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  • Horasio
    Horasio Posts: 6,676 Forumite
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    Miroslav wrote:
    Right, here goes........

    Flatmate text me a few times, saying things were fine etc.

    I went to meet flatmate at 9.30 outside 'S' place, just down a bit, so I didn't have to bump into 'S'. Flatmate text and said 'S' wanted me to come in and have a drink and say hello.......I said no.

    Left early as was getting panicky at home. So got there 9.05. Waited outside then text I was there at 9.25.

    Flatmate rang me, to say 'S' wanted to say 'Hi'.......what could I do? So I had to say hi.

    Walked up to her outer door, not wanting to see her, as I felt so uncomfortable not knowing where we were at.

    She comes running down the stairs, says hi nervously, and starts telling me she wants to forget what's happened. I nod and agree unconvincingly, so she jumps on me, puts her arms around me and tells me she really likes me. I again, unconvincingly nod.

    I wasn't in the mood. I wanted her to make an effort without my flatmate being there.

    Anyway, we say goodbye, walk home with flatmate, who tells me it's just her way of saying sorry and that i've probably upset her by being unresponsive.

    So, an hour after getting home, I text her, not expecting a response at 10.30 as she goes bed early. I said it was nice to see her and I suggested a time to meet for once. I said this Sunday, I said we both need to see more of each other, get to know each other, and maybe we'll be less nervous.

    A reply! She said she would LOVE to meet me Sunday, that she wants to spend lots of time with me AND in capitals letters, she said she cares alot about me.

    It felt nice, even though I know she doesn't always tell the truth. Flatmate said she may lie alot, but when she says she cares, she really does, she just doesn't know how to say it or show it sometimes.

    Anyway, we text a few times. I said I had alot to say and wouldn't fit by text, so she said put it in her postbox as she'd love to hear from me.

    She's nervous on the phone with me, and she thought all week I hated her and was really upset at that thought.

    She spent 6 hours with flatmate, of which 5 3/4 of it she talked about me :o

    Her texts were lovely.

    I am so confused by this girl. She is very special to me, but so hard work at times.

    The way she was last night is brilliant, but it never lasts :(

    Oh, and she wants to come to us at Xmas, have lunch etc. Poor thing thinks she'd be in the way, but flatmate said we wanted her here and she got all excited.

    Ahhhhhhhh, my heart will go on and on

    :o


    There is progress. Small steps...
    An average day in my life:hello: :eek::mad: :coffee::coffee::coffee::T :o :rotfl: :rotfl: :p :eek::mad: :beer:
    I am no expert in property but have lived in many types of homes, in many locations and can only talk from experience.
  • Miroslav
    Miroslav Posts: 6,193 Forumite
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    CCStar wrote:
    There is progress. Small steps...

    Small, but at least positivity. Very nervous though, one wrong word with too many vowels and it'll be hell again!

    How are you today?
  • Horasio
    Horasio Posts: 6,676 Forumite
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    Yesterday, felt energetic and got thro the jobs well. Thank heavens I did!

    From teatime last night, I felt tired and anti social. It didn't help having to do two rounds of kitchen boredom. I felt so angry at 9pm that I couldn't relax and didn't get to sleep till 4am. I woke up at 10.15am.

    I have two loads of washing to do and dinner to prepare and I don't want to do it today! I hate having to do housework EVERY effing day!:mad:
    An average day in my life:hello: :eek::mad: :coffee::coffee::coffee::T :o :rotfl: :rotfl: :p :eek::mad: :beer:
    I am no expert in property but have lived in many types of homes, in many locations and can only talk from experience.
  • Horasio
    Horasio Posts: 6,676 Forumite
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    Miroslav wrote:
    Small, but at least positivity. Very nervous though, one wrong word with too many vowels and it'll be hell again!

    How are you today?
    I know, we ladies can be sensitive souls:eek:

    Especially when we are grumpy:mad:

    Was OK yesterday, irritable today because there is too much pesky housework and I DON'T WANT TO DO IT!!

