Any more OCDers?

Puzzledbubbles

i agree, it does start to effect everything, i am really bad at remembering things, so when i forget something (and realise ive forgotten) it throws me into a panic which means i have to check everything even more times.

I also obsess about things, i dont know if its just me, but i play conversations over and over in my head, and when i know i have done something to annoy someone (like having the telly too loud last night so my house mate could hear it, she came to ask me to turn it down as she was reading, was only at 8pm so im not evil or anything) i obsess that this small even will make them hate me, and i know ill be worrying about it for days now, wondering if i have annoyed her before, trying to stop myself from annoying her again, being super quiet and then chastising myself when im too loud ........

I find it so easy to obsess and worry i think its annoying to friends and family - which means i apologise too much - which means that they do get annoyed because im apologising - which makes me apologise more - its a circle i cant get out of and its silly .....

zztopgirl

Puzzledbubbles wrote: »

i agree, it does start to effect everything, i am really bad at remembering things, so when i forget something (and realise ive forgotten) it throws me into a panic which means i have to check everything even more times.

I really hate doing this too, or if I am going through a ritual and get disturbed then I have to start all over again from scratch. I got married on thursday and dreaded having an attack on the day but I cleaned the house and did all my rituals well in advance, and my now husband helped but not actually assisting with my ocd cos thats the worst thing anyone can do.

I havent been too bad the past few days (touch wood), but are there any self-harmers here too? Just wondered if that is another trait?

I found a survey for ocd/bdd on here http://www.thebddfoundation.org/

darknesshayz

I also dont like switches that are switched on and nothing is pluged inthe plug, that really annoys me! I dunno if that is to do with OCD! Even take photos as well. I really dont like OCD, cause it takes over my life, I feel it does....

I even self-harm, but I dunno if thats to do with OCD, and I havent really opend up to anyone about self-harming, I did stop, but I have started again, I hear voices in my head saying 'your not loved', 'no one will miss you if you were gone', 'your just a nobody', 'your mum doesnt love you', 'your mother hates you for what you done' etc... I dunno if thats OCD, but I fear I am going crazy and if I tell anyone they will think I am mad and send me into a place I dont really want to go!

zztopgirl

Darkness you arent mad! Thats exactly how I feel too when I self-harm. I asked gp about it and he said its only self-harm when it leaves scars but I self-harmed so badly last week that its taking ages to heal up. The reason I asked is cos me and dh have ocd but both self-harm, his arms are covered in scars though. Dh is really bad with light switches and sometimes we have to go round in the dark due to his ocd.

We are going to go camping for a few days and I have to go round checking everything now before I go so I dont forget anything.

Btw, am waiting to hear from dla, I used to get mrc but they have demanded I must have a psychritrist(sp) now in order to qualify for an award, the last one I saw was really horrible and it put me off seeing one ever again, she just laughed at me, please dont let this put anyone off seeking help, just cos I had a bad experience doesnt mean that everyone else will. Am waiting for a new referral anyway cos have decided enough is enough.

mumcoll

I have emetophobia (fear of vomit), which is sometimes worse than others. I have seen psychiatrist, psychologist, counsellor etc. some years ago. Can't go abroad as I'm afraid if I was on a plane and someone was sick I wouldn't be able to get off. Same applies to boats. Would never go on a work night out unless I can get home without going on the bus.
I've been opening doors with sleeves, little fingers etc. for over 30 years to stop me touching germs. However, on a plus side, with the recent swine flu outbreak, the advice is to wash your hands after touching door handles, lift buttons etc. So, I'm not that mad after all!

msmoose

I've had OCD since my early teens. I've never actually been treated for it although been treated for other Mental Health Problems, my OCD has been something I've been able to live with without it affecting my day to day life... It's just become part of me and who I am.

upferret

Hi everyone, yes my other half has severe OCD, I'm also his carer.

Puzzledbubbles

I was just wondering, how do you get diagnosed with OCD, i kinda have a self diagnosis from years of obsession, comments and remarks from friends etc, but i have never thought seeing a dr or someone would make it better?

Is there a way to stop my compulsions or a way to calm them down?

Does councelling work?

Or even - should i see someone? i mean, its something i live with and deal with but i try not to let it rule my life and things, should i be troubling a dr with this when there are people who have things a lot worse than my personal situation?

marrowgirl

Hello all,

I have OCD. Sometimes it is under control, but other times when I am feeling tired/stressed/depressed it goes completely manic.
At its worst I was housebound. I had agoraphobia and panic attacks on top of my fear of germs/dirt.
Counselling has helped for when I start to get "panicy" or need to clean/check things repeatedly so it is worth a try but I think you would need to find someone who specialises for OCD. For me it is a combination of breathing techniques (difficult when you want to hold your breath to stop germs getting in!) and tricks I have learned from Cognetive Behavioral therapy.
At present things are good -its still there in the background -but I can function again.

XX

Edit: I'm not dyslexic but my mum is. Her mum also had OCD.....strange...

darknesshayz

I was really bad while on holiday with OCD, I was put in a room with cooker, taps and that was really bad, it took me ages to be able to go out and even if I didnt use the cooker, I still had to check it, taps had to check, lights etc....

In the end I had to explain to my friends what was wrong with me, it was hard saying what was wrong with me, I felt ashamed with myself. I also think, my mate knows I self harm, cause of this and other problems... But they were ok with me, thankfully...

I got home and now I am in a routine of checking everythning again.... I just wish this OCD would go away, its horrible, but its nice to know that other people out there that are understanding!