The Double Debt Attack by Double Trouble

Tesco_points_addict

Sorry, lurker here, but I just had to send you some BIG hugs xxxxxxxxx

Double_Trouble

Tesco_points_addict wrote: »

Sorry, lurker here, but I just had to send you some BIG hugs xxxxxxxxx

Dont be sorry hugs always welcome:T

Arrived safely in Cardiff but tired after long day so going to have an early night

DTxx

Karmacat

I'm glad you got there safely. Sleep well.
xx

Double_Trouble

Things are getting worse rather than better

Was in John Lewis in Cardiff went up to the cafe to see if there was anything that fitted in with the diet which resulted in me going past the baby department and reminded me that the last time I was there was a week before GD's birth and I was happily choosing her a special coming home from hospital outfit - result tears

Swiftly left the department at the bottom of the escalator met a friend from where I live which considering we were both at the opposite end of Wales to where we would normally be was unexpected (and the same happened with another friend on the visit to buy baby clothes) she asked how OD was and I cried again - not a good look

Finally got home OD is impossible to pin down or talk to - more tears

Today had the first of many meetings to take place over the next few weeks about our little girl leaving us given pictures of adoptive parents and their home - more tears

Had to prepare photo album to go with little girl and memory box - more tears

I am crying now it is like a long and painful death - especially as there is no guarantee that adoptive parents will keep in touch

I am really not dealing with this very well

Loads of things I need to do including some which OD said she would do and hasn't so now I will have to fit those in as well

I think I had better stop posting until something positive to report I am sure I am upsetting the positive vibes that are around so many diaries - sorry

DTxx

taxi73

sorry that things are so bad..must be awful losing two precious little ones and trying to carry on as normal.
Do not stop posting on here ..we are here for the bad times as well as the good...hugs to you xxxxx

se999

DT do carry on posting. Life has bad times as well as good, and it's normally in the bad times when you need to talk to someone most.

Sorry to hear it's so many things at once.

At least little girl is going to adoptive parents rather than being shuffled around in the system, and you have some info about them.

You've been through so much recently and now with little girl moving on too it's normal to have bad days. Also there will be things that trigger the feelings of loss about losing gd. Hopefully it will get easier with time.

:grouphug::grouphug::grouphug:

mooomin

Double_Trouble wrote: »

I think I had better stop posting until something positive to report I am sure I am upsetting the positive vibes that are around so many diaries - sorry

DTxx

I have something positive to report - there are lots of people on here who love you. Don't you dare stop posting madam!

*HUG*

lucielle

Keep posting DT, its what everybodies here for the good times and the not so good times.
L

gilligansyle

The world has thrown so much at you recently its hard to be strong all the time. You need to do whats best for you, but there will always be someone here for you if you need them.

Double_Trouble

Thanks for the posts you are all lovely but I have to stop wallowing in misery.

OK enough is enough I have to get a grip in all areas the only area I really seem to have a grip on at the moment is weight which is still going well weigh in tomorrow but according to my scales I have lost 4stone 6lbs in 4 months and 12 days so that is a positive :jof course I am now getting the comments you don't need to lose any more :mad: but I am still overweight just no longer obese I need to get to the normal range and I want to get off my blood pressure tablets as well.

Random bit my kids just said I need to go to moneyland to get more money :rotfl:

Reading MGs blog about what you do 9-5 and 5-9 I have made a very big decision and those of you that are on fb will know what I mean I am going to delete all the fb games they are wasting my life :eek:

Then I am going to start a new diary I need to put a line under this period of my life and start looking forward just need to think of a new title.

OK I am off to fb land I wonder if there is a fb games anonymous I could join this feels really scarey:o

DTxx