Buffy's Moving on Diary

LeeSouthEast

Everything seems 20x worse when you a tired. I've nothing real to add that you don't already know yourself deep down, so will you settle for a hug instead? :grouphug:

(That is such a dodgy emoticon .. but it's the best one given the circumstances...)

Work for the dream Buffy. It'll happen sooner than you think. Just keep plodding!

Shoe_Gal

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

Hmmm. Think my brain might explode with all the thinking! I think I would feel like such a failure? I honestly don't know.

thank you tho mate very glad you are here xxxx

You're welcome :A

Don't do anything rash - but also don't think that you have no options, there are always options

Take care of you!

urg123

Buffy - just caught up and wanted to send you more hugs.

try tto rest if you can.

I agree with shoe gal - there are always options. Why don't you take some time to brainstorm and come up with some - even the stupid ones. Even if you take no other action -remember that this is an option too.

The other thing that I have been thinking about is your SoA. I remember that you don't really have one because of your costs. Is it worth you posting it for us to have a look at - a fresh pair of eyes might help.

Don't forget that you are fabulous - don't let anyone tell you otherwise.;)

urg x x
p.s. any update on the snog?

Buffythedebtslayer

Had a rubbish day.

1. computer crashed during my assembly. Who got the blame? that would be me - despite me checking it yesterday. DO I look like IT !!!!ing support?

1A. cos I only just remembered had a bloody cab driver who went on and on abouthow teachers have it easy. !!!!ing !!!!!!! I really nearly got out and walked.

2. lessons went ok but myboss came in to check on me when I was doing something quite boring - checked some books, asked some questions all whilst I was teaching.Never made eye contact and didn't speak to me all.Had the other boss come in the other and she was lovely. I HATE him.I really I do.Seriously I do. I know that isn't good. He makes me so mad. all his "changes"
that he didn't tell me about the photocopying he didn't do as he said he would, the watching, the asking kids. oh jut !!!! off you tiny penis brained KNOB HEAD.
3. was going to come home early but my friend basically made me feel guilty going on and on about how much she has done. ( I haven't actually do anything,I think I just want someone to come and say actually you are !!!! and fired. And whilst I got marking and tidying done I didn't get in till 6. 30.

4. haven't had anything to drink all day. (cant drink at work cos you can't go to the toilet )

5. consquently have dreadful !!!!ing headache.

6. meant to mark some books and just cannot face it. going to bed now.

7. bus took 45 mins to arrive. And I was at the bus with a drunk who would not talking. TO ME! WHY ME?

8. In sainburys the woman messed up my card and took ages. (she was nice tho so I feel bad moaning)

9. Did have a nice cab driver and I got a hug off my friend (at work) who I never normally see. Without her i would have gone home - as in Walked out.

I thought this miserable feeling would go if I ranted on here but it doesn't go. Its not going.

I really not sure how I am still going in to work each day.

I feel like if one more thing happens (and I don't talk about it all here, in case anyone is thinking I need to grow up) I won't explode, instead I will burst and everything that is me will wash away.

See you all tomorrow.

Buffy.

urg123

I really don't know what I could say that could make you feel any better.

all I can say is that you have every right to feel the way that you do - it's been a really bad time for you and you need to have a break.

Don't try to make yourself sick - drink the water (even if it's a few sips); go and spend an hour for yourself. With your animals or with friends. You need to give yourself time and need to escape from the Kn*b heads of the world.

Sending you lots and lots of hugs.

urg x x

Buffythedebtslayer

Thank you Urg

I do feel like a self pitying wreck tonight. I think I will get a drink of water and go to bed. I can't keep sitting here feeling like this.

thank you so much xxxxxx

Shoe_Gal

Buffy, please take care of yourself! You must drink, please don't make yourself ill

Thinking of you :A

makeup

Hey Buffy

I really feel for you, this sounds terrible. I hope that you work out a plan to make things better.

Do you belong to a union? Would you be able to discuss things with them?? Sometimes they can be helpful.

I really hope that things get better for you soon and I really really wish for it to happen soon.

Take care of yourself honey

Makeup xx

catspaw

Hi Buffy,

It's only a silly suggestion but why not ask someone to get you a punch bag for Christmas, stick a picture of your boss on it and beat the living c**p into it every time he annoys you?:D

beanielou

Buffy hun please please please go to your GP & get signed off.
You are making yourself ill.