quite a catalogue recently - the car going wrong again, the dishwasher breaking down and needing mending. MFI messing up our suite order again, and both our breeding cats that we thought were pregnant aren't. I sometimes find it hard to identify depression as opposed to just having a few bad days. I suppose I could use the £100 in the garden test for flu. I really am feeling why is it that everything always seems to go wrong for me?

rose07

hey ho, here we go, rosie gonna flowwwww....

Hello everyone,

Firstly Tiff this is for you



I hope it all went ok for you today hu, with appointments and things, certainly sounds like you been going through the trials of emotional and physical pain recently, but i know you a strong, super tiff, so you be fine. Now the gym :j , well done tiff, im very proud of you;) , takes alot to do that, and you have, so well done, and as to your family, family is family aint it, ya dont get to choose,:o but they are still there. Tho they certainly dont need to say some of the things they have, making remarks about things to do with the wedding,:rolleyes: clearly aint fair.

Ok my neck slowly getting sore, thing im realising with my foot, im learning to bend in all kinda ways i never thought i could :rotfl: , managed a shower last night, nearly fell in the bath, as shower is in the bath, doesnt make it easy for me, but hey, i like a challenge , so had a shower i did, great difficulty, standing on one leg, whilst balancing like a failed trapize artist:rotfl:

Im pretty busy atm, its my dads 60th birthday today :eek: , lol, and its his birthday party tomorrow night, and i tell ya, i think the whole island is invited, plus we had people jet in from glasgow, and cardiff just for the party, its gonna be a biggy , so i been entertaining today, managed to make it out today for the 1st time since the operation, sounds silly, but i was getting soo agoraphobic, my psychiatrist was getting concerned, but today, i managed it, got out, and feel better for it

So now just the party tomorrow, and yeah i may be on the dizzy water tiff, but i will certainly be sensible

Now everyone take care of yourself

much love and sweet dreams

xxxxxxx

geminilady

Tiff wrote: »

Tiff...Tiff...Tiff...

Hi guys!:hello:
Hope we're all safe and sound?
Been a very busy week at Tiff Towers.:rolleyes: Terribly tuckered Tiff!

Tiff Time...:o

Monday, mum called to say that my sister would be collecting the Dad's furniture that I've had stored in my house and shed for the last 1 and 1/2 years, the next day. After numerous requests from me to pick up these items, sis had said last year that she didn't have the room at her new house, didn't know when she'd be able to pick it up and that I may as well do what I wanted with it.

So I had started to use some of the furniture, including a nearly new bed which I'd given to DS (because his bed was nearly as old as I am!:D ), wardrobes, sideboard, coffee tables etc., which was helpful to me. When I heard that she was coming to collect it all, I must admit, I felt upset and hurt for being messed around and taken for granted.

So by Tuesday, all our belongings were taken from the furniture, papers, clothes etc and were stacked in piles around the house. Still are.:eek: :rolleyes:

They came to pick up the furniture, and my sis tries to pick and choose which bits she wanted to take this time. They had been and collected some furniture last year.
Ol' Tiff put her paw down and said no thanks, you can take it all. I didn't want to be left with random bits and pieces and end up having to empty it all again when it was convenient for them.:rolleyes:

Smiling jokingly/sarcastically, sis said 'No, you didn't understand the question - you do want to keep some of this don't you?!'
And Tiff replied jokingly/sarcastically, 'No, you didn't understand the answer - no thank you!' She laughed.:D And said furniture etc was taken.

I don't mind helping at all - I'm still storing plates/ornaments etc belonging to my mum since she went into a sheltered flat, bless her. But my sis, like my brother, has the tendency sometimes to be thoughtless. Some people just don't think about their words/actions.

So Tiff followed flissy's good example by starting a diet last Friday. I weighed myself yesterday and Week 1 has seen me lose 4 potatoes and a carrot! :rotfl: Nope, I lost 4 and 1/2 lbs!:j :j :j That made me feel better - even though it's more down to blood, sweat and tears I think!


