Trying for a Baby Part Six

phunkles

Mrsvicx I dont have the words sweetheart I really dont and I wish I did because thats the thought that goes round my head quite often.
Surely if it was meant to be then me and ohs timed visits and trips and holidays something would have happened in the last 18months surely And then theres the numerous people I know in my life and on my facebook from school who apparently have just looked at a man and became pregnant just from looking and are now living off my tax payments quite happily and regularly post pictures of grubby looking babies

Im having a majorly meh day today miss my oh more than ever, and the worst bit is hes incredibly busy which is good for him and his profile but for me Im sort of left feeling like I've been forgotten about and just rubbish. Thats all i can say is I feel rubbish.


I now have 2 ic hpks after deciding to do one tonight and getting a bfn which has made me feel even more worthless and useless.
My bo obs hurt, my back hurts and everything tastes rubbish including chocolate so I cant even have a junk binge because it all tastes rubbish.

Sorry Ill probably edit this later just needed to get out my whinge somewhere.... maybe I should start a blog somewhere away from here....

mrsvicx

Oh phunkles, I know exact ly what you mean. I've turned into a nasty cow in the last few months, but this ttc lark just eats you up!! I've got a friend who is now five months pregnant, but I haven't congratulated her, or even acknowledged the baby at all. I just can't bring myself to do it.

I'm also very aware of the fact that I didn't want a big gap between my ds and a second child, but ds is almost four. It's gonna be like having two separate "families" if you see what I mean??

tinksy

big hugs ladies, its horrible feeling like this, I have my moments because we have been married 18 months and i thought at the very least I would be pregnant by now. I know that because of my thyroid we actually didn't really start ttc until this Jan but it doesn't help.

to make it worse all flaming weekend I have had my mother in law tell me every 5 minutes - your body needs time to recover you will have a baby when its the right time. Yes i know that but you keep drawing attention to the fact i am not pregnant is VERY unhelpful!!!!!!!

phunkles

mrsvicx wrote: »

Oh phunkles, I know exact ly what you mean. I've turned into a nasty cow in the last few months, but this ttc lark just eats you up!! I've got a friend who is now five months pregnant, but I haven't congratulated her, or even acknowledged the baby at all. I just can't bring myself to do it.

I'm also very aware of the fact that I didn't want a big gap between my ds and a second child, but ds is almost four. It's gonna be like having two separate "families" if you see what I mean??

If its any consolation - my big bro and I are 4 years 11months apart and its always been great having a bigger bro and the age gap has always been good for us?!

Eating me up is a good description of how im feeling

Fellpony_2

Back from London, AF did not come with us, so I am now CD35!! (Never had a cycle this long!!) And have looked in the cupboard and what do I not have left.... bloming test kits!! None. How I have managed that i do not know!

Bloming good weekend though.

Sprinkles oodles of sparkly bdta!

Greener_Grass

Still no af

Huga to phunkles and mrsvicx. I feel the exact same if it helps

phunkles

Fellpony did you enjoy London? How is your DD doing?

Hugs GreenerGrass :grouphug:

QQuaver

tinksy wrote: »

does anyone else feel like we should just be able to fast forward through the next two weeks and just get an answer? i'm feeling quite chilled this month and if it doesn't happen it doesn't but I don't like the waiting!!!!

Hey cycle/2ww buddy:beer:
We are still 3DPO:D
I hate waiting, it builds up too much hope:p

mrsvicx wrote: »

Sorry guys, I'm on a downer again today. Starting to wonder if I haven't gotten pg by now (15 months), is it ever going to happen??

I've stopped counting, but I know how you feel (((hugs))).
I go through all these emotions every month:

The day of AF - depresssion
CD2 to ov - temping/ov/CBFM/checking cm maniac
OV to AF - SSing and looking at baby stuff and getting hopes up

For me, it helps if I have a plan. Like what to do if AF arrives. In my case it's non medicated cycle next month and possible IVF the following month. I'll probably miss DH next ov anyway:(

smash7 wrote: »

phunkles - I LOVE Steve Tyler and have always had a huge crush on him!!!

I don't see it, better have a lookie on American Idol again:huh:

BB1984 wrote: »

I guess that means that today I could, in theory, be 13DPO. I'm glad I've got those IC tests, might try again tomorrow. Is that a good idea, or is it still too early? I can't find a good table that says how much HcG should be present on each day post-ov.

If you could wait 'till 15DPO that's better, but remember it may be less then that since you don't know when you ov'd:o

Here's a chart of average hcg levels:http://www.babymed.com/hcg-level-in-early-pregnancy

mrsvicx wrote: »

Thanks smash, dh is off to the docs in the next week or so for an sa and general mot. If that all comes back clear, we wait another ten months. Although I'm not sure what happens if it doesn't come back ok...

Most things came up clear in my case. DH's SA wasn't good, but with some diet changes, supplements and prescription for Clomid (yes for DH), count has since doubled (still below the minimum morphology/motility):cool:

You got pg before, so I'd assume most things will come back fine.
Have you got your tubes checked? It got blocked in my mum's case after her 2nd baby (2nd baby was stillborn). Couldn't conceive for years. There's 6 year age gap between my sister and me.

It was actually great having a big sister, she could help with homework etc, and she used to help my mum with nappy changing, feeding and baby sitting:cool:

phunkles wrote: »

Surely if it was meant to be then me and ohs timed visits and trips and holidays something would have happened in the last 18months surely

Don't worry, we'll get there soon:o

I now have 2 ic hpks after deciding to do one tonight and getting a bfn which has made me feel even more worthless and useless.

Too early? (((hugs)))

My bo obs hurt, my back hurts and everything tastes rubbish including chocolate so I cant even have a junk binge because it all tastes rubbish.

Sounds promising. Chocolates never tasted rubbish for me:cool:

tinksy wrote: »

to make it worse all flaming weekend I have had my mother in law tell me every 5 minutes - your body needs time to recover you will have a baby when its the right time. Yes i know that but you keep drawing attention to the fact i am not pregnant is VERY unhelpful!!!!!!!

(((hugs))).

Fellpony wrote: »

Back from London, AF did not come with us, so I am now CD35!! (Never had a cycle this long!!) And have looked in the cupboard and what do I not have left.... bloming test kits!! None. How I have managed that i do not know!

Glad you had a great time in London:)
Good planning re not having hpts in the house:cool:

Greener_Grass wrote: »

Still no af

Perhaps it's not coming? Any chance you could've ov'd?

tinksy

oh ladies we are not a chirpy lot right now - sending virtual tea and cake to you all xx

QQuaver

tinksy wrote: »

oh ladies we are not a chirpy lot right now - sending virtual tea and cake to you all xx

Thanks for the cake:)
We 4DPOers should not be down, we need PMA for the bean to stick!:j:j:j