Getting cat PTS - am I doing the right thing?

Froglet

May I Go

Do you think the time is right?
May I say goodbye to pain filled days and endless lonely nights?
I've lived my life and done my best, an example tried to be.
So can I take that step beyond, and set my spirit free?
I didn't want to go at first, I fought with all my might.
But something seems to draw me now to a warm and living light.
I want to go, I really do; it's difficult to stay.
But I will try as best I can to live just one more day.
To give you time to care for me and share your love and fears.
I know you're sad and afraid, because I see your tears.
I'll not be far, I promise that, and hope you'll always know,
That my spirit will be close to you wherever you may go.
Thank you so for loving me. You know I love you too,
And that's why it's hard to say goodbye and end this life with you.
So hold me now just one more time and let me hear you say,
Because you care so much for me, you'll let me go today.


Always bring tears to my eyes,but if it helps................

blue_monkey_2

Thank you all for your kind words. I skipped over Rainbow Bridge today as I thought this might set me off. I think I'll print your poem if the kids do not understand froglet, thank you.

Thank you all of you. Now I just have to pick up the phone and make that appointment.

balletshoes

You are being very brave blue monkey, thinking of you [hugs].
I can't read the Rainbow Bridge at all, sets me off at the first line .

dundeedoll_2

blue_monkey Just wanted to say I am thinking of you and sending you (((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))

top_drawer_2

Just wanted to say that my thoughts are with you.

All the best xx

lizziebabe

Hi blue_monkey - My thoughts are with you. It is a difficult decision to make. I have had 4 cats each lovely and unique with their own special personality.

Now I have one - Simba who is 15. He is very special and also a diabetic. I diagnosed him about 2 years ago (I am a nurse) and he had pancreatitis about a year before he was diagnosed.

He is very well controlled at the moment but I know when the time comes I will also find it very hard.

Our Tigger died last year. She was 13 and had died on my neighbours back doorstep. Just fell asleep.......

At first Simba missed her terribly and we both thought she would come around the corner at any time. He obviously has got used to being alone now but is very needy with me. You know, wants to be with me all the time and sit on me.

I always think of quality of life and whether the animal is having a good quality of life. Cats can reverse diabetes, whereas humans and dogs cannot. If your cat has lost a lot of weight maybe they are reversing, but I am sure your vet will have told you.

All the best with your decision - all of us cat lovers are with you

Hugs

mozzyc

Stay strong, thinking of you x

blue_monkey_2

I am just back from the vets and wanted to thank you all for helping me be strong enough to see this through.

I came home thinking that maybe I did not spend enough time in the room with her, did they think that I was uncaring for rushing out? They offered me the chance to stay there and watch but I just broke down then and said no, i would leave her. I realised at that moment that it must be so hard to be a vet. I thought they may try to talk me out of it but I think he realised that she was old and had been on meds for a long time so it was the right time. He was really kind and I had a cuddle with her but I knew I had to do the right thing and I had to leave.

I picked her up to take her and she did not really respond to my calling her and she was a bag of bones. Deep in my heart I know I have done the right thing but I just feel so guilty right now.

I am not sure what to do now - I have this weird feeling. I have insurance so I have to sort that and cancel that but also need a claim form because we have paid for 5 months of her treatment and usually claim once every 6 months.

I am rambling but I just wanted to let you all know because you have all been so helpful and supportive. The dogs were all over me when I came in, but they were good with it instead of jumping up, I think they knew. It was just different somehow.

Just had a sh itty email from a customer who did not read the order screen (I sell online) and whose payment was declined and all that is my fault too. She insisted I call her RIGHT NOW but I replied 'no, I've just had my pet put to sleep I am not working until tomorrow' but she was so rude to me I actually did not care. Does that make me sound awful? it's been a kind of a day. And I found a penny this morning when walking the dog!

Thank you all for listening to me ramble. I am going to try and eat some lunch - I feel I need chocolate, crisps and something hot and sweet. In whatever order.

Yolina

Awwwwwww hun, I know how that feels and no, you shouldn't feel guilty, it's one of those things that just had to be done... doesn't make it any easier though. Sofa + chocolates + cuddle with dogs for the rest of the day (box of tissues at hand too) seems like the best plan right now. Feel free to PM if you want, rants welcome

Froglet

Blue Monkey.The decision is always the hardest part and very often we feel that because we made it,rather than the choice being taken out of our hands,that we somehow haven't the right to grieve so much because we caused the end of our beloved pet's life.I bet 95% of people who have to take an animal to be pts feels guilty about something we have or haven't done.I know i have every time I've had to go through the process.But when it hurts that bit less you will see that you have nothing to be guilty about,just like the rest of us.Guilt is part of grieving.

Instead take comfort that she is no longer suffering.Better that you suffer because you cared too much ,than she suffer because you didn't.Thousands of animals die alone and in pain because their owner either cannot face taking that final journey to the vets,or doesn't care enough to even contemplate it.

It will get easier.