Now some of you may want to sit down for this next part...
Tiffy has joined a gym!!!:eek:
Don't worry guys, it's not the end of life as we know it!;) I was waiting to explode into dust, like the vampires do in daylight!:rotfl:
Gyms have always been against my religion and have never been near one since school - and even then, I had to be dragged kicking and screaming.:D

It's a fat-friendly gym, women only, all ages,shapes and sizes, small and friendly, no mirrors, all equipment is this air-resistance stuff and they measure you up and give you a physical first so you can monitor your progess. Everything from your bp to your BMI!:eek:
That's the only bad bit.;)

You do a circuit of 7 machines, one for each part, and you're on each piece for three minutes. Your total allotted time is 30 minutes, enough to work your body and tone and lose weight.
I was really nervous and anxious about a couple of machines and because of the pain my arthritis would give me - one you have to go on to stretch your spine, going on your knees, and tipping yourself forward, no hands!:eek: I said - you want me to put what where?!!!:rotfl:

But it was brilliant guys and I felt proud for going. I so nearly whimped out. It's called Gym Heaven & it's for women who feel intimidated by exercising for the first time, or around men and women who look as though they could run a marathon in their lunch break! No pressure at all. I'm even going back today. :j :j :j

There's another one opened not long ago called Gymaphobics - similar concept.

I came out sweating and feeling like I'd done a real workout and it only took 30 mins to do each part of your body. There were positions I didn't know I could get my legs into!:eek: :rotfl: Apparently, lots go in their lunch breaks once they get fitter and don't sweat much!!!:rolleyes: I feel really self-conscious about my body, after years of different abuse, destined to be a couch potato (fried, with ketchup!:p ) forever. But I really enjoyed it.:T I felt like...



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Have kept it to myself, (sorry ), but feeling a bit of a scaredy Tiff as today I'm going to have an MRI on my right shoulder and arm, as well as blood tests (I'll count the bottles ethel!:D ) and a heart trace too!

I phoned yesterday, after I got back from grocery shopping at Asda!, to confirm the MRI scan (appt came very quickly), and the nurse confirmed that I was having my right arm and shoulder -and my spine scanned! News to me!
So now I'm a vewy fwightened Tiffster! :eek:



Then later yesterday, I went out and saw the sheep shearer and treated myself to a haircut ready for the wedding in 3 weeks. They did a good job and I felt pretty and special. Of course this morning, it looks carpy!:rolleyes:

The future sister-in-law phoned late last night and asked me did I want a corsage like the mothers and bridesmaids were having, as my sis had said she wanted one. I said yes please.

She said, 'That's only if you're going to come. If you're not ill. And it'll cost a fiver so sort the money out with her.'
I felt really hurt - I said 'Nothing will make me miss my brother's wedding.'

I'm not being over-sensitive am I? This has followed on from the 'you can wear that dress you wore at Christmas - that'll do' and 'We'll order you your dairy free special diet food for the meal at the reception if you are definately coming.' Believe me I feel bad enough about myself without these thoughtless remarks.:o

Therefore, when I got up this morning, it was a nice surprise to find I'd had gotten a long text from her apologising if she had hurt my feelings. Guess my brother maybe said something as he was with her - although he does the same thing!:rolleyes:

People are entitled to their points of view - but not at the expense of other people's feelings. Some people just go running off at the mouth without thinking that their attitude is being hurtful or aggressive or thoughtless.

So guys, I'm turning to my family this morning to ask you, if you have the time, to please cross everything today for me and send any spare hugs. I know I'm just being a silly Tiff- sorry.

Sorry for the length of this guys but I've been kicked up and down the emotional playing field this week and I'm feeling a bit tearful and low this a.m. I know you all have really serious stuff to deal with, in which case, smack my muzzle and tell me to get a grip.

