maximum housing benefit for disabled person?

elsien

I'm sorry you feel so bad at the moment. Is there anyone at all you trust to talk to about things? The Samaritans, if there isn't anyone else?
The CTO can be changed if moving closer to family is what you really want to do, but my guess would be that the team would want this to be in a planned way to ensure that any move doesn't make you more unwell. Ames post made a lot of sense.
Some of the things worrying you such as access to your records is likely to be the systems in place rather than aimed at you. I know at my local hospital you have have to put requests for copies of your records on writing and it can take weeks - even then there may be bits missing if it's third party information.

I know this isn't what you want to hear, but you do seem to be in a bit of a spiral at the moment so if there is anyone around you you can speak to, please try to do so.

missbiggles1

davidplans wrote: »

My CTO states I must live here in supported living and to take my Depot medication. Apparently I'm on the cleanest antipsychotic out there which is Aripiprazole.

I'm sick of working with the system, from now on I'm disengaging from it all.

"Disengaging from the system" would mean closing all your benefit claims. What would you live on if you were to do that?

Ames

davidplans wrote: »

I just feel the community learning disability team are conspiring against me, it's a multi disciplinary team so that includes psychiatry , nurses, support staff. Even NHS band 2's get to read all about my history at the day centre I attend. I know that's hard. I recently had a letter which contained a huge mistake and said something absolutely disgusting about me, because of language and age differences between me and the psychiatrist I saw. I put a request in to see my NHS day centre folder, the one with care plans/risk assessments and they are hiding them from me making it difficult for me to get access. Have they given you a reason for this? It's all one big conspiracy to keep me drugged up and stop me travelling abroad to reach a higher spiritual awareness, Buddha himself has chosen a path for me. They call in delusions. So I'm being religiously persecuted on my religious beliefs. Thinking that a religious leader/god is speaking to you is a very common delusion. I'll come back to this bit below.

I don't care if they read this which I know they are because they are spying on me , they can section 3 me again I don't care. I'm due a depot jab tomorrow, I'm not taking it. I have told them countless times its made me fat, over 8 stone overweight. I'm six stone overweight because of medication, so I feel your pain. I stopped drinking alcohol for 11 weeks , walked alot more and ate at consistent meal times Well done for that, I struggle with meal times. But it's more about what you eat rather than when. and lost nothing so I know its the medication they are forcing on me. Have you spoken to them about trying a different medication?

I know that they are trying to do, drive me to do the ultimate things They're really not. I understand how you feel, after attending A&E last week and having a bad experience with the crisis team which ended with me going home and self harming in an incredibly dangerous way. But just because the person I saw was crap at their job doesn't mean they wanted me to go away and do that, the only bit off control I have left in my life and if it wasn't for my sister and the hurt it would leave her in I'm very much considering it. I have the thoughts all the time. You need to speak to your team about it. I know how you feel though - when I was going to the day hospital I made it clear that I was going to kill myself when I finished writing my book. The staff would see me writing and say 'hey, it's great you're writing'. It felt as though they were telling me to kill myself, but they weren't. Once I was better and out of that situation I could see that.

I have nowhere to turn now basically.

The thing about the traveling and spiritual retreat is, you're just not well enough now. Apart from anything else, a spiritual retreat is going to be incredibly challenging mentally. I looked into something similar and it was so full on I don't think I'd ever be able to do it.

And a trip like that takes a lot of planning - several months at least. Even down to silly things, like getting flights to go away tomorrow would cost thousands. If you're on means tested benefits, you just don't have the funds to go on a big holiday with no planning, and once you're there there'll be no help.

And if it's Tibet you're hoping to go to, forget it. You have to declare mental illness on the application for a Chinese visa and they won't let you in. I've read reports of people with even mild depression being turned down for one. It's not a country I'd want to be caught having committed visa fraud in.

If it's something you really, really want to do then isn't it better to work with your team and get better to the point where it's possible to do it safely?