From Trash to Cash: Dribbling a river

HopeAndDriftWood

Hi everyone...having second thoughts about everything, and feeling a bit down. I might need to make a back up plan for everything...
Well done on the sales Mambury, that's brilliant! Skint you are doing amazingly, and congrats on the weightloss Elly...I think that's everything, sorry if I've missed anyone.

moneymabel

well done on sales Mambury thats fab!!

mambury

Ta Saucy and Mabel....

Saucy...whats the matter??

HopeAndDriftWood

Everything I do seems to be wrong...I seem to upset everyone without intending too.
I've got nothing here, and if I go to Spain and manage to ruin everything there, I would be stranded and stuck. No one and nothing to come back too, and no one and nothing to stay for.

I think that I'm just unloveable, and it hurts...I'm sure I'll pick myself up, though, I'll just try to distract myself on here and the Ville for a bit.

Thanks for asking, though x

mambury

right... not unloveable.... just a carp family (you know about mine!!) You will be happy, I think you are just nervous.

paulabear

Hey Nikki, Elly was just on about you a few posts ago! How are you? xx

Saucy, think you've probably got some form of depression, if not a really bad version then something at least... obviously I have no medical background but it just all sounds quite familiar. Blaming yourself for stuff is a typical symptom from what I've read, there's an excellent book here
http://www.amazon.co.uk/Feeling-Good-New-Mood-Therapy/dp/0380810336/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1280084097&sr=8-1
- it has lots of case studies and examples to show how depression distorts our thinking; even if you don't have some form of depression it's a great read as it tells you a lot about self-sabotage, procrastination etc.

As for me, I'm highly disgruntled. I've been out all day with three kids, been down to the beach, up to the playground (went on a seesaw that spins round and was screaming like a two year-old) then come home and done tea for the kids, got them into pyjamas, got milk ready etc - and OH has the cheek to grumble when I tell him it's his turn to put them to bed, and then to go in a mood when I complain about his attitude towards me! So, what, I'm expected to take them to bed, then come back down and do his bloody tea too because he's not ready for his when everyone else is??
...seriously, I don't know why I'm such a doormat about this sort of thing, everything has to be how he wants it and I'm so so sick of it. I don't understand how my confidence has come on in leaps and bounds this year and yet I still can't stand up to this stuff. I need to find some self-help blog that explains it lol.

The good news is my dad and sister are going to have the kids for at least four days and possibly six next week so I can get lots and lots done and have a rest. AND I managed to get Mabel's earrings in! I thought my piercings had closed over but apparently not so hurray for that xx

Amber_Sunshine

SaucySecrets wrote: »

Everything I do seems to be wrong...I seem to upset everyone without intending too.
I've got nothing here, and if I go to Spain and manage to ruin everything there, I would be stranded and stuck. No one and nothing to come back too, and no one and nothing to stay for.

I think that I'm just unloveable, and it hurts...I'm sure I'll pick myself up, though, I'll just try to distract myself on here and the Ville for a bit.

Thanks for asking, though x

You know who the real problem is, and it's not you.

Anyway, all the Dribblers love you.

HopeAndDriftWood

Thank you all, I love you all too...I'll go look at that book Paula, thank you. You always make me feel better...I have tears in my eyes. I'm in such an on-the-edge mood...I don't know what to do with myself. Would help if OH was talking to me... Still. Thank you all x

elly68

thanks once the kids go back to school think i'm going to start my swimming back up but the dog walking seems to be helping ,i've had to o choclate free do you think they do chocolate flavoured ryvita lol . nikki nice to see you back and way to go skint and mambury

paulabear

I really would recommend it - I find it difficult reading non-fiction but this held my attention and was easy to dip in and out of when I needed something in particular. It all rings true and even if you don't feel like doing the exercises it's like the stuff Jo says, it's all things you know apply and when you can remember to apply them to your life they're really useful xx