The Challenges Of Finding Solitary Refinement ..

doingitanyway

Sorry your sleep is still poor. 

Your G&B comment mad me laugh and wonder how much exactly you are eating as the bars are not small. They are 90grams!

Like you I am getting my CV done, but from memory as they were all stored on the stolen laptop 

Happy baking 

another_casualty

Well the cake baking was not the best yesterday 🥮..
I have been using different boxes of stuff from different companies etc . Some of the print is shocking. The plan in the not too distant is to make them properly myself now that I'm getting the hang of it . Well, I say getting the hang of it but I took cake out of the tray a bit too early but longer than instructed. The result was edible but the cake resembled large squirrel droppings 🐿 oh well ..

Woke up around 4.45 am 🛌but that was later than the 4 or so previous nights so it's something I guess . I still had the walk 🐾this morning but just that more tired .
I'm not motivated to train today ( again !) 🏋️‍♂️But it think tomorrow and all weekend I will be back .seeing asI have workout with mr trainer 🏋️‍♂️On tues I had better get my finger out☝️

I managed to send a couple of copies of my cv to job coach this morning. 

What was interesting for want of a better word , is that on my 'to do list ' the attachment file was waiting and I do wonder if it goes straight to job coach or via somebody else first .
There was a space to add comments which I did . I basically left a polite note saying that more or less, here's my working life story until my unfortunate events happened . Worded better, but basically it shows all of my employment temp and perm showing that I was willing and that I am indeed another casualty and not a sponger 🧽
I'll leave that for now 

Looks like I haven't any allies regarding green & blacks 🍫 😾. Surprised 
my argument is that it is a lot smaller than other chocolate bars of less healthy quality around the same price . Still , I spotted a 50p reduction in haterose today where I did another food shop 🛒😸

Regarding food deliveries ; I looked on nocado website . Disappointed. Lots of things out of stock. Last week was the first time I used them for a while and they were great .
I had to use haterose instead, and hopefully everything will be in stock ..including green &blacks 😼we'll see 

I'll leave it there ...☁️

harz99

AC, re the G&B 90g bars, break into two equal pieces, enjoy one and place t'other in the fridge to be consumed another day, then you've halved your consumption in a flash, simples!

another_casualty

harz99 said:

AC, re the G&B 90g bars, break into two equal pieces, enjoy one and place t'other in the fridge to be consumed another day, then you've halved your consumption in a flash, simples!

😸 Nice to hear from you again harz . 
I do  put my chocolate in the fridge , but   I don't think I have that kind of will power .I haven't been as bad as before ( honest guv  ) but some things I can't take a black/ white approach too . Maybe one day ..😼

MrsPorridge

AC sorry to hear about he cake disaster.  But, it happens to all of us, even Mary Berry has had disasters   Keep going.  If you want to make your own rather than using a kit then I recommend you start off with a simple Victoria sponge cake.  Very easy and you can ring the changes with different fillings.  

another_casualty

Thanks mrs. P 😼 I did enjoy the effort that I made 🥮 .Will do another this week

Sleep better Fri/ sat 🛌 well, 5 and a half hrs continuous is an improvement .
Last night wasn't so good . 

Last week 5 days consecutively walking 🐾. This morning also . There was a nice greyhound who made a fuss of me 🐕. The owner was lovely and she knew the dog was in charge .  No cats 🐈 or foxes 🦊 today .

Today was smupposed to be sunny ☀️But it is cloudy and misty ☁️ 

I did exercise Fri and yesterday 🏋️‍♂️. Mr trainer changed programme again and it seems every two days is the way forward for a while . I have my first session of the year with him tomorrow 🥵

Today I decided to give the flat a tidy up . Started off well enough, including dusting the  blinds . Felt a bit sick . I was using the dyson , which  decided to stop halfway through and is now charging 😾. Worse things in life . 

Will do kitchen ⏲👩‍🍳and bathroom 🛁🚿later . 

Will be seeing local friend probably midweek . Possibly walking 🐾 possibly cider🍺
possibly both .

