I have more than enough for my needs BUT I really WANT a landrover

Different_Corner

moo2moo wrote: »

I doubt there are many people about at 5am which is usually when I'm most sociable.

Can't be doing with this going out with the people from work because its Friday night malarky and I avoid staff nights out like the plague.

That's me moo, can take the world on at 5am !

The work do thing *shudder*..just had that very situation crop up. Already talking about Chrimbo do. I just don't want to go, not that I don't like them, you know it always turns to shop talk.

Cheri your passion and pension quote from earlier today has been bouncing around my mind all day. Have been to Waterstones and am treating myself to some reading enlightenment this afternoon.

MrsMoo2U

Welcome, all like minded people. It seems strange that we have all gravitated towards each others diaries without knowing each other and yet we are very similar in our attitudes. I have decided that I really like MSE for all the reasons you have all suggested.

Now the strangest thing has happened. Earlier today I said that I was mentally detaching myself from my job. I dont know why I said it, where it came from or indeed what I expected from it. Well, I have switched on my computer and work have announced a voluntary severance scheme :eek: Now I hadn't been thinking along these lines at all but I had started to feel it might be time for a new challenge. Having spent 26 years of my life in one job I dont ever want to go back to being in a rut. I have read with interest lots of peoples diaries on here who have "patchwork" lifestyles that allow them to LIVE and enjoy their lives rather than just working. Now it may just be that at the moment I am just so tired (despite having 2 weeks off) that I am feeling like this. But I believe that I am tired because I am feeling like this not the other way around. If that makes sense to anybody can you explain it to me please:rotfl:

Despite all this tiredness, at the same time I am feeling more positive and alive than ever before and with that I want to start enjoying every day without a job that I am not sure about any more getting in the way. So I rang OH and discussed this with him (closing date for expressions of interest is tomorrow and I hadnt been informed). He thinks that if I am feeling like this then I should put in the expression. I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. So I spoke to my manager who was very shocked and said that she didnt really want to support my application but understood my reasons. I told her that as the only way that I can get on is by moving to Cardiff and I know that I couldnt move back to a town now let alone a city. So I sent off my application :eek::eek: The upside is that if accepted I will receive enough to pay off my (small) mortgage and debts. I can then just do jobs that I want to do and that will support me to do other things. The downside is I work from home and practically my own boss but I am unlikely to find anything similar. Applying does not mean that I have to accept and as my Nan always said. What is for me will not pass me, but it will if I dont seize all the opportunities put in front of me.
So I am now panicking. I will forget about it now until they give me my official offer. I can always withdraw.

Taking a few hours back this afternoon to go and get some fence panels! I might just call into waterstones too.

DC that pension and passion thing haunted me for two years, I couldnt stop thinking about it. My friend is a very wise person. She has taken every opportunity that is put in front of her. I lost a friend at the age of 19 and I swore then that I would live my life but I forgot and I think this happens as adults. We start to conform to the way we think we should act instead of being true to ourselves. I realise it is much more difficult when children are involved and again I asked my friend about this as she has three. Her answer was, well if it all goes wrong then I am giving them a lesson in life on how to cope in bad times as well as good. She reckoned that they would respect her and her OH far more if they were a happy close, loving family with no money than a miserable family with all of the latest gadgets. That was so true as she grew up in a family who didnt have much but did have lots of love.

moo2moo

Life often offers unexpected options when you least accept them.

Its does seem a bit odd that you've only heard about this the day befoer the deadline but better that than after. If you're as experienced as you sound you may be able to offer your services on a consultancy basis or work on short term projects entirely on your own terms. If not theres always work available if you're prepared to do it. You may well find something crops up in the meantime.

Meanwhile if you're doing less mileage and less distance thaen a Land Rover beceomes a much more sensible option after all it doesn't make much difference, if you're not going to sit in it for hours on end, how uncomfy the seats are or how thirsty it is. Perhaps you'll even have enough cash left over to buy one.

