lilmissmup - the 2010 chapter!

lilmissmup

Thanks hun

Am still really hoping 2010 is a much better year than last!

pania

It will be. 2009 was pooh for many. 2010 will be the year it turns around. I can feel it in my water... or maybe I just need the loo... he he he :rotfl:

doodledo_2

No I can confirm girlies 2010 WILL be FAB :T

lilmissmup

You best not let me down Doodles!!!

doodledo_2

Never will

lilmissmup

Did anyone watch that Take Me Out dating show, no wonder all the men were single!!!

lilmissmup

Dear Diary....time to confess again.

As I am having a wobble day I decided to unblock the ex on facebook again.

Suprisingly didn't see anything to upset me but messaged him to say his profile was still open so he messaged me back and we chatted via there for about 30mins.

I felt better after it actually, no game playing in the messages but sounds like he is going to lose his job soon as he hasn't been to work at all this week and was in trouble last year for not going after we split and he was bad before we split anyway (snow is no excuse he has a 4x4!) and he was saying how hes ill again.

I told him to go to the doctors for help for his depression as it has helped me but he won't and I asked him if he was going to do the travelling thing and he said he didnt know when a couple of months ago he defo wanted to go.

He is still all woe is me but I don't really feel much sympathy now cos he is the one that left me, he is the one that left a 2 bedroom house with a settled future ahead of him for a grass that was greener but is actually living in a bedsit and probably will be unemployed soon too! :cool:

Only has himself to blame though, I have realised that the reason our relationship failed was 90% him whatever he says or thinks, I wanted to fight for it but he didn't so he needs to stop being so miserable! :rolleyes:

Kept saying how much he missed the cats too, well diddums I have always looked after them sorting food, vets and insurance etc so I wouldn't trust him with them and noway is he getting one of them now even if he sorted himself.

I think he is just gonna keep sinking though until he gets help which I have no idea will happen, I do worry his family don't seem to care though, he needs dragging down to the doctors by his mum really, not sure they know how bad he is but only his brother knows about all the weed he smoked.

I hope he sorts himself out though.

Oh and he asked me if I had met anyone :rolleyes: I said No he said he hasn't either and isn't sure he will.

I didn't tell him I was sort of looking for some fun though

I am quite glad I messaged him though, this is the first time I have messaged him and not crumbled so feels like I am making more progress and I am actually starting to believe that I can be strong, I have learnt from this breakup at least!

lilmissmup

Right its a new day, a wobble free day too I hope.

Won £1.20 on all the scratches today.

I also managed to set up my AA internet saver yesterday, got £50 in there already but I have set up a £500 :eek: DD into it on the 1st of each month!

I know I can survive with that going out but still want to keep making extra as the savings calc on here says I need to save £800 a month to make £10k in a year!

I should be getting all my £600 house deposit back though and have about another £200 to put in by end of week but roll on payday!

Souk08

Well done you! And don't worry too much about the wobbles. We all have them. Mine are money induced though but it's a horrible feeling the whole 'I can't do this' thing but YES WE CAN! XXX

Bowski_1011

Well done Lilmissmup...£500 a month...go you :j:j

I agree with Souk, no worries about the wobbles! They're not nice days I know but it's all part of the process. It's good to see the wobble days getting fewer :A

I've won £1 on scratchcards for the last 2 days, it worries me a bit how exciting I find it gettin more than 10p