Buffy's Moving on Diary

Shoe_Gal

Bufffy

Those hours are crazy :mad: Take it from one who knows - you cannot go on like that

Anf good luck with the list - think how good you will feel if you get it all done

Take care of you :A

Buffythedebtslayer

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

Tomorrow. This is literally a step by step list to get me out of the Fug I am in

1. up and dressed by 8 please! then breakfast. by 9.30!
2. hoover done
3. clean out the poor Guinea pigs (must get cage thing from loft)
4. collect up old newspapersdone
5. mark one set of books.
6. await arrival of sister. done
7. continue marking
8. once sis leaves make lunch and prep lunches for next week
9. washing - must do darks, going to have to tumble dry!!!!done my towels!
10. move driers upstairs
11. still marking (30 mins on 30 off)
12 put out recycling
13. put away clothesdone
14. do some ironing!
15. go through post.
16. keep kitchen tidytidy so far!

had a glass of wine very sleepy.

see you tomorrow.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Going to wait till after the two minutes silence to do anything else. I used to go to Church on Rememberance Sunday and be in a parade. I feel guilty that I am not there today. Makes me sad all those young men, all that loss.

I guess the hours are a bit nuts. It is partly cos I have two jobs but in all honesty if I wasn't there I would be at my first job from 8- 6 each day plus work in the evenings. its not much different.

Any how

xxxx

Shoe_Gal

Well done on what you've done so far - that's such a big list! I've finished mine but it wasn't nearly as much as yours :rolleyes: I can only cope with small, doable list or I get overwhelmed - and give up

Buffythedebtslayer

1. up and dressed by 8 please! then breakfast. by 9.30!
2. hoover done
3. clean out the poor Guinea pigs (must get cage thing from loft) done and fed bless them
4. collect up old newspapersdone
5. mark one set of books.
6. await arrival of sister. done
7. continue marking
8. once sis leaves make lunch and prep lunches for next week cooking now.
9. washing - must do darks, going to have to tumble dry!!!!done my towels! done drying now fingers crossed they don't shrink.
10. move driers upstairs
11. still marking (30 mins on 30 off)
12 put out recycling done cleared out fridge and freezer of all old food
13. put away clothesdone
14. do some ironing! Hopefully the dryer will done the ironing!
15. go through post. I am not doing this today
16. keep kitchen tidytidy so far! just needs a quick hoover

I have also dug one flower bed, just decided to do and there it was done! :j

I am preheating the oven for dinner and preping lunches

pasta with pesto
pasta with cheese
pasta with salad

then Thursday will be a tuna sandwich and Friday is fish and chips at work

dinner wise, I have two ready meals, some mince, some braising steak (?) some carrots and some celery (soup?) have lots of pasta and sauce. and some breaded chicken, one portion of fish and chips and loads of oven chips, plus some prawns some mushrooms - all frozen............should be a fun week!!

I have bread milk and some veg but will have to shop for more during the week. Also I will have to do a big shop before Mum comes home.

I very down about going to work tomorrow and not finished my marking but hopefully will get some down after I have eaten.

Ok off to make dinner (well put it in the oven and let it heat up!!)

xxxxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Just to remind me!

http://www.azcentral.com/arizonarepublic/arizonaliving/articles/2009/11/08/20091108bland1108.html

Shoe_Gal

Well done on what you've got done today

Buffythedebtslayer

Evening.

I have screwed up big time tonight and am pretty much paralysed by it all. I got home early and my first mistake was to have dinner, I should have had a nap (slept so badly last night got maybe 3 hours) cos then I would have woken because I was hungry but any how I ate dinner and got set up to work and then feel asleep - in a very uncomfortable position.

I had forgotten I was meant to finish writing an assembly so the kids could practice it tomorrow. I was also meant to mark two sets of books. I could cry. I really could. got a 12 hour day tomorrow. and really should just go to bed but whats the point I won't sleep now. and I have to finish the stupid assembly.