I've just discovered the beginning of a social life in the oddest place, a daytime dog obedience class in a barn with cake and coffee. Lots of small talk, lots of dogs bouncing around, mostly doing what they were suppossed to do and best of all a complete change from eveyhting else I usually do. Puppy really enjoyed it so we'll be going regularly during term time. Next time we're having pop up tunnels too... although I think that may well just be for the fur balls. Planning on signing up with the local adult education centre for a Salsa class starting in September because it sounds like fun, even though I haven't go tthe first clue what I'm doing. Its diferent, it gets me out and meeting people and it will be fun along the way.

MrsMoo2U

Thanks Moo. I just went over to your diary and what a read. Thank you for sharing all those fantastic stories. Missed out on my novel last night but was much more enthralled by your diary. I would be more than happy to do any job. I kind of fell into my career by accident. I always intended to work in the travel industry and see the world. I would be happy to have a go at anything and I agree about the consultancy etc. I just need the confidence to go with that one.

Should have been out by now walking Moo and have started work but I am in a procrastinating mood today. So much work to do and really not in the mood. I think I will have a short day and be done with it. I have loads of flexi time built up so as I keep trying to convince myself, I can only do what I can only do in the hours I am paid for.

Today I must get on with yesterdays "home" to do list which was woefully neglected due to the amount of work I had to plough through. 2 weeks holiday has, in fact, meant that I am doing three weeks worth of work in one week of which 2 1/2 days were spent in Anglesey so that means 3 weeks work in 2 1/2 days:eek:

Well the deed is done, I applied for the voluntary severance :eek: The payout is good but it is currently only an estimated figure so I will need to wait until the end of August for the actual figure and then I have the option to decline and continue as I am. If I decide to take it forward then I have until 17th September to wait before I find out if I have been successfully accepted and if I have then I have to finish by 22nd October!!!!! YIKES my life will be all change again for the second time in as many years. But I am ready for it.

The Gardeners arrived again last night at 5 and didnt leave until 9. The fence posts are now up :j Still no panels. Was waiting for a call back from the lovely man at Travis Perkins who gave me an amazing deal on the posts last week. He thinks he can source the panels that I want and is prepared to do them at £40 instead of £97 :T OH wants to know what I have been offering in return to be getting all these good deasls :rotfl::rotfl: Then he blew his cover by reminding me that he has known me since we were 16 and so he knows that, whilst I have the ability to flirt, I have no clue that I am doing it! So he wants me to carry on as I am because the minute that I consciously try to flirt then I end up costing us twice as much because I am so rubbish at it! Mmm is that a good thing. It is a very good thing that he is not phased at all by my getting on with the opposite sex and actively encourages it, as opposed to my ex OH who was insanely jealous and controlling. I have so much more confidence in myself now and it is all down to my beautiful friend, soul mate and lover. Well I have to say that as I waited 25 years for him :T

Ok enought slushiness, well I am really missing him today, I must get on and stop feeling so alone and sorry for myself.

“All of our unhappiness comes from our inability to be alone.” Jean de la Bruyere

Different_Corner

The fact you can decline the redundancy at any given point is good. But I'm thinking sub-conciously this is what you want. You are certainly reaping the rewards of positive thinking.
You can turn floppy Friday into Fabby Friday, and much slushiness is allowed.

vasseur

How exciting Cheri!

You speak some very wise words as does your Nan - I particularly like the one about what you need not passing you by.

If you manage to pay your debts off and get a landrover I hope you're not going to stop writing your diary????

MrsMoo2U

polesalot wrote: »

How exciting Cheri!

You speak some very wise words as does your Nan - I particularly like the one about what you need not passing you by.

If you manage to pay your debts off and get a landrover I hope you're not going to stop writing your diary????

