Depression Support Thread

Diamond78

I know alba, I should atleast pack but I have a feeling I might not go. I want to go and dont want to go. I know it will do me good and ds but I still have so much to do here. Ds still hasnt got a bed, he sleeps in my, i still need to buy chest of draws for each of us and other bits and pieces and I dont really want to pay £300 for the flight as I have so much stuff I need to buy. I really need a holiday and a break from everything and its horrible when you come back and have to face reality again.
Shaz is very brave. I went on a kiddies ride with ds at butlins and i nearly passed out. I ended up having an awful panic attack while in the air lol and was sick after it. DS loves rides but I cant go on them.And he cant go on his own so its a no win situation lol.

alba37

Does the letter seem ok Anni? Good luck at the appointment. How are you feeling now?

It's the same here Diamond, my son goes on everything, so we couldn't go when he was younger. It's fine now though as he has friends and can go with them. That's one plus of getting older, they can do things themselves.

What time are you out with the support worker Shaz?

alba37

Ops think I just missed you!

Diamond, I really think you should try to go away. It would be good for you both, and you don't have to pay for your son or for somewhere to stay.

I know you have things to buy, and things will be the same when you get home. But you can cut off while you're away. You deserve to have a nice time & see your family. I'm sure it would worth it. Keep an eye on the snipes, ebay & freecycle for the things you need, you might be lucky and get a bargin.

Try to go.... I'm sure it will benefit you in the long run (just not your purse)

A x

LadyMorticia

Heya Alba.

The letter is just going over everything we talked about at the appointment e.g. the abuse, foster homes, previous mental health etc and then what my diagnoses are and basically that they aren't going to help me etc.

I was meant to be seeing the housing association support worker tomorrow but I cancelled as I really don't need the stress of it all at the moment. Re-booked it for two weeks time which gives me enough time to try and get myself into a good frame of mind.

I found my old poetry folder the other day. It has all of my certificates and letters about publications in it. It made me feel a bit better.

xx

top_drawer_2

shazza40 wrote: »

Top-Drawer

Can I as how long it took for citalopram to work? Have taken for 3 weeks and im still falling asleep at odd times and still awake until 4am.

hi,

I noticed a difference in mood about 2-3 weeks after starting it - not undepressed but hysteria and being up and down all the time (it was an improvement on down all the time tho). About 2-3 weeks after that I noticed a change in moods but my sleep pattern is always on/off. If your sleeping is the main problem then I personally would go back to the Dr and speak to them about that .... Citalapram is a serotonin based AD and serotonin is involved in sleep but it doesnt seem to mean that it will put you back to normal.

The thing that has halped my sleeping (not cured tho unfortunately) is having a routine at night (I take my make-up off and spend some time doing tasks such as filing my nails or a putting a face mask on) and using essential oils on a burner - I can highly recommend Lavender although there are others such as Neroli which are amazing!!

HTH

Jen

LadyMorticia

The first time I was put on Citalopram, the GP said to me "Don't worry. This may make you feel paranoid and suicidal but it's completely normal and will wear off". I thought I was being put on it to help stop those feelings.lol. I'm on it again now and it's not doing anything for me but I have a high tolerance of medication.

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earth

Just wanted to say hello again. I havent been here for a while. Have been on that lovely rollercoaster of depression. Have not had a good time mainly due to my own poor self esteem and I still havent been to my GP. I feel pretty helpless at the moment but I know I need to do something. Like somebody else has said previously I can project a happy image to the rest of the world but inside I just want to cry and my GP has only ever seen the happy image; I just dont think he will believe me!
earth

santashelper_2

top_drawer wrote: »

hi,

Welcome to the board!!

What makes you think that they are rejecting you? were you told that they "may" be able to pay you at some stage and now they are saying they can't - misleading you? Did you enjoy the work and what did you get out of it? Maybe you can direct it towards something else where you can earn some money?

Jen

I understand what you are saying i think i just get low self esteem when i feel undervalued especially as i try harder than others then you hear of people now who dont try at work and have an off hand attitude and seem to get more respect.

I did enjoy the work and yes it was good to help me move forward in my life although its not particular the carear path im looking for eventually its more the fact that i have been covering for someone whilst they have been away and have issues with being taken advantage of in the past in situations like this and yet other people dont?

I have never been a very assertive person due to the fact i was raised by a very strict family who had a very strong idea of punishment if i asked for my needs to be met so am trying to turn this around in my life so when my needs are not met i feel a huge let down because it has taken me a lot of courage to ask in the first place.

alba37

earth wrote: »

Just wanted to say hello again. I havent been here for a while. Have been on that lovely rollercoaster of depression. Have not had a good time mainly due to my own poor self esteem and I still havent been to my GP. I feel pretty helpless at the moment but I know I need to do something. Like somebody else has said previously I can project a happy image to the rest of the world but inside I just want to cry and my GP has only ever seen the happy image; I just dont think he will believe me!
earth

Sorry to hear things are still bad. I'm another one who puts on a good front when I with other people. Even my GP. You have to explain that's just the way you are, I don't think it's that uncommon, depending on your GP you may need to go a few times to show them you aren't feeling good. Make an appointment and go, it's the first step to feeling better.

Take care

A x

gillette147

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