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Am I weird for being a complete and utter loner?

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edited 14 November 2024 at 1:17AM in Marriage, relationships & families
Since about the age of 12 I have not desired any friendships in my life and actively took steps to avoid social situations. I don't have anxiety or anything I just don't like spending time with other people.

For my entire teenage years I isolated myself in school and just spent my break times in the computer science department learning to program. Then after school I would sit in my bedroom all day playing video games and learning programming. 

So from the age of 12 to 18 I basically had next to no social exposure, but strangely my social skills didn't really seem to suffer. I could still hold down a conversation with people and "hang out", I just didn't enjoy doing it. 

I went to uni and while there I did socialise with the other students in my accommodation but I never went out clubbing or drinking or any of that. I'd prefer to stay in my room playing video games and stuff while they were all enjoying pre drinks getting ready for a night out. 

I'm 35 years old now and I don't have a single friend whatsoever, my whatsapp contact lists consists entirely of about 4 people, 3 of which are my higher ups at work and the other one is someone I sometimes give a lift to work.

I've never had a girlfriend, never kissed a girl and I have absolutely no desire to get a girlfriend. Whenever I'm thinking about my future and the plans I have, the idea of having friends, a family, children, a wife etc literally doesn't even enter my thought process. Whenever I hear small children being loud in public it makes me cringe and I hate it, I don't hate children per se, but the thought of having my own children would be a living nightmare.

So basically my life consists of me going to work, coming home, playing video games, watching tv shows, movies and working on personal software projects and just enjoying life. I have a cat and a dog which I love dearly and they are all I need to be happy.

I know I'm going to grow old and be completely alone and that's totally fine with me, it doesn't bother me in the slightest. 

Sometimes when I'm out and about and see people my age with young children I just think it must be horrible to have that kind of burden in your life. An 18+ year commitment, a massive financial obligation and for what? So you have someone to sit by your bedside when you're dying? 

I understand people have children because they want to but why do so many people not understand that some people don't want children or a wife / family simply because they don't want to? 

Sorry for the late night rant but it seems that so many people think that if you don't want friends or a family and don't follow societies expectations of what a "normal" life looks like, you're some kind of weirdo.
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  • Pollycat
    Pollycat Posts: 35,677 Forumite
    Part of the Furniture 10,000 Posts Name Dropper Savvy Shopper!
    If you're happy, just ignore what other people say or think.
  • LightFlare
    LightFlare Posts: 1,413 Forumite
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    You do you

    If it’s makes you happy and content with life, that’s all that counts

    What other people think is unimportant 

    (I am somewhat in the middle of the OP, so whilst married and kids, I have very few people I would class as friends, I hate socialising and enjoy my own company- happy as it is - other people are over-rated, they just need attention and cause drama 😉 )

  • oldernonethewiser
    oldernonethewiser Posts: 2,422 Forumite
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    edited 14 November 2024 at 2:34PM
    You live your life and others live theirs.

    No need to concern yourself as long as you are happy.

    Never thought of children as a burden or as bedside companions when dying but then we are all different
    Things that are differerent: draw & drawer, brought & bought, loose & lose, dose & does, payed & paid


  • booneruk
    booneruk Posts: 688 Forumite
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    edited 14 November 2024 at 1:24PM
    Some of the OPs story is very similar to my situation. I've been living alone since my early 20s and have since become extremely comfortable in my own company. So much so in fact that it became something of a major issue with ex girlfriends!

    I used to worry I wasn't following the expected script of life, in fact it did leave me rather frustrated in my late 20s. However, I'm now more accepting of it. No one needs to follow a life script.
  • Im a lot like you, but i have managed to navigate life in a bit more of a "normal" way, i have a wife and son, but i absolutly hate socialising, i detest family parties etc, i very much prefer my own company.
    I get every little in the way of enjoyment from anythign at all, but i just go about my day doing all the normal.

    My son has been diagnosed with Autism, and i see a lot of myself in him - online tests suggests that i am but im not formally diagnosed - i do suspect you may well have a level of Autism too.
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