I'll leave it there ...☁️

dreaming

Hi AC - just happened on your new diary by chance and thought I would wish you happy new year and all that (imho, it's never too late start a new year!). The 2cats I adopted just over a year ago after losing my beloved Alfie (also known as Mr Orange) have settled in well and are interesting little characters but they have managed to pull down the curtain pole in my bedroom (twice) by climbing the curtains. I decided not to put it back up after last time (I do have shutters as well so no scaring the neighbours) and am saving to get the bedroom redecorated and new flooring so will sort something out then. Other than that life plods on as normal chez Dreaming.
Referring to the first page of this diary, (the title of which spurred me to read) I enjoy being a fairly solitary person and have given up some of the outside activities I used to do pre-Covid even though most things are up and running again. I decided that life is just too short to do things because I (or other people) think I should. So I've kept my 2 book groups and meet up with a friend once or twice a month but generally enjoy myself in my own small way. A couple of years ago my daughter and I did the Myers-Briggs tests and discovered that we are both introverts and although we can both be sociable with people we know, we both also need some alone time to decompress. Explains a lot of things even though I am now mid-60's and sort of intuitively knew myself but had tried to be more outgoing because it is what is socially-acceptable by and large.. I'm learning to be more accepting of my little foibles.  Anyway, I'm getting a bit cold sitting here for so long so best wishes for your continued efforts to improve your situation. Time for a hot chocolate I think (it's Green and Black's by the way). All the best.

another_casualty

Hello @dreaming😼 Great to hear from you again .
It's nice to see your 2 cats getting acquainted with everything 🐈🐈. I do miss not having any , but sacrifices had to be made . Worse things in life etc

It's interesting hearing about the Myers - Briggs  tests . Something I've never heard or thought about . I often think of going to counselling if universal credit paid for it 😸,purely as an experiment . 
I think that we are dealt cards when we are born and years later we try to phathom out the best way of dealing with them . 

Coming from a large family can be problematic .  I always wanted my own space . 

I'm probably more of an extrovert ( or was) , but like my own space also ..
In a way , I'm more of a loner now but kept the same circle of friends who had various marriages / breakups and all left London where we all were .
I think that in my time of crisis ( first diary 📔) there was nobody properly around which made me realise that it's best to front everything out myself . No complaints now .


The bathroom refurb sounds good 🛁. Having a good builder is the key 🔑

Happy new year ..enjoy the green and blacks 🍫

another_casualty

While in bed last night 🛌, there was a bit of movement and thudding from the undesireables upstairs . This was around 10.45 pm. No big deal . However a few minutes later there was some more and what sounded like deliberate Banging for a bit .
Something said to me that it can't be the iPad as I have that very low beside me .
Then ...I turned off the dehumidifier ! The banging stopped ! It sounded to me that the tenants above have rearranged their bedroom . After a hunch from myself and a post on the" in my home " board the probable factor is that the noise from my dehumidifier has been travelling above . I turned it off earlier this evening , and hopefully no more issues.
Thankfully they never knocked on my door . If there is any more noise tonight then I just don't know .

As I'm typing this , someone sprinted down the stairs like a buffalo .  

Yesterday I had a tough session with mr trainer 🏋️‍♂️🥵, followed by that discussion ..no more bread 🍞!!  A big challenge that I have to overcome . He is still in awe of what I have achieved with stubborn determination . He told me many times that if I wasn't as focused and determined on my training that I would still be in a very bad way with the myasthenia gravis . Before my session yesterday , I looked back on my time when I actually couldn't get a suit to fit me for that job I was in . Then there was the problem of not getting belts to fit me . If I can run through this bread brick wall 🍞then all of my clothes will be falling off of me . I need to do this ! 

This morning I nearly set fire to the microwave 🔥. Don't ask 

I will be seeing my local friend on Friday , all going well . 

I'll leave it there ..☁️

another_casualty

No banging or movement from tenants upstairs , so assume it was  noise from dehumidifier travelling up into their flat . 

Had a good sleep for 4 hrs 🛌. Usual story after that of feeling rough and sick when I got out of bed 🛌. . Having said that , I still forced myself to go for usual walk🐾

I'm in a slight quandary about the food in my freezer. I have 2 packs of S&M chicken 🐓which was purchased in October . A month overdue as it says keep frozen for 3 month's !
Throw it out or not ?? 

I have a few portions of rib eye steak 🥩 which I will start going through over the coming week. I also have a Turkey crown 👑 since Christmas . Something tells me to defrost tomorrow for weekend . Hopefully not left it too late . 

Kitchen and bathroom tidied 🚿👩‍🍳. 

No training yesterday , but will do today 🏋️‍♂️. Today was supposedly rest day, but it doesn't matter . 

I'll leave it there ..☁️