DreamerHelen's New Diary - "Ad Astra per Aspera"

DreamerHelen

Well the past couple of days I have started to feel a bit better....although seem to be sleeping quite a lot!! Which is annoying....

I'm due to earn more this week than I have in any Week over the last six months....so I'm really pleased at how Work has gone so far....

I've ordered a Tesco Delivery for tonight....so at least I'll have Food for the rest of the Week....so feel good about being able to afford that...

Will be Working across the rest of the Bank Holiday Weekend....can't afford to take time off with it being high Wages across the Bank Holiday....Although I AM going to Mum's on Monday for a Roast Dinner...so that should be lovely....

Mara_uk7

Hiya Helen, how's your weekend going. Mines been good, working on the farm with the cattle again, then a family meal out for my birthday ( and. My brothers, he is day before mine) last night. Lovely local pub food and a little too much wine, so diet out the window this weekend ! Been a gorgeous couple of days so managed to catch some sunshine, and changed colour from white to pink ! Just cooking full roast dinner for my first husband now, I like to call him that, it keeps him on his toes ! :rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

DreamerHelen

Mara_uk7 wrote: »

Hiya Helen, how's your weekend going. Mines been good, working on the farm with the cattle again, then a family meal out for my birthday ( and. My brothers, he is day before mine) last night. Lovely local pub food and a little too much wine, so diet out the window this weekend ! Been a gorgeous couple of days so managed to catch some sunshine, and changed colour from white to pink ! Just cooking full roast dinner for my first husband now, I like to call him that, it keeps him on his toes ! :rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

Hey Mara....Glad to hear that your Weekend is going really well....That's great....and it's funny that you Call your Husband your "First Husband"....that made me smile....

Things here are tough....I'm really tired....very headachy tonight....have tried to sleep and can't....and really trying to improve things with work, which I HAVE but things are still tough financially....

Wish someone would wave a Magic Wand and just make everything all okay....but I know that's not going to happen....and I have to make things happen for myself....Just finding it hard today....And if I can't say it here then where can I say it?

Things will get better....they just have to....

Mara_uk7

Youre right tho, at the end of the day, no-one will hand us life on a plate, we Have to do it ourselves, I think that the day I realised that fully, thats the day I took control of my life. A few years back now, and still lots of things I need to sort out physically, but mentally, Im there. I have a decent job that I enjoy, I am not afraid to say no to people, and Im not afraid to go out and look for or ask for what I want. I dont let anyone walk over me or make me feel inferior. (except me, I can do that to myself on a bad day)

I hope things improve for you this week, and you manage to hit the targets, Feel Well hunni x

DreamerHelen

Mara_uk7 wrote: »

Youre right tho, at the end of the day, no-one will hand us life on a plate, we Have to do it ourselves, I think that the day I realised that fully, thats the day I took control of my life. A few years back now, and still lots of things I need to sort out physically, but mentally, Im there. I have a decent job that I enjoy, I am not afraid to say no to people, and Im not afraid to go out and look for or ask for what I want. I dont let anyone walk over me or make me feel inferior. (except me, I can do that to myself on a bad day)

I hope things improve for you this week, and you manage to hit the targets, Feel Well hunni x

Thanks Mara....and you are ABSOLUTELY correct in what you say....No one is going to give me the Life I want....I just have to go out and grab it for myself....

I'm feeling a bit better in myself....Just have to keep on going....

This Week is quite a quiet one because I've only got College today and then Placement on Thursday but apart from that I can make sure that I dedicate myself to my Work this Week....Had a really good start to the Week with a (nearly) 4-Hour Phone Call which was brilliant....so I'm really pleased with that....

Not going to College until about 4.30pm tonight...so I've got the whole day as a day off to relax....sleep a bit and just generally chill out....which is nice...

crimson.addict

I just wanted to pop in to tell you I'm so proud of you and how well you are doing at the moment Keep strong x

DreamerHelen

crimson.addict wrote: »

I just wanted to pop in to tell you I'm so proud of you and how well you are doing at the moment Keep strong x

Aww thank you hun.... :kisses3: I really appreciate that.....It's nice to know that you have seen how I'm improving....and I will carry on improving!!

This Afternoon I want to do the Washing Up....and then work on my Budget for the next few months....I want to see what I will have to earn and at least I can work out something realistic...

Just about to have Pizza....but it's bought from T**co....rather than Takeout....I spend £5 on 3 bought Pizza's per week that way whenever I fancy a Pizza it won't cost me the £20 that it usually costs for a Takeout Pizza....and I don't feel bad!! And they last for about a Week so that's perfect....I think I CAN freeze them if I need to....so might look into that....

Feeling really positive and looking forward to College tonight....Should be good....and keeps me looking forward to what I want to achieve and where I want to be when the Course finishes....

Mara_uk7

Pizzas freeze fine, I only buy them when on offer.

Im heading out to the supermarket at lunchtime to refill the fridge with loads of salady stuff, seems easier to want that when the weathers so nice and warm. My first husband might object a bit to the rabbit food as he calls it, but I just add scotch eggs, or some extra meat & a baked tattie for him.

He says he will help me with my diet, but still insists on "proper food" for himself !

Todays lunch break is going to be a crab salad roll, some diet pepsi and a couple of chapters of my book by the beach. (I could hit the shore with a stone from my office window). I really should live in a warm country, feel so much healthier with some sunshine on my face.

But first, I have to go to the charity shop, My boot is full of [STRIKE]clutter[/STRIKE] valuable artefacts which someone else can appreciate for a change ! :rotfl::rotfl:

DreamerHelen

Hey Mara hun..... :beer:

Well done for sticking with your Diet....I'm going to be starting Slimming World soon....I went to see the Nurse at my GP's Surgery on Friday to get me started at the Council Gym....which will be about £15 for 6 Weeks at first and they will monitor me and see how I do...and then after that I think I pay about £20 per month and I can use the Gym whenever I want at that point....

You are so lucky to Work near the Beach....The nearest Beach to here is either Southend or Brighton....and that's still over an hour and a half away for both....but I still love them both....

Hope you enjoy your Book and Crab Rolls....sounds yummy!!

Just eaten my Pizza....going to wait for it to go down cause I'm now feeling stuffed....and then I'm going to do the Washing Up, then light an Incense Stick...then put my Washing away that I did at Mum's yesterday (bless her) and then I might log on and do a couple of hours Work while doing my Budget....

I like to stay busy....It makes me feel more positive than if I simply sit and watch TV all day...if that makes sense....

Am really looking forward to going to College tonight....and then coming home and Working for some hours to really make a dent in this Week's Target....

I AM getting there....it's slow....but I'm still getting there...

crimson.addict

well the fact that you want to do a few hours work after all that cleaning and sorting is a really big change from just a few short weeks ago You really are doing well. You just need to keep at it and it will become second nature to you