Lost in the middle - getting organised and debt free

Firewalker

Marru wrote: »

So one exam down, one to go before it all starts again in the spring. I am fairly confident about how it went yesterday. Not so confident about the next one. Must start ploughing through mock exams tonight.

Off to get some food and then perhaps log onto the online learning thingy to do some revision.

Well done! Keep it going, Maru, you are doing just fine.

FW

Pippilongstocking

you doing acca? Very sorry if an intrusive question - just ignore me.

Marru

Pippilongstocking wrote: »

you doing acca? Very sorry if an intrusive question - just ignore me.

Yep I am, 4 exempt, 2 pass, one yesterday, one next week... no idea about PER :eek:

Marru

I woke up in extremely bad mood this morning. I don't seem to be able to shift this at all. Everything irritates me. I know that there are two reasons for this:

1. I have exam on Tuesday and I am so not prepared for it and I am thinking of not going (bit late now)
2. I need to go to Holland for one and half weeks to work in January and I am worried how BF and DD are going to get on while I am away or should I get a nanny for that time.

Ok little bit digging and some more reasons here:

3. After my exam I have to start dealing with ex and I am scared.

Considering that I stopped my ADs in summer and was ok during all the stress during the job change and house move. I only got knocked back first after the court date and then after I got the statement from ex. This is something that isi making me ill and there is no way I can just not deal with it.

4. I don't want to be with BF anymore. I don't know is if because I am getting ill again or have I just fallen out of love. And more nice he is to me the worse it gets.

I could dig and get some more but perhaps that is enough for now.
I read THIS earlier today and was almost in tears. So how do you recover if you can function perfectly well in most areas in your life but then simply can't in couple of them?

maman

Sorry but I've no bright ideas marru but just dropped by to give you a hug:grouphug:.

savingwannabe

Marru you are under a tremendous amount of pressure at the moment pop along to your doctor and if possible get some ADs. You need a helping hand sometimes and this clearly is one of those times. I dont know how you have managed to keep it together for such a long time you really do have my utmost admiration.

Sometimes when you are stressed things come to a head, maybe how you feel about your BF is a stress reaction maybe it is the truth that has become obvious. It will become clearer with time. It is very difficult but something only you can decide. Can you talk to him? is it too soon? Do you have a best friend that you can confide in to talk things through?

Is anyone else able to look after your daughter during the time you go to Holland?

Again a big hug from all your friends ok.

Marru

Hello,

Have been offline for four days (still no broadband at home :mad:). Exam was yesterday and considering how ill prepared I was it went ok. Meaning that I have a chance of passing it. I will find out in February.

BF turned up on Sunday to take DD out of my way so I was able to get on with some studying. Also his dog is poorly and I was able help with that. Then we went for a nice lunch together. We are going to spend at least some of the xmas together so time will tell. I need to just make clear that I can't take any pushing at the moment.

So next task is now to write that statement to the court. They had a meeting yesterday so I am sure I will be getting something in the post soon. Ex had sent me an email about mediation. I haven't read it yet. I will go to mediation but I will choose the place and the time and he can pay for it.

maman

I knew you'd feel better when exam was out of the way. Now, try to avoid extra pressure and just tick of tasks one at a time. Just imagine how you'll feel when that statement is done and dusted. What's the deadline for that?

savingwannabe

Well done on exam. Marvellous news. I agree with maman take it one step at a time. Gosh you are so strong. Good on you!

Marru

Oh SW - I am not strong. A strong person would have read that email.

Stinker of a headache today. I think tonight will be a bit write off when it comes to sorting things. I have promised to send that statement off on Monday so I have now some time to get on with it.

Anyhoo - better get on with some work.

One thing I will do today is to give some hell for my broadband provider. It is now exactly one month from when I was told that I would be connected and I am still not.