Once More With Feeling! - Buffy's debt diary

Hollyberry

This all sounds great, Buffy. So pleased that you have found a way to make it work for you.

Wishing you all the best,
H x

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chevalier

Hi Buffy
Sorry that things are still carp on the work front. Are you still leaving at the end of this term?

I never really understood why you put so much pressure on yourself to get this debt paid off this year (or if there was a reason it now eludes me lol). So I think that taking a step back is a good thing.

You have so many other stressers in your life already, mum, sister and inlaw, school, driving, mr not to be mentioned, that you should cut yourself some slack on the one stresser you CAN control. Ie the money! Yes it may take a bit longer, but I think that some of the changes you are making this year, ie leaving the toxic job, may open other opportunities for you that make the debt free journey shorter than expected.

Don't forget about talking to your US sister about working over there - if she would sponsor you...That way you get to have a trip of a lifetime,and get paid for it....

good luck mate
chev

Buffythedebtslayer

I have things tough this week. Didn't want to go in to work. Am so tired but can't sleep. I thought things were getting better but in reality I think I have just got used to hanging on by my fingernails.

I am watching Grey's Anatomy whilst typing this. A little girl in the show has just died, its not a long story line or anything.

My friend's little girl is quite ill and it made me think of her. my friend is a wonderful Mum. I have never seen such a happy little girl. She is lovely.

I don't know. I don't understand. I guess that is what life is sometimes, a series of events and consequences that we don't understand.

I had better understand some thing soon.


xxx

Raini

*hugs* xx

Didn't want to read & run ... but too tired to think properly ... but *big hugs* ...

x

Ellidee

Hugs from me too honey. Wish I understood too. XX

urg123

Hey Buffy

It's hard seeing others suffer - not just the little girl but her mum too.

I hope the new focus is taking some of the pressure off you. There's lots going on and work has been euuuuch for ages. Having one less thing may help.

Thinking of you - you know we are here if you need us.

urg x x x

sarahb123_3

Hi Buffy, hope you are ok. It is a difficult thing to understand. You have to believe that your friend's daughter will be okay. Children are hugely resilient, so please try not to worry.

I spent last night in a mass of tears for no particular reason. I think the constant struggling just wears us down sometimes and makes things seem worse than they are. Think about it tomorrow instead. The clear light of day sometimes make things clearer and easier.

Don't give up. Onwards and upwards. Every step is a step in the right direction. You will be fine.

runmichellerun

Hi Buffy. I've only just seen your diary *subscribes*.

You sound so positive. I beat myself up when I have a meal out or go on a day out somewhere but we're only on this earth once so we have to live a little bit, despite the debt. Like SarahB says, so long as the debt's going down instead of up, you're already doing better than you were before you started.

I hope things improve for you at work too!

RMR
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Buffythedebtslayer

5 Weeks and 6 Days till the end of term.

41 days.

I slept loads last night and was feeling quite perky but now I feel as though I am winding d o w n to a complete stop.

I know I had hardly any sleep for a couple of nights. but crumbs I shouldn't be this tired.

Right moneywise

well, Monday I went shopping, Tuesday I had an ice cream, Wednesday I visited my friend and spent 12 pounds on a cab home. Thursday i had to buy a leaving gift for some one at work (12 quid!)

I haven't spent any money today. But will tomorrow.

lifewise.

Well my boss is definately going for the Most Annoying Man of the Year award.

his array of hand gestures is impressive.

of course I have a couple I would like to use in return to his but that would get me the sack.

Buzz words, acronyms, Initiatives, he can not speak without using them. Its all such nonsense.

I am so very angry about the whole thing.
He doesn't mark his books. he isn't organised. WHY THE HELL is it me in trouble? when it NONE of it is true. God I hate him.

And the worse thing is I know some people will think that there is no smoke without fire etc and the deputy head believes every word that comes out of his lying cheating manipluative mouth. And there is NOTHING I can do.

On the plus side my observation went ok.

and I have marmite Crisps

xxxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Forgot to say current debt is £14,989.14

1520 of that is CC and the rest is loan.

It will go up if I borrow the money for my sister. but we shall see.

xxxx