Depression

Let_Robinson_Sing

good morning all.

How is everyone today? RBK i hope you're fine hun, take care of yourself
another quick update.
Last night we went for a meal in a Mongolian all you can restaurant. the food was delicious. i even had Zebra meat. After that we all left to go to a swanky club. I didnt enjoy it that much because i wasnt drinking and my mum was harassing me to drink (even though she is the first one to moan when i drink too much.) I did get a bit anxious in places like that but i just went into my own little world and drank my Blackcurrant cordial . We got back at 1:30 i took my sleeping tablet, and in 30 mins i was out

I hope eveerything is ok in the world with you guys

much love

EthelBloggs

morning everyone, just...... it's 11.59 by my clock while I'm typing, heheh

Hope you're all fine.. I've got a bit of a headache today, not sure why, no big deal tho

Other than that, nothing new to report, hope you're all feeling fine today, it's lovely and sunshiney down here, I might even pop out for a walk with no purpose, hehehe xxx

queensway_boy

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rose07

Brothers and sisters together we'll make it through
Someday a spirit will take you and guide you there
I know you've been hurtin, but I've been waitin' to be there for you
And I'll be there just helping you out whenever I can

learning_to_drive

Got dropped today, no reason whatsoever, after keeping two clean sheets, the clique strikes again, their friend got a game, what they wanted.

I've jacked it in now, even though it may seem petty or whatever, at the end of the day, I am a believer in playing to win, and you pick a team that will win you the games, I am not playing for a team that gives other people a chance to sacrifice the people who never let the team down.

Disgraceful, made to look a prat once again, as ever. So I've jacked it in, at least it makes my working arrangements easier.

learning_to_drive

Ive calmed down now, I was furious, mainly because I had done nothing wrong, I was fit to play, its all a cliquey arrangement.

Makes me think cos i never get invited down to the pub randomly like the others , and the other keeper has been coming down to the pub with his g/f and her sister. Makes me think of clandestine meetings discussing everything.

Spineless manager fell for it, I had done nowt wrong, so I wont waste my time playing anymore.

rose07

Hi everyone

hope your all doing ok

have just realised something, rosie sitting on her bed, just got back from shopping with my mum, was intense. last night went out with parents for a drink the whole time i was tense and stressed.

today i have realised when with my mum, i am still that child i was when i was little, scared, frightened, alone. trying to do everything im told, agreeing with what she says, knowing that whatever i say it will be disregarded, put to one side, invisible, and trapped.

Sitting here thinking ......

that my mum is prob half the problem, i will never be able to feel free and better till she realises a few things herself, and she isnt doing it.

Crying,

the child is still within me, and she is still hurting me inside, the things that i have seen, done and been a part in are not fading

Im damaged goods

When with my mum, i feel vulnerable, scared she is going to hurt me like she did when i was younger. She still tells me what i can and cant do, tells me when to jump, doesnt give me privacy, i feel soo trapped,

getting hard to type and breathe, crying......

Why?

Maybe Rosies just having an off day, it hurts, will go dry my tears

xxx

beer2006

rose07 wrote: »

Hi everyone

hope your all doing ok

have just realised something, rosie sitting on her bed, just got back from shopping with my mum, was intense. last night went out with parents for a drink the whole time i was tense and stressed.

today i have realised when with my mum, i am still that child i was when i was little, scared, frightened, alone. trying to do everything im told, agreeing with what she says, knowing that whatever i say it will be disregarded, put to one side, invisible, and trapped.

Sitting here thinking ......

that my mum is prob half the problem, i will never be able to feel free and better till she realises a few things herself, and she isnt doing it.

Crying,

the child is still within me, and she is still hurting me inside, the things that i have seen, done and been a part in are not fading

Im damaged goods

When with my mum, i feel vulnerable, scared she is going to hurt me like she did when i was younger. She still tells me what i can and cant do, tells me when to jump, doesnt give me privacy, i feel soo trapped,

getting hard to type and breathe, crying......

Why?

Maybe Rosies just having an off day, it hurts, will go dry my tears

xxx

Tell them you want a lock on your door and some privacy, Tell them you are not going to do anything silly, but you need time for yourself where you can relax.
Think about finding a room somewhere to rent.

We are all damaged goods Rose, you alot less than you think.

Have you told your Mum about this? It will probably hurt her, she wants the best for you and probably thinks she is looking after you. Maybe time for you to tell her you are grown up and show her you can look after yourself.
x

Horasio

Hi

An update

Bought a car yesterday and waiting on it, should be ready at the end of the month

Trouble is I faxed an order for another car on Friday and sent another fax yesterday to cancel it. I haven't put any money down, but keep trying to ring them to see if they have got the fax and of course the person isn't available:mad:

This is a seriously luxury buy that I have saved up for for quite some time. I still feel jumpy at spending so much tho:eek:

Still nothing on the house. I really hate fake gushing people!! Been a week since a viewing and really feel this place is like a shackle to me now. I hate March, grey, windy, feeling dead and sooooo booooorrrring!

Last time we sold, March was the same, then April got people interested in buying when the plants and weather got better. Trouble is everyone goes out in their garden and is annoying, so here's hoping....

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Tiff, How are you? You give us all so much support here but rarely tell us what's going on in Tiff world. I hope you are OK. Thank you for your supportive post hun.

Let_Robinson_Sing, It sounds like you had a good evening. You ate Zebra :eek: what was it like? How are you feeling today?

Ethel, Thank you for chatting to me last night. It was much appreciated. How are you feeling now? Headache gone? Any word from your daughter today? :grouphug:

Learning_To_Drive, I thought you weren't going to play football because of your back? Are you sure giving up playing is what you really want in the long term. We can all make hasty decisions when we are !!!!ed off which we regret later on.

Rose, Thank you for your support last night. It meant so much. . I'm sorryto hear that you're feeling so down today hun. Are you able to talk to your Mum about they way she makes you feel?

You are a lovely girl Rosie, don't you forget that.

xxx