Anyone on here suffer with OCD?

rising_from_the_ashes

picklepick wrote: »

I don't think many people could say that they have a 'favourite air crash'. I realise I sound like a complete weirdo, but I really am quite normal on the outside!! Honest!! I also love ACI. I might watch one now actually...

:rotfl:See you never feel alone on this site..... "favourite" crash - ohhhh that's impossible - couple of ones that stick out are Tenerife and Sioux City (oh I'm an awful person too).

One of the things that always seems to come out is that it really is always a chain of events that make them happen and if one tiny little thing had been different they wouldn't have happened.

Four_leaf_clover_2

Pollycat wrote: »

Does anyone else take a paper or magazine from the middle of the pile, not off the top?

I also spend tatty bank notes before nice, crisp ones.
In a pub, I've taken a new £5 from my OH and given him an old one and put the newer one in my purse.

Not sure if this is OCD or just me.

I do both these things.

picklepick

rising_from_the_ashes wrote: »

:rotfl:See you never feel alone on this site..... "favourite" crash - ohhhh that's impossible - couple of ones that stick out are Tenerife and Sioux City (oh I'm an awful person too).

One of the things that always seems to come out is that it really is always a chain of events that make them happen and if one tiny little thing had been different they wouldn't have happened.

Tenerife is mine!

Your last comment has made me think. That is maybe one of the reasons why I like them. It's like the butterfly effect isn't it. Not checking the door's locked could set off a chain of inexplicable links that could somehow cause my house to burn down. :cool: It makes sense in my head anyway.

raven83

picklepick wrote: »

OCD differs from what I would call a personality trait, quirk or a certain likeness for the way things are, in that sufferers often feel that if they don't do their compulsions, they fear an adverse, mostly completely irrational, consequence.

For instance, in your example, if the TV isn't on volume 12, it's on 13, a non-sufferer would dislike this and change it to make themselves feel better out of preference. An OCD sufferer would fear that something awful is going to happen as consequence and have no choice but to change the number. Fears are often irrational, with no connection to the event. For example, they'll fear that they or someone they love will be hurt or die, their house will burn down, flood, etc.

You have hit the nail on the head, that is exactly how i feel if i don't carry out the urge, like the house will burn down or something awful will happen.

raven83

picklepick wrote: »

Me!

I have Trichotillomania, anxiety disorder and Type 'O' OCD. This means my obsessions don't manifest themselves physically but are mental tasks I perform. My biggest O is counting. I count the constituents of words and give each word a score and then each sentence a score. My ideal score is a multiple of 4. Preferably 12 as that is the 'ultimate' multiple of 4 for me to have. It's more complex than this and it's hard to explain but put simply it's like counting the number of strokes you'd make if you were writing a word with a pen. I do this literally constantly. I can do it whilst holding down a conversation, watching TV, reading, the only time it goes away is when I'm sleeping! It affects my memory a lot because it's hard to absorb information when your brain is busy doing other things. And I can't hold down a normal job.

Then next comes Relationship Substantiation. This is probably my most life affecting O. I constantly question my love for my husband. If it's 'true' love, if there's something more, etc. It's something I've had a lot of counselling for and I am getting better but in the past it has ruined friendships and relationships.

The Trich is hair pulling. I get a satisfied feeling from pulling hair and I have had some bald patches when I was younger but I'm much better at managing this now as an adult.

Surprisingly, a lot of my disorders have lessened since I became pregnant. I used to suffer terribly with insomnia but I get a good 8 hours a night at the minute, which is an absolute godsend!

I pull hair too, not so much to do with OCD but more that i find it doing it feels nice and relaxing also i tend to do it when i am stressed (thats where the saying pulling your hair comes from!) and have had bald patches before but luckerly it is not a major issue for me and i can go a while with out doing it, unlike with the OCD.

picklepick

I just thought I'd share this with you all. It's kinda nice to have people to share this stuff with.

