Feeling miles away from home when you're not

Mortgage_Moog

Voiren wrote: »

Do you get much affected by light? I'm just asking because of what you say about feeling odd in the mornings and in winter. If the lighting's not what you're used to then that can do it.

I had the opposite thing - when we first came to view the place we've rented for the last 10+years it was a nice sunny day and I felt welcome in the area straight away. The second place we saw was later in the day but also in a greyer more built up area with less rambling plants and we didn't go for that one. Then when we first signed the contract and went inside, the sun was shining through from the landing window all the way into the living room and I felt at home. (I imagine it does make a big difference in there being two of us as well, but sunny places do make me feel comfortable).

It might be the light but I've always felt funny around winter time. I know there's something called SAD (season affective disorder) which makes some people feel down in the winter. I think it's also called winter blues but I don't like to label things.

My plan is to spruce my new home up over winter and look forward to March/April when things start getting brighter again.

Mortgage_Moog

I'm glad I started this thread today because after reading the replies I now feel very positive about living here. I feel sorry for my new home. If it could speak it would be saying "Hey, you saved for me for ages and now you want to leave? What have I done wrong?"

I'm going to enjoy my time here and I think that when the time comes to leave I might even miss this place. I'll be updating my other thread about my journey back home over the coming months but for now I'm going to enjoy living here and not think about the future until I've been here for at least 6 months :-D

ScorpiondeRooftrouser

Jesus wept.

Mortgage_Moog

Time for an update on my situation. I went for a visit to my old home yesterday to pick up post and went on a walk I used to go on and the strange thing was that my old home didn't feel like home any more. The walk didn't even feel as familiar as it used to. For the first time I found that when I got back to my new home it felt more like home than the other place did even though there's still a slightly odd feeling.

I think what people say on here about filling your home with your possessions and unpacking everything is really important. My old home is half empty now and I think that's why it no longer felt so much like it did. I felt guilty walking around the old area, almost as thought I'd gone backwards by going back there. What an odd feeling moving gives you!