The 'I want it NOW!!' debt/savings thread - Part 3

moneymabel

Oh god Jen not another one :-/ sorry to hear that hun- the doc will help you, if you need someone to talk to just pm me, Ive found a good website called nomorepanic.co.uk lots of info on depression etc on there.
Thanks for the dog toy info :-)

jenjade

no problem mm. i have been up and down for a while now i am just down. i feel so numb inside i just don't care about ANYTHING even money!

jenjade

oh my word this list from the site you suggested (great site MM) has really highlighted it


Symptoms are many, varied and not all sufferers will exhibit the same problems. They may include:

• Continual low mood yes all the time
• Feeling of inadequacy yes at work mainly
• Feeling "tearful" and "emotional" yes all the time day and night
• Irritability yes ask my poor dd
• Anger / aggression nope
• Anxiety yes about work situations
• Lack of motivation yes can be bothered
• Lack of social interest yes avoing people making excuses to stay in
• Poor personal care nope i am keeping on top that if nothing else
• Irrational / guilty thoughts yes guilty about not being a stay at home mum
• Feeling of hopelessness yes completly
• Suicidal thoughts no can't go there i have a dd to look after
• Tired all the time yes but can't sleep at night!
• Loss of appetite / weight eaten 2 piece of toast since weds
• Comfort eating nope no eating
• Inability to sleep yes can't sleep at night
• Disturbed sleep yes coz i wake up coz i am crying
• Loss of concentration yes coz i can't be bothered
• Sleeping too much / not waking refreshed knackered al the time
• Loss of libido can't rememerber having a libido in the first place
• Avoiding people / social situations oh yes big time
• Lack of energy yes the sofa for me
• Feeling physically ill yes feel sick all the time
• Extreme lethargy
• Bleak and pessimistic view of the future yes for sure

well it looks much worse on paper! Okay i think i will admit defeat to the doctor been putting it off for a long time thinking it will all get better and it is not. it is getting worse!

moneymabel

It is a great site,it was recommended to me by a friend who has had depression for years, it makes you feel less alone when you ralise that a lot of other people have the same things going on.
i know its easier said than done but you have to eat Jen-when I was first put onto the anti-depressants it can actually make you feel worse for a while until the chemicals in your brain balance out and I lost my appetite completely, I had to move back to my mums so she could feed me up. i was 10 stone 7 and now i'm 9 stone 13 (onew of the better side effects though i must say!) but, not eating can make you feel sick as well so just try, wierdly rice crispies seemed to be something i could eat without feeling icky. Good luck at the doctors,let me know how it goes-love to you x

jenjade

thanks mm, i have been and had a crumpet following your advice! I am really worried about going onto anti depressants bacause i know they are hard to give up after! SCARY!

moneymabel

They're not as bad as they used to be, the one I'm on is easy to come off as it stays in your system for a few days. Glad you've eaten :-)

jenjade

do you know what they are called mm? I am wondering whether i am going to need some time off work when i start taken them? You said they make you feel worse to start with and i don't think i could cope with that and work at the moment

moneymabel

Im on Fluoxetine (Prozac ) I would advise getting signed off for a couple of weeks if poss- I've been on them 2 weeks now and am feeling a bit better .

jenjade

well i work with vunrable families so i think i need to get signed off anyway. i burst into tears if anyone asks me if i am okay! i hate feeling like this

moneymabel

You'll be ok Jen at least you have realised there is something wrong and are dealing with it, a rest will do you the world of good.