“Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.”

Sun_Addict

Glad you had a lovely day but boo to the phone xx

WannabeFree

As long as I'm plugged in to a charger I seem to be okay. I have nails on though which doesn't make typing easy. I'm the worst girl ever :rotfl:

We have another big appointment tomorrow with a new specialist.

I hope everyone is well

x

ES I have arrangements in place. Rent is set through court at £12.50 a week but I'm paying £25 and CT I'm paying £26 a week so I clear in 12 months

x

beanielou

Hope the appointment tomorrow goes really well.

Cherryfudge

Good wishes for tomorrow! Glad the phone is still alive.

jwil

Good luck with the appointment, annoying about the phone.

HairyHandofDartmoor

I hope your appointment went well today Wannabe. I'm glad your phone isn't completely dead.

please-let-me-be-lucky

Catching up after my jollies. Glad event went well, and hope appointment did too Xx

beanielou

Hope all went as well as it could yesterday.

allthe7s

Ok so Ive read all 97 pages of this diary, then found your old one and read all 155 pages of that. It's taken me about a week.

I have never ready anything that made me want to hug and then throttle the person so much. I didn't realise anyone lived like this.

You are so hard on yourself it makes me want to cry.

You were so much more positive and in a better place single, I'm so worried about you being back in such a manipulative relationship. With your ages and the age gap he was an adult and you were a child and he has moulded you into exactly what he wants, feeling unworthy and not good enough and like you need him.

The love you have for your kids is enviable, they are a credit to you and you alone.

I used to get DLA for my son and I used it in with everyday spends because having it meant I could work a few less hours which was better for my son. Please don't think your littlest DLA needs to be kept separate and not touched. Use it to pay off some debt, basically use it to make your life EASIER.

I must throw away in a week the amount of food you use. I never realised how much food I throw away until I read your diary.

Reading between the lines on this diary you have been recieving serious treatment for a serious illness and you need to eat and look after yourself. The lasting effects of the treatment will be there for a while zapping you of energy. You are going to run yourself into an early grave if you don't start looking after yourself.

All of this probably seems harsh but I am just so shocked that this is someone's real life.

Take care x

WannabeFree

Thank you for the messages the appointment was a bit useless really although it should get some things sorted to make other appointments easier. We'll see though.

Thank you for reading allthe7s. Not harsh at all.

You'll be glad to know I have learnt a lot over the last 12 months, more so that it's impossible to keep everyone happy. I have switched my focus on to those who matter to me Things have changed a lot here and I do feel a lot happier with things even if that means doing it a different way to what I thought I wanted.