Fire Fox's Debt-Free in 2009 Diary

Fire_Fox

:rotfl: Lula-Hula! I haven't said much about Noah and he hasn't asked, but he is aware cat stuff has appeared in the flat. Mr. Fire Fox will be gone Saturday at the latest as it's his birthday Sunday.

About ten minutes ago he realised he doesn't have any boxes, has about twice as much stuff as he thought, and has forgotten to book a car due to spending the entire afternoon on Youtube. Apparently we are getting up early tomorrow. :rolleyes: At the moment I am finding the whole thing hilarious, and refusing to assist in any way shape or form.

claire0788

Why should you help !? Go out and pamper yourself, maybe go for a wee cinema trip with a pal ? Your not the one moving

Fire_Fox

Mr. Fire Fox has gone to fetch his hire car, having cuddled me for ages. After the events of today and yesterday I am sure he still loves me, what a waste. I've thought it's in the way he touches and kisses me but discounted that as me just wanting to see something that isn't there. He's been really quiet almost crying at times today, and saying sorry over and over. I told him not to be sorry as he can't help not loving me and he said it wasn't that.

I keep remembering when he first told me he'd cheated, he kept saying "I've f**ked it [up]". I think he's leaving cos he feels he's messed up the entire relationship, but we'd been living separate lives for a long time so I feel that I need to take some responsibility. We talked so much this last month and both said that we have wanted it to be lovely again, just didn't think the other did. In many ways the relationship has been back on track, other than me busting into tears every five minutes! :rolleyes:

*Jellie*

Big hugs F_F. I'm sure lots of it is due to him feeling guilty. All you can do is keep being honest about how you feel.
Thinking of you.

claire0788

Fire Fox, I really think everything will work out for the best, its an old tired saying but it really will

ZiggyStardust_2

From what you've said it does sound like he feels so guilty about what happened he convinced himself you'd be better off without him and that the relationship was ruined. Life is so short, you need to grab what happiness you can and do what's right for YOU

makeup

Hey Fire Fox

Just found your diary.

I hope Noah settles in well tomorrow!

*Jellie*

I hope today isn't too distressing and that you have lots of fun when Noah arrives x

Shoe_Gal

Hi Fire Fox

Hope you're Ok (ish) this morning - and Noah oid taking your mind off the other stuff

Take care of you :A

gwen80

Hi Fire Fox

How are you doing today? Is Noah coming home today?

Gwenx