depression

blinky

Sazbo wrote:

Hiya bunnie! :wave: I have those days too, for sure. I'm not too bad hun, hanging in there, still waiting for 'verdict' from counselling assessment.... maybe I'm beyond help?!:D:D Take care hun, good to hear from you. Sazx

No, you're certainly not beyond help

Night all, sleep well. I'm thinking of you all.

Sazbo

blinky wrote:

Thank you very much again. No chance of a pay rise - my company is notoriously tight on that respect.

Missing 'R' tonight and I only saw her this morning....

Aww blinky hun... that's so nice to hear, things going so well for you with R. Just to let you know, I have still set something aside to to buy a hat:):) Saz xxx

Sazbo

mclaren wrote:

Hi all. Went to docs - he said he was 95% that i have pulled a muscle - he said that if the pain is still there, by the weekend, to go to A&E or make an appointment to see him. Becuse of the amount of tiny little bones - he said it is unlikly but a possibility ive broken one - but he said its most likley a pulled muscle.

How are you all doing?

Hiya mclaren. I'm ok, bit late home so a little tired... Hopefully is just a pulled muscle, as doc says. Guess best to monitor over weekend, see if it clears by then. Sxx

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Well, have had text from flatmate

"Going well, loads to tell you"

Replied with 4 things......

She answered 3 of them, but not the one where I asked if 'S' had said anything nice about me :rolleyes:

Hmmmmmm

Hello you. Well, maybe 3 outta 4 ain't bad? Maybe? Sxx

Sazbo

blinky wrote:

No, you're certainly not beyond help

Night all, sleep well. I'm thinking of you all.

Bless your heart blinky hun:) xxx Didn't you know I'm a write-off?!:D:D Sweet dreams xxx

blinky

Sazbo wrote:

Aww blinky hun... that's so nice to hear, things going so well for you with R. Just to let you know, I have still set something aside to to buy a hat:):) Saz xxx

Thanks for that

Far too early for that, but I'd let you know if it ever happens

Sazbo

blinky wrote:

Thanks for that

Far too early for that, but I'd let you know if it ever happens

ok deal hun;) x

Sazbo

Evening lovlies. Well, house is still standing:) Was a bit late back after being out with colleague. Tonight, I was mostly listening to Groove Armada on my iPod... particularly "Easy"... "Looking back it was easy..." erm, I'll get my coat! :rotfl:

Hope you're all good. I'm gonna have to crash soon, coz I'm a lightweight, innit.

Much love,
Sazzy xxx

blinky

Sazbo wrote:

Bless your heart blinky hun:) xxx Didn't you know I'm a write-off?!:D:D Sweet dreams xxx

No, you're certainly not a write off.

Miroslav

Right, here goes........

Flatmate text me a few times, saying things were fine etc.

I went to meet flatmate at 9.30 outside 'S' place, just down a bit, so I didn't have to bump into 'S'. Flatmate text and said 'S' wanted me to come in and have a drink and say hello.......I said no.

Left early as was getting panicky at home. So got there 9.05. Waited outside then text I was there at 9.25.

Flatmate rang me, to say 'S' wanted to say 'Hi'.......what could I do? So I had to say hi.

Walked up to her outer door, not wanting to see her, as I felt so uncomfortable not knowing where we were at.

She comes running down the stairs, says hi nervously, and starts telling me she wants to forget what's happened. I nod and agree unconvincingly, so she jumps on me, puts her arms around me and tells me she really likes me. I again, unconvincingly nod.

I wasn't in the mood. I wanted her to make an effort without my flatmate being there.

Anyway, we say goodbye, walk home with flatmate, who tells me it's just her way of saying sorry and that i've probably upset her by being unresponsive.

So, an hour after getting home, I text her, not expecting a response at 10.30 as she goes bed early. I said it was nice to see her and I suggested a time to meet for once. I said this Sunday, I said we both need to see more of each other, get to know each other, and maybe we'll be less nervous.

A reply! She said she would LOVE to meet me Sunday, that she wants to spend lots of time with me AND in capitals letters, she said she cares alot about me.

It felt nice, even though I know she doesn't always tell the truth. Flatmate said she may lie alot, but when she says she cares, she really does, she just doesn't know how to say it or show it sometimes.

Anyway, we text a few times. I said I had alot to say and wouldn't fit by text, so she said put it in her postbox as she'd love to hear from me.

She's nervous on the phone with me, and she thought all week I hated her and was really upset at that thought.

She spent 6 hours with flatmate, of which 5 3/4 of it she talked about me

Her texts were lovely.

I am so confused by this girl. She is very special to me, but so hard work at times.

The way she was last night is brilliant, but it never lasts

Oh, and she wants to come to us at Xmas, have lunch etc. Poor thing thinks she'd be in the way, but flatmate said we wanted her here and she got all excited.

Ahhhhhhhh, my heart will go on and on