Once More With Feeling! - Buffy's debt diary

Buffythedebtslayer

'know how you feel Beanie. its pants sometimes. in fact a lot of the time lately!!

Just wanted to write down my decision

The first six months of 2009 have been quite bad. it does some times feel as if my life is a series of obstacles to over come. I know that sounds self pitying but give me a minute.

the final decision at work is on 30th June. If it goes my way I will stay if it doesn't I will hand in my notice.

I do feel better having calmed down on the obsessive debt busting, getting cabs instead of walking with marking is much better. having a chocolate bar pre tutoring is also a pick me up.

I have sorted my sister's money and worked out a pretty strict repayment plan. thank God I can still get a 0% rate I am very lucky.

I am going to make the next six months much better than the last.

xxx

urg123

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

I am going to make the next six months much better than the last.

xxx

Can't wait to see the more positive outcomes. Really sorry to hear you've not been well today. Hope it fades.

Good luck with the next week - let us know if you need to talk.

urg x x

Buffythedebtslayer

Having a bit of blimp re work. in fact in full on major panic mode.

wish I hadn't been ill today I got up early and I know there is no point in crying over split milk but I am SICK of it all.

xx

urg123

Do what you can - that's all that you can do. You are entitled to be unwell and not have to work! I know work doesn't make you feel that way but when you are unwell, you need to give into your body.

I know you know this - I hope the marking doesn't take too long and you manage to get some rest. You need to recover.

Much love

urg x x

mum2one

Hope you got some rest today, u need to take things easy, we worry about u xx

Buffythedebtslayer

Well I have spent the last hour ranting about school.

not outloud - mostly lots of angry thoughts in the shower.

My poor mum she really doesn't like it when I get upset. so I don't.

I have to beat this. I MUST beat this. I cannot change my job and more important then that I do not want that man or his "way" of running a school to go unchallenged.

Night all xxx

I wrote this on the chat threas but wanted it here too.

off to bed now cheers mum2onexxxxx

xxx

chevalier

*uses mirrors to wave at buffy from the other side of the planet*
hi buffy - have you asked your other sister in america about teaching over there - would be a complete break but still earning money too. I am sure they would love your accent lol

Still don't quite understand why you are lending your sister money - can she not come on here and learn all the hard lessons YOU have learned? I really hope for your health and stress levels that she does pay you back, but family can be the worst for paying back, so I have my fingers crossed for you.

As for your !!!!!! boss. don't really understand how someone like that can still be in a position of authority, I mean he can't only be doing the bullying to you....

hugs
chev

Buffythedebtslayer

No, its very difficult and I can't really explain on here - its a bit specific and I am always vaguely paranoid.

Today was ok. I did lots of work. my boss weren't be there tomorrow yippee!!

Spent 23.19 in Sainsburys. had to get leaving present, tights (!) face wash (bogof) and cotton wool. And for doing so much work today and going in - cos I still have panicky fits about staying home I bought myself some bangles and some chocolate covered ginger biscuits.

As well as my sig quote I am also going to be kind to myself.

31 days left. xxxx

LouiseJ

Hiya lovely Buffy lady

Are you feeling any better than you did yesterday?

I think your best purchase of the day was the chocolate ginger biscuits.:D

Buffythedebtslayer

I feel a bit achy but nothing compared to yesterday.

they are borders chocolate ginger biscuits. I love them. If they were a man (with a scottish accent) I would marry them.

Its just getting through monday and them I am sort of ok.

best pack my bag for tomorrow

cheers for checking in gorgeous xxxx