The Compers Inn - Part 24

NoNameWoman

aww thanks Wingobins

Temperature and shiver gone, thank God, only the bowel/abdomen abnormality. I guess it is some sort of infection but I will see the drs next week..

Yesterday I got the All Steamed Up book from the freebies board and almost finished it...it was hilarious and helped me lie on the sofa for ages :eek:
Thanks for asking x
Off to comp, this is the most positive thing I can think of now

stressedofdevon

Maybe some of you remember me, I used to be a regular in here, but it looks like there have been a lot of changes.

Anyway, I am struggling with life and wanted a safe place to visit this afternoon to share what is happening and hopefully someone here will remember me.

I fight to see my LO who has been sent by the authorities to live with her violent Dad. I recently received a very damning report which says I don't even care enough about her to ask where she likes to go for our visits, amongst other things. It is all so untrue, I love my kids and always ask not only where they want to go, what they want to eat, drink, play etc. Isnt that what all Mums do? But I can't fight all the lies any longer, I have been running on empty for so long and feel like I want to go to sleep forever if it werent for my elder child who lives with me.

I lost my partner because of all this stress, and have been alone now since July which is hard, no money, no hugs, no break from chores. If I want legal help to fight this then the Legal Aid isnt available as it is to a criminal, instead I am obliged to mortgage my house where I live as there is equity in it. I cant risk our home to fight a losing battle, and can't face court in two weeks so alone.

So I have to now come to terms with walking away from my dear little girl, and never seeing her again. Some of you will know how much I love my baby and can appreciate how low this has left me. I have the hospital check on me every day, but its hard. A few of you have said nasty things about me because my breakdown has meant I am too sad to be chatting online at times. But I know a lot of you do understand and care, and I am so grateful for the support over the last year since this nightmare began.

I really want to come out of the other side of this, but life feels very lonely and dark.

I do miss you all and think of you often, and am back to comping just to keep my brain busy so am on here most days and could do with some lucky dust, although may fritter it away elsewhere.

wingobins

Ooh you just reminded me, I got that book too but I put it away somewhere as I was on my way out...just can't remember where I put it!

katiekittykat

stressedofdevon wrote: »

Maybe some of you remember me, I used to be a regular in here, but it looks like there have been a lot of changes.

Anyway, I am struggling with life and wanted a safe place to visit this afternoon to share what is happening and hopefully someone here will remember me.

I fight to see my LO who has been sent by the authorities to live with her violent Dad. I recently received a very damning report which says I don't even care enough about her to ask where she likes to go for our visits, amongst other things. It is all so untrue, I love my kids and always ask not only where they want to go, what they want to eat, drink, play etc. Isnt that what all Mums do? But I can't fight all the lies any longer, I have been running on empty for so long and feel like I want to go to sleep forever if it werent for my elder child who lives with me.

I lost my partner because of all this stress, and have been alone now since July which is hard, no money, no hugs, no break from chores. If I want legal help to fight this then the Legal Aid isnt available as it is to a criminal, instead I am obliged to mortgage my house where I live as there is equity in it. I cant risk our home to fight a losing battle, and can't face court in two weeks so alone.

So I have to now come to terms with walking away from my dear little girl, and never seeing her again. Some of you will know how much I love my baby and can appreciate how low this has left me. I have the hospital check on me every day, but its hard. A few of you have said nasty things about me because my breakdown has meant I am too sad to be chatting online at times. But I know a lot of you do understand and care, and I am so grateful for the support over the last year since this nightmare began.

I really want to come out of the other side of this, but life feels very lonely and dark.

I do miss you all and think of you often, and am back to comping just to keep my brain busy so am on here most days and could do with some lucky dust, although may fritter it away elsewhere.

Welcome back katherine.

i really don't know what to say - you are having an awful time and i just want you to know that you have my love, support and prayers you a such a lovely person i hate that this is happening to you xxxxxxxx

wingobins

Aw, ((big hugs)) SOD, hope things work out right for you. I could never imagine what you must be going thru with your DD but I know there's lots of peeps here who care for you & I know Cathy was really worried for you hun. I'm sure people will be glad to see you on here. I don't know you very well from here but I know you enough to know that you're going thru lots at the mo. Take care hun & please don't think about 'going to sleep forever' as maybe one day...your dd will be running back into your arms. xx

NoNameWoman

OMG SoD, thank you so much for coming here and trusting this place. Reading your post makes me think of how silly and trivial my problems are.

But please don't think that anyone thinks wrong of you because you are stressed (who flippin isn't ?) but people just miss you and want to make sure you are ok and probably overworry about you when you are not around..

I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through but you should never let anything shake your hope .... You know how much you love your LO and I am sure she does. I knw this sounds very optimistic but I really hope that one day you will be able to get the right legal aid.

and yayyy for you comping again :T hope you get a brilliant win soon ..

blackmidnight

hi SOD,

Are there any support groups where you live that you could go to? If not are there any online you can join? I can't imagine how hard all this must be for you but there are always people around if you want to chat about anything whether it be your problems or random chat to take your mind off things. Hopefully you'll get a nice win soon x

blackmidnight

NNW - your problems aren't trivial - they are different to other people's but they affect you personally so are still problems x

crin

Happy birthday HJB.

Glad the doctors went well KKKhope the pills start to work quickly for you.

So sorry to hear about your problems SoD. It may feel like the world is ganging up on you but you need to think of your eldest who lives with you, the sky will brighten one day and your youngest will come back through your door and give you a big hug in the not too distant future.

I always wonder why the other party have to be nasty about everything but, what goes around comes around so they say.

Hope you get some luck on the comps keep your chin up.

Glad you are feeling a bit better NNW.

I feel a bit down in the dumps today but not sure why hopefully I will get a little win and it will cheer me up a bit.

Off to look at the comps for today and for tomorrow.

isitenough

Didn't want to read and run (like I usually do) without commenting, but welcome back SoD and sorry to hear about your situation, I followed it when you posted before as others here did. Hope you keep your spirits up for your eldest and I hope things work out in the future. You're obviously a caring mum and hopefully one day your youngest will know that.
That's not much help, sorry.