I just cannot explain how much time I don't have.

If I hadn't done the stuff yesterday I would have no clean clothes and the house would still be a tip and I wouldn't mind but I did work Sat.

I feel so low and am so unhappy. I know I should leave but to what? there aren't any jobs. Oh God. I have been going round in this circle for about a year or more now. I do look for other jobs and I have tried a different attitude. I have no idea what to do. I have to stay to get out of debt cos then I can take a lower paid job and have a life again.

xx

Pollydaydream

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

Evening.

I have screwed up big time tonight and am pretty much paralysed by it all. I got home early and my first mistake was to have dinner, I should have had a nap (slept so badly last night got maybe 3 hours) cos then I would have woken because I was hungry but any how I ate dinner and got set up to work and then feel asleep - in a very uncomfortable position.

I had forgotten I was meant to finish writing an assembly so the kids could practice it tomorrow. I was also meant to mark two sets of books. I could cry. I really could. got a 12 hour day tomorrow. and really should just go to bed but whats the point I won't sleep now. and I have to finish the stupid assembly.

I just cannot explain how much time I don't have.

If I hadn't done the stuff yesterday I would have no clean clothes and the house would still be a tip and I wouldn't mind but I did work Sat.

I feel so low and am so unhappy. I know I should leave but to what? there aren't any jobs. Oh God. I have been going round in this circle for about a year or more now. I do look for other jobs and I have tried a different attitude. I have no idea what to do. I have to stay to get out of debt cos then I can take a lower paid job and have a life again.

xx

Buffy, I hope you don't mind me dropping in. I was just having a bit of a mooch around the diaries, and I just couldn't go without saying something.

I've quoted you above because I soooo know this feeling - I teach in FE; trust me it's no better. If I don't work (or do things to get ready for work) at the weekend, I have to work every night just to have something to teach the next day. On Wednesday night I was up until after midnight, Thursday night, I was up until 12.30 marking and up again at 5.00 am to finish it and prepare a lesson.

I've just been posting on my own diary about how work is something to 'survive' at the moment (I've also posted how going to bed early enough so that you know you will have enough sleep is a treat - how sad is that. I'm getting a bit fed up with my students asking me if I'm alright and telling me I look tired!).

I think the problem is that there really is too much work to do - it seems obvious, I know, but most other jobs it just wouldn't get done; because we know it's going to affect our students, if we care, we make sure it's done, even if we have to go without sleep. I'm starting to think, a bit militantly, that if we keep doing it, they (the government, the managers - don't start me, is there a single decent manager in education or are they all a load of *?!!!s?) - anyway, if we keep doing it, they'll think we can and give us more work!

I don't know what the answer is at the moment - like you I feel trapped until I've paid my debts (over half term I worked out how much redundancy money I'd get; I'd be penniless but debt-free and out of that place, so it's now one of my favourite day dreams )

Sorry, I think I've rabbited on as if I was on my own diary and I haven't been much help -hope I haven't made you feel worse. Perhaps we could swap survival tips until things get better (and I know they will).

Try and get some sleep.

Polly

LouiseJ

Buffy...........:grouphug:
Nothing really constructive or helpful to say, just wanted to know that I am always here for you my friend xxx


........and Polly, even though I dont know you have a :grouphug: too.

chevalier

get signed off on long term sick cos of stress, then do a DMP. ......

ok i know that that is a bit extreme, but it woudl solve two problems in one go, not having to go to that horrible school, and paying your debts off more slowly

Seriously Buffy how old are you? This isn't a rehearsal, no one for NO REASON should have to put up with this much stress and upset. If you got a lower paying job, well so what, you would just have to do what thousands have done, and do a DMP. Ok so the debt would be there longer but it would be liveable with.

I know that wouldn't solve the issue of still living with your mum, but it would be two MAJOR weights off your back.

Wish i was there to give you a hug in person... ((((((hugs)))))

chev