Trying for a Baby part 5....

sexki11en

Oh and before I go back to doing some more work, this was posted on here an age ago. I meant to copy it and have been looking for it since and found it. It's in my diary now

There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.

I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books but because I have struggled and toiled for this child. I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed. I have endured and planned over and over again.

Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams. I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.

I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.

I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see. Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love. I will be a better mother for all that I have endured.

I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain. I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall. I have prevailed. I have succeeded. I have won.

So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs. I listen. And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely.

I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes. I have learned to appreciate life.

Yes I will be a wonderful mother.

SK x

iainsmum

QQuaver wrote: »

BUT, I've decided not to test early this time:cool:
I only have 1 test in the house, and I'm only going to use it if I am definitely late.

That-a-girl, QQ. :T (and very MSE too!)

gratefulforhelp_2

Oh sk that had me in floods. The poem was funny.

lilian1977

Just had the strongest line I've ever seen on my Ov test, plus definite egg white CM. Both showed up the day MMC told me I would ov! Definitely think my cycle's back to normal following the pill now.

gratefulforhelp_2

lilian DTD DTD DTD!!

Sammy_Girl

SK - They're lovely! Thanks for sharing those with us. Now are you getting all sentimental???

Well, news from me. Not about ttc, but I have just been offered a job for the first time since being made redundant in January :j Am very excited, but will miss being a housewife

So thats one half of my prayers that came true - lets hope the second half materialise

Hugs and sticky baby dust on the house!!!!! x

gratefulforhelp_2

Congratulations!
Really well done, Sammy. Maybe its BFP next :j:j:j:j:j

**confuzzled**

QQuaver wrote: »

sexki11en wrote: »

This made me smile - hopefully it will make you smile too

ODE TO INFERTILITY

Oh so familiar:o

Shouldn't that be ODE so familar Q??:rotfl:
SK lovely poem:) I've sent it to my friend in the hope it'll cheer her up:D

Sammy_Girl wrote: »

Well, news from me. Not about ttc, but I have just been offered a job for the first time since being made redundant in January :j Am very excited, but will miss being a housewife

So thats one half of my prayers that came true - lets hope the second half materialise

Hugs and sticky baby dust on the house!!!!! x

:j:j:j:j:jAMAZING NEWS:j:j:j:j:j So chuffed for you:) whats it doing???? Its $ods law you'll get a bfp now:D:D

lilian1977

Congrats Sammy! That's brilliant news

Sammy_Girl

Thanks lovies

Let's hope we can squeeze a BFP out this time next week

Now, I just have to choose a handbag for DH to buy me like he promised he would