Depression Support Thread

Marru

HI,

Can you please tell a non native English speaker what is dissertation?

Thanks,

Marru

slowlyfading

Marru wrote: »

what is dissertation?

Its a long essay done in the final year of a university degree.

Marru

Ah,

Thought so. When I did mine I first made my index and then I copy pasted everything relating to those headings from books and other sources. Then I narrowed it down, took off duplicates reorganised a bit and just added final conclusions chapter where I summarised it all with my own words. I got average score for it which I aimed for as I just wanted to graduate quickly.

I am behind with my work as was feeling too sorry for myself this afternoon. Need to get cracking as otherwise will get call from boss in the morning (I work remotely from home).

Marru

meyore

slowlyfading wrote: »

Guys, can I have a moan? I'm so fed up tonight, its unreal. I'm fed up of doing work that never seems to make any difference to my stupid dissertation. I read books all the time, make thousands of notes on journals, articles, and more books. It makes about 100 words towards my dissertation. 12,000 words is the target, and I'm just no where near that, and I'm running out of steam.

Xx

Diamond78

This is my 2nd attempt to try and reply to this thread as did try erlier and for some reason got signed out.
hellooo everyone....Hope you are all well, good and happy. Ive not been online as my laptop is seriously playing up so aswell as having problems with my utterly rubbish laptop and such a rubish nd slow service from virginMedia, I have been unable to come online.Im not happy at all.I know im such a misrable cow when i come on here, i never have anything positive or happy to say.Why??Im always moaning and nagging.Im sorry guys im like this, its only coz i have no one to talk to, i bury everything inside.Ive had and am having so much going on.

nothing is going right at the mo.where do i start.Well, I cant start my course or do it as it clashes with when I pick up DS.The course finishes same time as im due to pick up DS and gt no one to pick him up for me.Im so annoyed and feel let down as they gave me a different time and location.I really want to gain a qualification in childcare and now i cant.Ive looked online to see if there is any home courses I can do but there are none i could find and plus they are not free for the likes of me a single parent on benefits.

Ive been trying to arrnge a birthday party fr DS,it falls on mothers day but he wants to be with his friends so have booked a kids soft play adventure place for 2 hours on saturday.Have been getting his presents and sent msg to spermdonor inviting him to the party.was shocked when he replied he cant make it coz he has to sleep.!!!!!!!!!
He hs a night shift, many times his been to golf straight rom work with no sleep.DS's party doesnt start till 4pm, so he has enough time to sleep.Im actuallt raging with that but its his loss.I mean how can he be so mean???DS is at the age now when he will remember.I am not going to allow spermdonor to muck up my DS's head.

My housing situation is getting me really down.I had a row with the landlord 2day about them not doing the repairs. I was very honest nd told her i wasnt happy nd she told me to find somewhere else but its not that easy.I have no deposit and not many landlords accept housing benefit.The council are not helping.

I had 2 panic attacks this evening.It was on the bus coming back from my brothers.Lately so much has been happening all across the nation.I shouldnt buy the newspaper as it affects me and makes me more paraniod. So many murders,rapes and violence has been going on.I dunno i just felt so ill and i thought i was going to be attacke, shot, stabbed or hammered. Sounds awful, i dont know why these thoughs or paranioa has come over me. I have tried not to read all the grusome details of all the crimes thats been in the headlines lately but theres been so many, so many sick and twisted ppl in this world its shocking. How can one human being treat another human so badly?How can they take a life away like and get away with it?Its horrible living in London, its so rough and worry for DS's future withthe way crime is going. So many strange ppl around, i feel i will never trust a man 100% if i ever meet and fall for a guy.You will never know what they are fully like!!You have crazed nutters that have no criminal record coz they have got away for heir crimes.

Lets hope this new law when a parent can go check the record of a new partner works and stops more tragedies from happening.

Ive ranted again, sorry guys, got loads of pages to read and catch up on, virginmedias getting on my nerves, im trying to deal with a complaint i put in about them but not getting no where.

Its leap year to, maybe 4 years later i might be in a relathionship but i cetainly wouldnt have the guts to proprose to my fella, goodluck and all the best to those that do.To many of u to name individually but want u all to knoe that have been thinking of u.

