depression

Sazbo

EthelBloggs wrote:

Mornin all.. sorry I didn't get to come bck last night.

He wasn't happy enough to be at right angles with me at the end of the desk... noooooo he wanted to be right squashed up beside me :mad: so he could grope and cuddle and feel close. Also meant he kept looking at whatever i was reading etc so i kind of felt inhibited a bit. It's not that I look at anything dodgy but I don't want him to find this thread.. this is MY place, if that makes sense?

He knows about the rest of the site and thinks I'm a saddo for using so many of the tips n stuff, lol

Anyway, he still asleep soo........ bit of peace for meeeeee

Blimey wasn't that wind something last night sazbomb???!!!

Morning ethel hunnie. No worries - you said you might not be able to. Gawd wot's he like?! Is he always clingy like that?

Just sat down with me cuppa. Didn't hear the wind so much as the rain - never stopped did it? And now it's bright sunshine?

Sazbomb xxx

Sazbo

Hello lovlies. Hope you're all doing good today. Think I'm gonna have to shift me you-know-what today and go out at some point. Get something shopping and stuff done :rolleyes: Thrilling, innit? Anway, wishing you all a nice Sunday. Much love to you all, with extra-special hugs for our Tiffy.

Saz xxx

EthelBloggs

Sazbo wrote:

Morning ethel hunnie. No worries - you said you might not be able to. Gawd wot's he like?! Is he always clingy like that?

Just sat down with me cuppa. Didn't hear the wind so much as the rain - never stopped did it? And now it's bright sunshine?

Sazbomb xxx

yeah he is quite clingy.. drives me nuts at times

its lovely out there today!! I'm tempted to go out for a bit meself

Got a house full of poshies :eek: B/f's girlfriend is here with a couple of her friends and they all go to private schools dahling!! Just listening to their convo is like.. !!!!!!.. one of their friends is worth £330m!!!!!!!!! n here's me with £30 in ma purse.. I feel sooooo inadequate, lmfao

Sazbo

EthelBloggs wrote:

yeah he is quite clingy.. drives me nuts at times

its lovely out there today!! I'm tempted to go out for a bit meself

Got a house full of poshies :eek: B/f's girlfriend is here with a couple of her friends and they all go to private schools dahling!! Just listening to their convo is like.. !!!!!!.. one of their friends is worth £330m!!!!!!!!! n here's me with £30 in ma purse.. I feel sooooo inadequate, lmfao

LOL, £330m. And modest with it Look at it this way hun - if we had that much money we would never have found MSE and we wouldn't have become pals. So nah, thay can keep it :rotfl: Right, time for my second cuppa..... xx

EthelBloggs

hehehe tru dat :P I can't even imagine what its like to have money like that especially at 14 yrs old!!!!

make me one too pls.. can't be arsed to go down the stairs n get one

Sazbo

EthelBloggs wrote:

hehehe tru dat :P I can't even imagine what its like to have money like that especially at 14 yrs old!!!!

make me one too pls.. can't be arsed to go down the stairs n get one

will do, coming right up. we'd be spoiled of we had money

EthelBloggs

innit.. would be nice to find out tho, hehehe

ta very muchly

Horasio

Hi everyone

Still slept badly, yes it was windy but the shock of finding out he has been spending for 4 years behind my back has really knocked me for 6.

330m? I would be happy with 3 million. Don't get me on young people with money:eek:

I want to get his card off him and get him to close his account and put it somewhere hard to get till he NEEDS it for his DEPOSIT!

He started his first day at work. Not seen him yet but things have to change. I wish my husband wasn't so publicly unsupportive, yet privately he agrees with me. When I discuss it with him, it ends up in a row or he pretends to go along with it, till the crucial moment. I don't know whether he is trying to humiliate me or whether he is stupid, but I feel our marriage is at risk. This is the not the first time I have felt this but this is probably the most important thing where being publicly united has really mattered.

I can't eat with him, his eating habits really grate me.

I feel sickened by what I have accepted over the years. I haven't just rolled over and taken it but he has always got the better of me and I feel crap about myself for not being able to 'beat' him.

His is slow and messy, and not 100% truthful. Our son is following his example. Having two idiots in my home is doing my nut. I feel 80% of any bad feeling I have now is caused by their stupidity and lack of respect for me. The other is the rest of the world shi**ing on me.

Our 25th anniversary is coming up in February and I don't feel it is something to celebrate. I deserve a medal for taking 25 years of crap. I have served my time as a wife and mother. I need to leave to rebuild my self esteem and get a life before I get too much older.

sleepy

geminilady wrote:

Hi Sleepy,I was just wondering if you have stopped crying,if not do not worry tears are for a reason,our bodies "release" system and you will stop when you are ready.A few points in your posts caught my eye.One being that mental illness runs in your family,mine too and i have wondered if people can inherit it in the same way as another illness.I would go to the doctor and explain how you feal.Anti-depressants can be a great help and if there is no reason for your depression it sounds like a chemical imbalance which ant-depressants will correct.Also just because coucelling did not help 3 years ago does not mean it will not help now,3yrs and a differant counceller may make a differance.Keep telling yourself you are not useless or stupid! depression is an illness that can happen to anyone through no fault of their own,but there is help out there you just need to ask.

Thanks, I stopped crying at about 8pm, which took my grand total to 53 hours of pretty much non stop crying!
I still feel completely on edge and my eyes fill with tears for no reason, but I've done a bit beter today. Decided to get out of the house and get the wind in my hair. So me and my OH went to a farm because I love animals. I had a great time, and for a few momens felt "normal". But then when it was time to leave I felt sick and teary again.
I keep rememinding myself that it's only 2 1/2 weeks til my work breaks up for christmas, surely I can manage such a short amount of time.
I'm definatley ringing the drs first thing tomorrow and begging for an appointment, will have to go to work tommorrow as I can't afford any more time off.

blinky

CCStar wrote:

Hope you are having a lovely evening

Nothing like Christmas lights and being with the one you love - I'm so envious:D

Thank you