Not DFW-but need advice...

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Bunny
This is one time when I can honestly say I know how you feel. I am on dosulepin 75mg. I went on it because I had insomnia every night, and not just insomnia but had scenarios playing through my head, like what would I do in a car crash, a fire (ie when I was on my own with my two ds's and not oh). Just really bad negative thoughts. I know now what triggered it (well there were a lot of triggers actually), but the main one was my nephew dieing at 36 weeks. The fall out from that sent me spiralling down wards.

With the drugs it is still not plain sailing, it is like a staircase, when you are diagnosed, you are at the bottom of the staircase. As you take the drugs you start climbing the stairs. But it is not linear, sometime there are landings on the flight of stairs, where you just stay for a while before going upwards again.

I was great right up until Christmas this year. So much so that I was going to go to the drs to talk about coming off/reducing the dose. But then we found out that we couldn't go to New Zealand when we had planned (emigrating), because of a !!!! up at OH's work (nothing he did wrong, but effects him anyway). And I did go back down a couple of flights of those stairs again.

Now I am on a landing again, and feeling relatively ok, but I know that I am not the old me yet. I hope she comes back soon, because my DS's are getting to the age where they are going to notice a parent with a black cloud over their head!

Anyway take care, we all know how tough this is. So take a virtual hug from us all
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sammy115

I wish I had some of what you lot are on. I had bad PND 12 years ago, which resulted in the long age gap. I have been monitored very closely this time, but despite losing my job and going through a tribunal I have not been depressed. STRESSED yes! DEPRESSED no!

However, now we are over the worst OH seems to have gone into a decline. Years ago he convinced himself he had cancer and was quite 'ill' for some time. He got over that, and apart from the odd relapse into hypocondria is quite 'normal' most of the time. At the moment he always seems to be down. He thinks all we do is work and we don't do anything fun anymore. A day out today went wrong, we went to a city farm and it was closed! He drove us straight home and we have sat in stony silence ever since.

I can't help feeling that the stress of the last twelve months has changed us both in a lot of ways. I feel I am alive and have four happy, healthy children and can actually pay my bills now = NO PROBLEM. OH wants to be able to 'enjoy' life, meals out, days out. holidays etc etc - everything we had when we were living over and above our means.

Sorry to hijack your thread I just had to get this off my chest and reading about you all feeling down set me off a little bit.

Bunny - I do hope you feel better soon, in my experience, it does take a while for the tablets to work and you may not even be on the correct dosage yet. It took three attempts for my doseage to be correct but once on the correct dose I came on in leaps and bounds.