When i dont post its coz im either really down or cant get online, even facebook dont amaze me as much.

sending u all hugs,luv and kisses xxx

Diamond78

slowlyfading wrote: »

Guys, can I have a moan? I'm so fed up tonight, its unreal. I'm fed up of doing work that never seems to make any difference to my stupid dissertation. I read books all the time, make thousands of notes on journals, articles, and more books. It makes about 100 words towards my dissertation. 12,000 words is the target, and I'm just no where near that, and I'm running out of steam.

Hey hun,you should be proud of what you have achieved and how far you have got....I wish i had your brains to study. I feel as thick as anything....i cant even get to go on a course.

watch Shamaless on channel 4,if its not your thing totally understand but i totally love it, lifts my mood and makes me laugh, same as skins, wish i was young again feel so old.sending u big hugs,take a break or distract urself from studying a bit.xx

Horasio

clipboard2 wrote: »

That is one brillliant move. GO GIRL! Excellent location choice.....

1. 3 airports nearby (Bournemouth, Southampton,Gatwick) for ease of escape from UK
2. Bournemouth has officially the best weather in the UK - enjoys a double Gulf Stream effect (bounced off Isle of Wight)
3. It is quite posh eg nearby Sandbanks home to the stars eg Bruce Forsyth
4.Bournemouth has palm trees and topless sunbathing ooh la la........
5. Loadsa jobs ...if you want....
6.I live close Surrey/Hants

Have you considered self-move? The MSE way? In 1998, I hired a large transit, moved us from Glasgow to Camberley (Surrey) in 1 day. What a drive, not even time to defrost the freezer....

Sounds like you are only just starting to change your life for the better.
It can be done indeed.

Be encouraged everyone!
CB2X

We usually do it ourselves but have furniture and the place is unfurnished, so need a large large lorry and we are not licenced to drive them, even tho our son drives a van for his temp job and OH hired a large van for the last move.

meyore

Hi diamond, sorry to hear you're having such a crappy time.

I read an article today about a book called panicology. I suffer from panic attacks too and I worry about everything I can think of. The book is basically about the media coverage of things a how it can create panic.

Did you dare give your child the three-in-one MMR vaccine? Afraid you'll get so fat you'll die before your time? Worried that Tesco/Walmart will swallow up your local store, or will we all be hit by an asteroid first? Every day, the press warns us of some new calamity that will threaten our lives. The risks of simply being alive apparently grow ever more alarming. Life has never been better yet we live in fear. Why do we work ourselves up into such a state?Because these stories are a heady mix of supposedly scientific information and journalistic hype. Our hearts fall for the 'story' and our heads believe the 'facts'. "Panicology" will help you make sense of the jungle of threats. It will explain why things are seldom as bad as they're painted. Upbeat and optimistic in its world-view yet robust and sceptical in its analysis, it will equip you to approach the scares of today - and tomorrow - without panic, but with rational levelheadedness and perhaps a measure of insouciance. "Panicology" is a feel-good book about the oh-so-desperate state we're in.

I decided to order it, I hope it puts some perspective on things for me, but with my luck it'll make me worse!

I hope things start looking up for you soon.

Xx

Diamond78

meyore wrote: »

Hi diamond, sorry to hear you're having such a crappy time.

I read an article today about a book called panicology. I suffer from panic attacks too and I worry about everything I can think of. The book is basically about the media coverage of things a how it can create panic.




I decided to order it, I hope it puts some perspective on things for me, but with my luck it'll make me worse!

I hope things start looking up for you soon.

Xx

meyore, thanks for the kind words and im sorry to hear you suffer with panic attacks. I thought I was getting better but obviously not. Those quotes you wrote are so true. The media does make it worse but the sad truth is majority of the stories they publish are true. I always think of the worse and I know I need to change the way I think but its so hard. I have gone without reading papers, I have avoided listening to the news but either way you hear of all the awful things that happen in this cruel world.I want to be worry free and not worry but i cant.I can pretend for a while its all ok but i come crashing back down again.

i hope thinngs start looking up to.xx

geminilady

Diamond78 wrote: »

