lilmissmups moving on and hopefully upwards diary!

wendz86

Glad you had a good night. Can imaging it was hard playing bouncer with Izzy they do get excited when they see birds!

lilmissmup

Well cats have had a bit more playtime, my Dad came round to do some gardening so Spencer found that fun.

The ex-MIL rang my Dad though yesterday, to say she still really misses me and wants to see me and is worried about me.

Apparently she tried to talk to ex and the situation about me when he was round yesterday and he just said he felt ill and went home. She told my Dad she doesn't think he has a clue what hes doing.

I text her today to see we can meet soon, not sure if its gonna be a good idea but maybe it will help her too, i am surprised shes still thinking about it so much although she was like a mum to me.

So yeah on a downer again now

doodledo_2

Glad you had a nice night out chick. We really must sort out going out, I can be your single friend with money lol. Well if you can bear being out with someone of my age.

Nice to hear your MIL has been in touch, she is obviously worried about you and will be nice for you to chat to her too I think.

lilmissmup

Yeah I have spoken to a few people about it today though.

Its a bit weird she rang my Dad though and not me, she didn't reply to my text back saying we could meet, she told Dad i could go round to hers when the kids are down, wondering if she thinks she might be able to get me there and then invite ex round to try and get us back together, but that would just be a disaster and he would storm out anyway.

I stupidly text him today, so yeah 9 days I lasted, but i was just so upset again, he text back once or twice then i said i wanted to speak to him on phone and hes ignored me since.

Shoe_Gal

Glad you enjoyed your night out but :mad: he has upset you again

lilmissmup

I didn't go to work today, not feeling great, but i know the reasons behind it are "him" :rolleyes:.

Its my own fault, i let him upset me, if i didn't attempt to speak to him there wouldn't be an issue, i just hate that hes not mature enough to speak to me, hes not a little boy, hes 30!

Its just so horrid in my eyes that hes gone from being a best friend to a stranger.

I am also angry at myself for contacting him when i was doing well without it. Things before were ok, we saw each other and yes it was sad but now its tense again as he just ignored my texts, the last one i sent said i wasn't trying to play mind games just wanted to speak to him about his mum.

Think that will be my last text to him though, hes making it clear i should buck up and back off.

Nichelette

Hi lilmiss, I just wanted to say try not to beat yourself up about him not talking to you too much. Its been 5 months since I broke up with my ex, and I know that we were only together for two and a half years so it isn't as long as you two, but I still find it hard to talk to him. We had a really amicable break up and we wanted to stay friends but I find it quite hard talking to him purely because of everything we went through together. I haven't spoken to him for a couple of months because it keeps me sane. I really do want him to be happy with someone else, but I'll still probably find it hard when that does happen. He might feel like I do, so please don't blame yourself. You know you have the support of everyone on here .

lilmissmup

I do understand it must be hard for him as he still gets upset when he sees me, i know he still cares about me as he said that the other week i just wish he could be more grown up about it and just text me saying i am sorry i can't talk about this instead of ignoring me.

Dads just been round as was worried i have taken today off, he feels bad for telling me Trish rang now, said he wasn't sure about telling me.

I love my Daddy bless him, even him just coming round and helping me tidy made me feel a tiny bit better.

He said he hopes he doesn't see ex in street or he might run him over

Nichelette

Maybe it's an idea to let him know that next time you hear from him. I didn't really argue with my last ex but the one before that was terrible for ignoring me which I really hated so I kind of know how you feel. At least your dad is there to look after you .

mariagti

Sorry your feeling upset again hun, Perhaps his being cruel to be kind now instead of giving you false hope that you could get back.

Have you thought about deleting his number so you cant contact him anymore?