    Whatever ups and downs go on, I feel we are all moving forward!
    An average day in my life:hello: :eek::mad: :coffee::coffee::coffee::T :o :rotfl: :rotfl: :p :eek::mad: :beer:
    I am no expert in property but have lived in many types of homes, in many locations and can only talk from experience.
  • Miroslav
    Miroslav Posts: 6,193 Forumite
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    CCStar wrote:
    Yesterday, felt energetic and got thro the jobs well. Thank heavens I did!

    From teatime last night, I felt tired and anti social. It didn't help having to do two rounds of kitchen boredom. I felt so angry at 9pm that I couldn't relax and didn't get to sleep till 4am. I woke up at 10.15am.

    I have two loads of washing to do and dinner to prepare and I don't want to do it today! I hate having to do housework EVERY effing day!:mad:

    Housework is no fun. Some days I just don't bother :o
  • Horasio
    Horasio Posts: 6,676 Forumite
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    Sazbo wrote:
    Evening lovlies. Well, house is still standing:) Was a bit late back after being out with colleague. Tonight, I was mostly listening to Groove Armada on my iPod... particularly "Easy"... "Looking back it was easy..." erm, I'll get my coat! :rotfl:

    Hope you're all good. I'm gonna have to crash soon, coz I'm a lightweight, innit.

    Much love,
    Sazzy xxx
    Groove Armada are so diverse.

    I love 'If everybody looked the same' that really cheers me up!

    The Sandune song is really chilled

    And of course

    'I see you baby - shaking that A$$':D
    An average day in my life:hello: :eek::mad: :coffee::coffee::coffee::T :o :rotfl: :rotfl: :p :eek::mad: :beer:
    I am no expert in property but have lived in many types of homes, in many locations and can only talk from experience.
  • Miroslav
    Miroslav Posts: 6,193 Forumite
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    CCStar wrote:
    I know, we ladies can be sensitive souls:eek:

    Especially when we are grumpy:mad:

    Was OK yesterday, irritable today because there is too much pesky housework and I DON'T WANT TO DO IT!!

    Whatever ups and downs go on, I feel we are all moving forward!

    I can be sensitive, especially if it's someone I care about who is in a mood with me.

    Can you not take a break today, maybe just do the dinner?

    Some days it feels we are moving forward, but as you know, when things are not going so well......:(
  • Horasio
    Horasio Posts: 6,676 Forumite
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    Miroslav wrote:
    Housework is no fun. Some days I just don't bother :o
    Sometimes it works out like that sometimes it ends up having to do it when I don't want to.

    Minor tho it is, housework and routine really grinds me down. After doing it for 25 years, it gets rather boring:mad:

    What have you got planned to do for Christmas?
    An average day in my life:hello: :eek::mad: :coffee::coffee::coffee::T :o :rotfl: :rotfl: :p :eek::mad: :beer:
    I am no expert in property but have lived in many types of homes, in many locations and can only talk from experience.
  • Horasio
    Horasio Posts: 6,676 Forumite
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    Miroslav wrote:
    I can be sensitive, especially if it's someone I care about who is in a mood with me.

    Can you not take a break today, maybe just do the dinner?

    Some days it feels we are moving forward, but as you know, when things are not going so well......:(
    Yes in the short term, it looks black but step back and look at the big picture. Think about how things were a month ago, a week ago...

    Don't worry, I shall make sure it doesn't interfere with my computer time:D
    An average day in my life:hello: :eek::mad: :coffee::coffee::coffee::T :o :rotfl: :rotfl: :p :eek::mad: :beer:
    I am no expert in property but have lived in many types of homes, in many locations and can only talk from experience.
  • Miroslav
    Miroslav Posts: 6,193 Forumite
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    CCStar wrote:
    Sometimes it works out like that sometimes it ends up having to do it when I don't want to.

    Minor tho it is, housework and routine really grinds me down. After doing it for 25 years, it gets rather boring:mad:

    What have you got planned to do for Christmas?

    25 years :eek: Only done it 12 years myself :eek:

    Christmas as per usual here with my flatmate, although 'S' has said she will come from lunchtime onwards. She probably won't, but it will make my Christmas if she does.

    You with OH and Son?
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