This is my 2nd attempt to try and reply to this thread as did try erlier and for some reason got signed out.
hellooo everyone....Hope you are all well, good and happy. Ive not been online as my laptop is seriously playing up so aswell as having problems with my utterly rubbish laptop and such a rubish nd slow service from virginMedia, I have been unable to come online.Im not happy at all.I know im such a misrable cow when i come on here, i never have anything positive or happy to say.Why??Im always moaning and nagging.Im sorry guys im like this, its only coz i have no one to talk to, i bury everything inside.Ive had and am having so much going on.

nothing is going right at the mo.where do i start.Well, I cant start my course or do it as it clashes with when I pick up DS.The course finishes same time as im due to pick up DS and gt no one to pick him up for me.Im so annoyed and feel let down as they gave me a different time and location.I really want to gain a qualification in childcare and now i cant.Ive looked online to see if there is any home courses I can do but there are none i could find and plus they are not free for the likes of me a single parent on benefits.

Ive been trying to arrnge a birthday party fr DS,it falls on mothers day but he wants to be with his friends so have booked a kids soft play adventure place for 2 hours on saturday.Have been getting his presents and sent msg to spermdonor inviting him to the party.was shocked when he replied he cant make it coz he has to sleep.!!!!!!!!!
He hs a night shift, many times his been to golf straight rom work with no sleep.DS's party doesnt start till 4pm, so he has enough time to sleep.Im actuallt raging with that but its his loss.I mean how can he be so mean???DS is at the age now when he will remember.I am not going to allow spermdonor to muck up my DS's head.

My housing situation is getting me really down.I had a row with the landlord 2day about them not doing the repairs. I was very honest nd told her i wasnt happy nd she told me to find somewhere else but its not that easy.I have no deposit and not many landlords accept housing benefit.The council are not helping.

I had 2 panic attacks this evening.It was on the bus coming back from my brothers.Lately so much has been happening all across the nation.I shouldnt buy the newspaper as it affects me and makes me more paraniod. So many murders,rapes and violence has been going on.I dunno i just felt so ill and i thought i was going to be attacke, shot, stabbed or hammered. Sounds awful, i dont know why these thoughs or paranioa has come over me. I have tried not to read all the grusome details of all the crimes thats been in the headlines lately but theres been so many, so many sick and twisted ppl in this world its shocking. How can one human being treat another human so badly?How can they take a life away like and get away with it?Its horrible living in London, its so rough and worry for DS's future withthe way crime is going. So many strange ppl around, i feel i will never trust a man 100% if i ever meet and fall for a guy.You will never know what they are fully like!!You have crazed nutters that have no criminal record coz they have got away for heir crimes.

Lets hope this new law when a parent can go check the record of a new partner works and stops more tragedies from happening.

Ive ranted again, sorry guys, got loads of pages to read and catch up on, virginmedias getting on my nerves, im trying to deal with a complaint i put in about them but not getting no where.

Its leap year to, maybe 4 years later i might be in a relathionship but i cetainly wouldnt have the guts to proprose to my fella, goodluck and all the best to those that do.To many of u to name individually but want u all to knoe that have been thinking of u.

When i dont post its coz im either really down or cant get online, even facebook dont amaze me as much.

sending u all hugs,luv and kisses xxx

Hi Diamond, Sorry you are having a hard time at the mo.I hope it helped a little to write it down.It is a shame about your course as i know you were looking forward to it.Don't they have an after school club at your DS'S school? or as your ex works nights could he not pick him up?after all if your course finishes at the same time as school it would only be for a short time.I can understand you being angry about the party,as you say if he can play golf with no sleep there is no good reason not to go.
As to the repairs i would go see the citizens advice and see what they say.As far as i know landlords have a responsability to keep propertys in good repair.
Not sure what to say about the panic attacks,as i am a very"laid back" person i admit i find them hard to understand but i do know they are awful for the ones who experiance them.For a start stop buying the newspapers if they upset you so much.Also try,and i know it is hard, to think of the nice things in the world,yes it is full of bad people but for every bad one there are ten good ones.Think of all the people who work for charities,the samaritans,child line,ect.People who donate blood,bone marrow to complete strangers.There are lots of good people in this world if you just think about it.Anyway hope your DS enjoys his party and that everything goes well ,will be thinking of you take care x