lilmissmups moving on and hopefully upwards diary!

lilmissmup

Nicki, I have tried to tell him that before, its how he deals with this, hes just blocked it out, like him not even talking to his mum about it and just leaving instead. Ever since we split hes refused to talk about things just saying he can't. He said once he had a thousand things he wanted to say to me but couldn't :rolleyes:

He started blocking me out a couple months before we split anyway I just didn't notice it and kept talking about having a family which made him worse.

Maria, your probably right.

I could delete his number it but i know it off by heart anyway as he had the whole time we were together.

I know we won't get back together though, it wouldn't work.

Fire_Fox

Time for a perv moment: :grouphug: Sorry to hear you are not up to going to work, hun.

lilmissmup

I will go back tomorrow, just couldn't be dealing with getting up today, not bad really as first time i haven't managed it since we split up.

mariagti

Oh do you, im terrible i dont know anyone numbers! i havent since mobiles came out!

lilmissmup

I have a good memories for numbers which in this case is a pain

lilmissmup

Right girlies I am gonna be taking a break for a while

He text me back finally and we ended up having a very long phone conversation which again got me nowhere, at one point he was saying things i was reading into, i asked him to tell me he never wanted to get back with me and he said he couldn't say it as he didn't know how he would feel in the future but i knew he was just being nice about it and so he said it.

And guess what, it didn't make me instantly get over him.

I got him to tell me he didn't want to be with me and that didn't help either and basically lots of other things were said that made me feel $hitty too.

And i just need a break away from things for a bit. Off to London this weekend which should help me escape.

I have to face up to reality which although i say i have been doing and although the 9 days of contact was a good start i am not dealing with things at all well right now.

So hopefully when I am back i will be back in the real world a bit more.

Shoe_Gal

Hi hunny - hope you've found a bit of 'head space' and are enjoying your weekend in London

Take care of you :A

doodledo_2

Morning chick haven't caught up with you for a while. You ok?

jenjade

hope you are okay Dawn we are all missing you if you wanna chat you know where to find us! If you want to PM feel free

Take care of youself. Jen and co!

Shoe_Gal

Hi, I'm hoping you're OK too? Chat if you need to :A