Giving up/ Cutting Down Alcohol Thread Part 16

rosy10

a bit of a dash in and out for me; I'm starting to forget what day it is. 9/26, please Shaggy.
Adding my virtual hugs to all going through tough times at the moment.

Arkers

Good morning everyone,
5 please Shaggy - not quite sure how!
Arsenal Beanie - I think that paying for a diagnoses is a a good plan. I just wasn't expecting my news at all. I have had 3 mammograms in the last 13 months and essentially the tumour has been missed until the last one where I said I think I have a lump.I'm trying to be positive etc, but I'm pretty cross and I am failing to understand how it could be missed especially the one in Jan.

I've also stopped reading internet info about it all, already I feel better for this. Everyone has their own story, and I was scaring myself witless with this, because for every positive I'd find two negatives. It's very damaging so although difficult I don't read Dr Google. I am trying to carry on with my normal routine which is difficult but necessary for me.
I'm sure I will crash at some point, but hopefully I will get through this.
I think I might know how you are feeling to a point, your whole thought process is entirely about whether you have Cancer or don't and if so, how bad.
Anger, how the F has this happened I have said this a thousand times. Going private for me isn't going to get the answer a lot sooner (maybe a few days), and I have been told that once in the system the treatment is the same, but I absolutely would in your case.

I hope all goes well

Arkers x

Arkers

Correction - 6 please Shaggy!!!

cathybird

Morning all, 14/21 for me today thanks.

loveasale

Morning all ,,, planned drinking yesterday and for weekend , but been good otherwise x
Hope all my friends here having a bad time are feeling better x
7 tf

arsenalbarnie

Arkers wrote: »

Good morning everyone,
5 please Shaggy - not quite sure how!
Arsenal Beanie - I think that paying for a diagnoses is a a good plan. I just wasn't expecting my news at all. I have had 3 mammograms in the last 13 months and essentially the tumour has been missed until the last one where I said I think I have a lump.I'm trying to be positive etc, but I'm pretty cross and I am failing to understand how it could be missed especially the one in Jan.

I've also stopped reading internet info about it all, already I feel better for this. Everyone has their own story, and I was scaring myself witless with this, because for every positive I'd find two negatives. It's very damaging so although difficult I don't read Dr Google. I am trying to carry on with my normal routine which is difficult but necessary for me.
I'm sure I will crash at some point, but hopefully I will get through this.
I think I might know how you are feeling to a point, your whole thought process is entirely about whether you have Cancer or don't and if so, how bad.
Anger, how the F has this happened I have said this a thousand times. Going private for me isn't going to get the answer a lot sooner (maybe a few days), and I have been told that once in the system the treatment is the same, but I absolutely would in your case.

I hope all goes well

Arkers x

Thank you for your lovely words. I have been on Dr Google and you’re right one minute it reassures you, then you scare yourself witless with the next article. I do like to know what is going on, but no more googling for me. I am paying to see the surgeon whom I think will be doing my op. The one I’m under is passing me over to him I think. The mri may shed a little more light on things, but am going to have to have a CT scan too. I broke down at 4 this am. I think it really hit me last night. OH is being really good now he realises how upset I am. I have downloaded a hypnosis app and am going to keep listening to that along with my meditation one. I just need to get the weekend out of the way, scan on Monday.

I did crack last night and had 3 glasses of wine as I felt so sorry for myself. Appetite is pants. Tonight will be alcohol free so 1 more please Shaggy

Honey_Bear

Shaggy, your Scarlett O'Hara quote was a real lightbulb moment for me today, so thank you for that. Perfect timing. OH and I went to Totnes (twinned with Narnia) to meet up with some people for a celebration this afternoon; someone's got her life back on course after a 20 year hiatus so it was a really big deal. Bearing your comment in mind, particularly positive in view of your sister's op, I bought myself a book 'Start Where You Are: A Journal for Self-Exploration' which normally I'd pass by without being tempted but just this once I thought, 'Be open to it and go with it.' (Anyone who's been to Totnes will understand the frame of mind; more than slightly offbeat and alternative. Marvellous place.) I hope your sister's recovery is both quick and smooth and you are comfortably back on track in double quick time.

Arsenal Barnie, I'd do exactly the same thing in your position. I hope the scan goes smoothly and good luck with the result - not the right choice of words but I hope you know what I mean.

Glenda, we all crack occasionally, the only thing that varies is the way we do it. After my hideous experience a few weeks ago of the stray cat and all that followed I had three days in a row of eating an entire packet of chocolate biscuits on my own. That's three packets of biscuits in three days. In one sitting on each occasion. Stress-busting. We all do it. The trick is to realise that doing it when under stress is one thing, it doesn't have to be a lifetime habit just because we gave in to it that time.

Season of Mist, fantastically well done for resisting the free booze. It's not a decision you're going to regret, and doesn't it feel fantastic going to bed after a night like that when you know you're not going to wake up with a hangover! Such a relief, and that feeling never goes away. I now consider it as good as the feeling I used to have when I was more than a bit merry after a few which I don't miss at all.

15/30 please, Shaggy.

maggiem

4/18 please and I was in Totnes today too. Lovely weather after a rocky start. I could easily have spent a fortune but resisted the temptation. Now to keep going.

cathybird

Morning all, 15/21 for me today thanks.

marahouti

Hello, 14/16 for June please Shaggy. X