Bloomin Eck, you arent getting rid of me that easily. :rotfl: Apart from which, if I didnt get a job I would have to find ways to make money to live on. My OH (whose house I share) still has a mortgage so I would still need to contribute to the household bills. Given the two failed marriages to people who left me in lots of debt, lacking in confidence and in dire straits, I am blessed that my OH insisted that I keep a place of my own for my own security. Now lots of my friends thought that meant that he wasnt committed but I see it differently. He understands the need for security and is very supporting. Besides, if we are still together when we retire (which I am sure we will be) then it will be a good nest egg.

Just had a very angry rant at Barclaycard. I have a DD set up to pay minimum payment. Got a phone call today to say that I was overdue paying. This despite phoning on Monday to tell them that it looked like the DD hadnt come out and was willing to pay by card but they assured me that the DD would be out by the end of the day and the balance on my account is adrift by that much money. They apologised profusely, offered to pay back the £12 late payment fee WHAT THE FAFF is that all about I said. I insisted that they write a letter of apology and confirming that my credit record is not adversely affected. They are oblivous to the stress that they cause !

Well, I am sitting at my desk faffing so it is now officially FAFFING Friday. But hey its allowed. Read Moo's diary and it made me realise that I havent cut my hair for 6 months. It has more grey than colour now. I am contemplating having it cut short and seeing how it looks left grey. My friend said the other day when I had my sunglasses on my head that the lighter colour actually suited me more. Decisions Decisions. I also just read on Yahoo (ok so I should be working I know) that a lot of celebrities are dying their hair grey at the moment. So if it is good enough for them............

Fence panels have been ordered and winging their way next week so the neighbour cannot moan anymore about hedgehogs and frogs attacking his little ones. Let alone the cat eating the snakes (wheres the Mad smiley when you need it)And that isnt even mentioning the Fox. They are on holiday at the moment so I just want it done for when they get back. I mean living in the country and not liking hedgehogs.

Think I might take a few hours off this afternoon and have a scoot to the charity shops.

DC - I think that it is more than subconscious wishing now. I am pretty sure this is what I want to do now. Some of the best decisions I have made in life have been snap decisions as I tend to go with intuition. Like the idea of a milk round. Wow how good would that be.

I love Chris Evans and I read his autobiography. He is very good at playing down his talents and hard work but reading between the lines I think he is somebody who spots and opportunity and grabs it with both hands and then enjoys the ride. I was also listening to an interview with a comedian/actor out of The Thick of It the other night (cant remember his name) who said that he rarely planned his life but took any opportunity that came his way and had never been out of work for long. Loved his life and was very happy. Lots to think about.

Sorry for the ramblings - probably more to come whilst I work through things in my head.

hypno06

Bah to barclaycard, but fingers crossed for the vol redundancy. As you say, if you don't apply, you will never know what the options might have been!

vasseur

cherisong wrote: »

Bloomin Eck, you arent getting rid of me that easily. :rotfl: Apart from which, if I didnt get a job I would have to find ways to make money to live on. My OH (whose house I share) still has a mortgage so I would still need to contribute to the household bills. Given the two failed marriages to people who left me in lots of debt, lacking in confidence and in dire straits, I am blessed that my OH insisted that I keep a place of my own for my own security. Now lots of my friends thought that meant that he wasnt committed but I see it differently. He understands the need for security and is very supporting. Besides, if we are still together when we retire (which I am sure we will be) then it will be a good nest egg.

This is very interesting. I have never lived with anyone (apart from obviously my parents and now my DD) and always had my own places. I think I would find it very hard to give up my independence and financial security if I settled down with someone.

I think you have the best of both worlds - a partner who is away some of the time, giving you the solitude that you desire whilst still keeping your relationship fresh (absence makes the heart grow fonder ) and is on the same wavelength as you to know that you need financial security of your own.

moo2moo

Had a quick peruse of your blogs, all three of them. The piccies of Moo are lovely. He makes the four legged fiend look like a dwarf doggy though.