DreamerHelen's New Diary - "Ad Astra per Aspera"

PestoPasta

Hi Helen, good that you have logged on. You have to stick with it even during difficult times like these. Hope you have a good night.

DreamerHelen

Mara_uk7 wrote: »

## wags finger ## now now, dont you go encouraging that poor man, lol, he told you he was skint ! Bad Helen ! Lol

LoL :rotfl: I can't help it.....I'm a bad bad girl....So spank me...

Feeling slightly more positive now that I've logged on....

Still not heard from Dad....I'm watching my Mobile carefully for signs of a Text or a Call....But it may not be until tomorrow....xXx

DreamerHelen

PestoPasta wrote: »

Hi Helen, good that you have logged on. You have to stick with it even during difficult times like these. Hope you have a good night.

Thanks for the encouragement hun....I know I have to stick with it....It IS hard but I'll get there....Just have to keep at it...

DreamerHelen

Well, it might be quiet so far tonight but being logged on is keeping me focussed for the Week ahead....

I'm feeling a LOT more positive.

Haven't heard from Dad yet...I'm assuming it will be tomorrow now....so I'm a bit on tenterhooks....but I know also that Grandad wouldn't want me to do badly at Work because of him...so I have to respect him by keeping going...If that makes sense? Respect HIM and respect MYSELF....

I have a larger Target this Week but because I'm doing more hours I have less of an hourly Target...if that makes sense...and it's VERY manageable....even if it means I won't get too much sleep....But I WILL get there...I'm determined!!

So, all in all, things are going okay tonight xXx

Mara_uk7

Are you watching the show about learning to speak english ? Cant believe here are folks who have been here over a year or more, who dont even have the basics !

PestoPasta

Helen, just stick with those hours! You are doing great, but you have to continue doing it week in week out. Glad that you are feeling a little better. Keeping busy is always the best policy in times of stress in my opinion...

DreamerHelen

Mara_uk7 wrote: »

Are you watching the show about learning to speak english ? Cant believe here are folks who have been here over a year or more, who dont even have the basics !

Nope....Have just finished watching "Harry Potter and the Philosophers Stone"....and now I'm watching "Biggest Loser: Australia"....

I know what you mean hun....I think if you live in a Country you should speak at least the Basics....If I went to live in Egypt or something then I would learn Arabic....But I know that not everyone feels the same.....

DreamerHelen

PestoPasta wrote: »

Helen, just stick with those hours! You are doing great, but you have to continue doing it week in week out. Glad that you are feeling a little better. Keeping busy is always the best policy in times of stress in my opinion...

Thanks hun....Yes, I know this is Week in, Week out...and I have to continue the momentum....

I'm still logged in....My Regular said he would come on at Midnight, so I'm really looking forward to that....even if he only stays for an hour....

Still feeling much more Positive than I was earlier on...

Special Thanks to Mara and Pesto for your Support....You Ladies are AMAZING!! xXx

Mara_uk7

No were not, Helen, you're the amazing one, look how you've stepped up to this challenge. And you're not going to let it beat you.
Your grandad would be proud of how you're turning things around.

I do hope you get close to where you were this time last week, do you keep note daily ?
Do you know, i think the new positive you is even more healthy and happy than the you of two weeks ago. .. If that makes sense !

DreamerHelen

Mara_uk7 wrote: »

No were not, Helen, you're the amazing one, look how you've stepped up to this challenge. And you're not going to let it beat you.
Your grandad would be proud of how you're turning things around.

I do hope you get close to where you were this time last week, do you keep note daily ?
Do you know, i think the new positive you is even more healthy and happy than the you of two weeks ago. .. If that makes sense !

Hi Hun....Thank You so much for your lovely Words....I don't see myself as amazing....but I AM proud of what I've done over the past couple of Weeks....I really DO feel like I've turned things around....and I just need to continue the momentum...

I hope that my Family are proud of me....I'M starting to be proud of me and who I'm becoming and that feels good...

No, I don't tend to keep a daily note of where I was last Week and the Week before....What I do is work out my hours for the Week and work out what I'd like to earn hourly...and then hope that I can meet that - Usually I earn more at Night so then I don't have to earn as much during the day...if that makes sense...But also, I realise that I don't have any control over who Calls me.

I am definitely happier than I was a few short weeks ago....Feeling proud of myself has done wonders for me and my self-esteem...Hard to explain but it makes me feel like I'm really working towards something and that I'm doing something worthwhile and a good job...

Hope that all makes sense....