*Change of plan - and maybe some good news!*

Snaggles

My cheeks are too chubby to tie my hair up Spud! :rotfl:

I have my 99p Avon hair balm though, so I will survive the hardship somehow......*dramatic sigh*

spud30

Snaggles wrote: »

My cheeks are too chubby to tie my hair up Spud! :rotfl:

I have my 99p Avon hair balm though, so I will survive the hardship somehow......*dramatic sigh*

Dont be daft - besides, who will see you, you're on holiday remember :rolleyes:

I havent tried the hair balm. Is it any good?

beanielou

Great news on Stu's job Snaggles.
Have a fab holiday.
When DS was wee & we went to Arran we had to borrow someones car as we had so much stuff!!

Burlesque_Babe

Snaggles wrote: »

Afternoon!

We had some good news yesterday, Stu is being taken on permanently by the company he is temping for! :T

That's excellent news, I'm really happy for you both, you deserve it :beer:

Ellidee

Great news about Stu hon. So, your bird flu is getting better but you're still feeling a bit sick eh ? Maybe the extra money will come in handy if there's another mouth to feed ?! :eek: Honestly, you and IA, starting us all speculating.

Snaggles

Spud - the Avon balm isn't bad, not as good as the Charles Worthington one, but I bought it when it was on offer so it was only 99p, rather that the £6.99 I was paying for the Charles Worthington one. I'm not a brand name snob at all though, I'd put owt in my hair if I thought it would make it look shiny!

Thanks Beanie - I think we could do with a couple of spare cars..lol!

Ta Keren hon! How are you? How's the AQA going? I applied twice but both times I bottled it when I got the actual application form. I quite enjoyed finding the answers to the questions but for some reason didn't dare send them off....weird!

Ellidee - I'm pretty sure I'm not pregnant (I hope....it's a bit too soon even for me...lol), but it so difficult to know because my periods haven't even come back yet. But bearing in mind we have both been going through as stressful time, have been very tired and have got two 'lively' children to look after, I would have had to be extremely lucky/unlucky to get pregnant IYSWIM?!

Snaggles

I've re-written this post about 10 times now and it still just sounds like me being a whinging, whining, miserable cow.

It's late and I'm so tired but I can't sleep, I can't stop worrying about Ryan and his autism assessment, and what the future holds for him. I'm worried about Natasha because she's not making much eye contact, which is how Ryan was at her age, and I can't help wondering if she's going to have the same problems as Ryan.

I'm worried about Stu because he's convinced he is over his depression, and keeps forgetting to take his anti-depressants, but then he gets moody and distant and we end up arguing until he agrees to take them again, but by then I feel angry and resentful. We had a huge argument a week ago, and things have improved loads but I'm starting to see the first signs of us slipping back again already.

I can't seem to keep on top of our finances, I've bought things that I didn't need just to try and make myself feel better, and my credit card bill has crept up a bit - not disasterous but a couple of hundred quid and nothing to show for it really.

I miss my Grandma so much, and it still hurts that she never got to meet Natasha because she was so happy that I was pregnant. I feel like I can't mention it any more though because it's 10 months since she died and eveyone else seems to have accepted it, but she was such a lovely lady, everyone loved her, she went to church, was kind to everyone, and yet she died frightened, frustrated and in horrible pain, and I feel angry because she didn't deserve that. I was with her when she died, and I keep seeing her face in the few seconds before she passed away - I can't even bring myself to describe it, but it still haunts me.

I feel like everyone (my family and Stu's family) just expects me to be able to cope with all their problems and be sympathetic and understanding, and make sure they're okay, but (and this is the bit that sounds really selfish and pathetic) sometimes I wonder who's looking after me and making sure I'm okay? I just feel like screaming I'M NOT BLOODY OKAY, I'M FALLING APART, WHY HAS NO-ONE NOTICED?

I don't go out because I have nowhere to go, and I can't face anything like Mums and tots because I would just sit in a corner on my own and end up feeling worse. I'm so lonely sometimes - I love my children so much it hurts, but I miss adult company - Stu comes in from work and does goodness only knows what, but we don't sit down together until about 9pm, and he's tired by 10pm because he's working so hard.

I don't understand how one minute I can be coping fine with everything and the next I can be choking back the tears.

*Sigh* I should just go to bed, try to sleep and hope I feel better tomorrow. Sorry for the ramble.

sophiesmum_2

:hello: :hello: :hello:

Hi snaggles, feel free to ramble on as much as you like. Sometimes it helps just to get your feelings out in the open then your mind is clearer to try and get some sleep.
You have had a tough time lately with stu's job ending , ryan's upcoming diagnosis, looking after everyone, your nan dying , and as well as all that you have had a baby too. You are not superwoman and sometimes its okay to want some attention for yourself too:A
I don't post very often on your thread but i do read regularly and think that you do a tremendous job of looking after your little family. Try not to worry things will work out in the end.Ryan will get the help he needs and will develop in his own time, my 2nd son is now almost 20 and has aspergers. He started school at 2 years old and progressed from special education through to supported mainstream secondary school, he now has a job and friends and is happy with his life. So try not to worry too much about the future - its not as bad as you think;)
I wish there was some way I could cheer you up as many times you have supported other posters and given help on the boards, you are always so cheerful, and funny and i enjoy reading yor posts. I don't like knowing that you are so down:( .
Anyway just wanted to offer a little support, hope you feel a little better after a nights sleep.
take care
sm

hypno06

Hi Snaggles, sorry to read your "fed up" post.

Some suggestions (feel free to chuck them right out the window):

- any chance you are suffering from depression yourself? Even mildly, it can throw you right out. Might be worth a chat with your GP.

- you are missing adult company. when do you go back to work? You sound ready for this now, so is there any way you can bring it forward?

- you still need to grieve for your Grandma, and 10 months is nothing compared with a lifetime of loving someone. Don't feel you cannot talk about her, please. Don't bottle up the way you are feeling about her.

For some of the above, counselling could help, especially for the loss of your Grandma etc. Ask to be referred to Cruse or someone similar in your area.

Got to get ready for work now, but will try and think of some other ideas for you. In the meantime, stay strong - you are expected to cope because you have done so well so far, but inside you feel very different and that is most understandable given what you are/have been going through these last few months - hell, just having a baby is enough for most of us without all the added stress you have!!

Hugs coming your way, hun xx

Bunnyinthelights

Oh Snags hunny,
((((((((((HUGS))))))))))
(I'll give you the real thing next week!)
I'm so sorry you are feeling this fed up, you have absolutely loads on your plate and it's no surprise you feel like you do.
I must say-you DO need to get out. I found when I suffered from PND, getting out was the hardest thing but I always felt better once I did it. TBH, I still find it hard to do somethings (a night out in a club scares me senseless) but on a whole I'm getting better. Make it a small goal to do 1 thing every day?
Remember, I am here for you my soon-to-be-not-so-virtual-friend, 24/7.
Bunny x x x