Is this the longest Tiff Chronicle in the thread's history?:rolleyes:

I hope you all know I'm thinking of you and sending you hugs and that I'll get to your posts as soon as I'm physically and emotionally vertical.;) You know I do care, don't you?:A Look after yourselves guys!
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Hi Tiff,Had my fingers crossed all day for you hope all your tests went well.I know its worrying but they need to do them to make a correct diagnosis and sort out the best treatment ,you are definately not been over sensative about your future sister in law,she is the insensative one and i am glad she at least had the grace to apolagise.
Well done for starting a diet and four and a half pounds is a great start.Also i was interested to here about the gym i could never imagine going in one but the ones you describe sound completely differant from how i imagined.You are certainly taking yourself in hand lately and making grat strides,well done!
Never apolagise for long posts on here you write very little about yourself you are always busy helping others but we are here for you too and we do care.Hope you feal a little better in the morning and have a good weekend.

Tiff_2

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Good morning guys!:hello:
I hope everyone is safe and sound. Apologies for not getting to any posts in the last couple of days guys. I promise to catch up.

You can all shout at Tiff now - I was far too jittery to go to the gym an hour before my appt. for MRI scan. Wuss!!!

Was very poorly in all ways yesterday and was shaking and shivering from fighting the agoraphobia and its attached problems when I came out from MRI. But I was pleased I stuck it out because I don't have to go and have it re-done. I think that's all that kept me going because the last thing I wanted to do was have to go through it all again.;)

Afterwards, all the nurses said they didn't think I was well enough to have it done and that I'd push the panic button, but I didn't. They said I was in shock and made me hang around for a little while. It didn't hurt much physically - just from the arthritis of lying on a steel table, completely still for a long period of time.

They said it wouldn't be a good idea to get the heart trace done as it wouldn't be an accurate reading, so I then went to the vampires who happily collected 7 vials for tests. Nurses were stopping us in the corridors and asking if I was all right!:o

I then came home, in tears, very nauseous and shaken, and finished the day off with a couple of panic attacks just for good measure.:rolleyes:
So you see guys, Tiffy's the same as you all are :T and when I get too low, it shows. I took on far too much this week - although most of it I had no say in.:rolleyes: My problem is not knowing when something is too much. And even though I know what I'd say to someone else in the same position, I can't seem to follow my own advice!:rolleyes:

But, it's all done and dusted now :T, and you can't keep a good Tiff down! :rolleyes:

Thank you to those who so kindly crossed everything for me (you can uncross now - or maybe not!:eek: ) and for the support. It really helps when you know that someone, somewhere cares and is rooting from you.:T :A Thank you.:o

Well, I've got the house to put back together after this week's encounter with sis taking half the furniture.:rolleyes: There's also an ugly mountain of laundry that keeps looking at me too - I swear it moves!:eek:

And that's the extent of my exciting weekend so far!:rotfl: They've forecast some light rain showers today and tomorrow so no real gardening to do. I hope everyone is well and hope to post later on, when I feel well enough to do justice to your posts. Going for a catnap. Thinking of you all!
Switch the lights off on your way out please!:D
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

flis21

Hi all,

Tiff, am glad you survived yesterday, when will you find out the results of your tests?

Had a really good couple of days actually. Thursday evening actually sat down with hubby explained my concerns, talked him through our debt situation and the budget I have planned etc. Spent about 2 hours looking at it all and I know think he finally gets it. It has taken a huge weight off my shoulders as I now don't feel I am trying to do it all alone.

Also we got our holiday booked yesterday, £690 for 2 weeks all inclusive in Turkey, which is pretty good. Am so excited, only 4 weeks today until we are going.

And we are going to the theatre today. Which is my favourite thing to do. Have had these tickets booked for ages (am not buying any more theatre tickets with our new budget), so am going to really enjoy this. It will be the last time for quite a while.

Anyway, love n Hugs to you all. Hope you have a good day and a good weekend.

Flis