When my OCD is spiking, about 7/10 or over, I tend to try and drown out my thoughts with music. I find that singing along in my head or out loud, with my ipod on maybe, stops my brain from thinking about other things. And one of my favourite songs to listen to, to regain my composure, remind myself that I'm not insane is this one:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q-Gljs8Y3Q8&feature=related

rising_from_the_ashes

picklepick wrote: »

Tenerife is mine!

Your last comment has made me think. That is maybe one of the reasons why I like them. It's like the butterfly effect isn't it. Not checking the door's locked could set off a chain of inexplicable links that could somehow cause my house to burn down. :cool: It makes sense in my head anyway.

Makes perfect sense to me!:D

Tenerife ..... the bit that always gets me - out of the whole sorry chain of events - is that if they hadn't put on that extra bit of fuel, even with everything else, it wouldn't have happened .....

raven83

hazyjo wrote: »

Yep, am pretty obsessed with death and think about it a lot. Have my funeral pretty much mapped out (I'm only 42 but have been thinking I'm dying of something or other for as long as I can remember - still convinced every decade I won't see the next one. Never tell anyone, and rarely visit the doctor).

I think the feelings re plane crashes (god forbid) is a normal reaction to most disasters. I read about any disaster/murder with what feels to me like an unnatural interest. Not unhealthy, I think it's to do with me analysing everyone and everything.

I'm always nervous as hell with anything travel-related, but then I have been in around 7 car crashes (two write-offs) - never me driving, and had to go back to the take-off airport on planes twice, once due to engine failure, another with what seemed like 101 probs with the plane, including hydraulic probs. I ended up with 3 cancelled flights in 6 months once cos of plane problems. Once I got as far as in my seat, another time, as far as the departure gate, and the other, ended up flying to a different airport to get on a plane to Manchester when we should've been going to Heathrow.

Needless to say, friends hate travelling with me lol.

I think the OCD bit is determined by what you think will happen if you don't do it. Mine's not just a case of wanting matching pegs, or thinking things are more aesthetically balanced, it seriously affects my life. I think awful things are going to happen if I don't do them. The tapping one's the worst at the moment. I never used to really suffer with that. I remember seeing on that Whitechapel programme where the copper in charge (I think) had horrendous OCD and couldn't get out of his office as kept tapping the light switch (might have turned it on and off, I forget). In the end, after probably over 100 taps, he just went crazy and smashed it all up. That's how it feels to me. Like you're completely out of control with it. And it's not a case of 'tap it 4 times', it'll be when your body tells you it's okay to stop tapping. It's one I'm seriously trying to fight and not let it become too much of a compulsion, but it is hard.

My sister was horrendous with the handwashing thing. I'm not so bad, but am after touching things like coins, and don't like anything being on my hands so if cooking, would end up washing them incessantly.

Jx

I am like this too, i find myself getting really into things like especially plane crashes, can't explain it but it becomes an obsession i know it isn't normal but i find myself really absorbing it all and the more worried i get the more i seem to want to do it more, omg i am freak:o. So nice though to talk on here with other people and hear their stories, it's comforting.

raven83

picklepick wrote: »

Ah that's great!! Well, it's not great in that way, but it's nice to know that I'm not the only one. My favourite website is 1001crash.com because it lists all the latest air crashes. All my friends text me if they spot a pending or reported missing plane, crash, etc. I got 3 yesterday when that plane went missing in Indonesia, but I'd already seen it on my twitter because I follow all the news agencies specifically for this reason. I don't think many people could say that they have a 'favourite air crash'. I realise I sound like a complete weirdo, but I really am quite normal on the outside!! Honest!! I also love ACI. I might watch one now actually...

OMG you could be my twin reading that i am exactly the same. When that plane airfrance went missing i was totally obsessed with it as soon as i went on the computer i would google it, this went on for a long time. I watch air crash investegation on the discovery channel but i keep this quiet as don't want people to know. It is weird isn't it. This whole plane thing though started off after 9/11 up until then i had never been bothered by planes or flying but that seemed to spark a really big fear off for me:( It's annoying as i would love to take my girls on holiday but i just cannot face going on a plane, also i have to hide my fear about it from them as i don't want them to grow up fearing planes/flying.

hazyjo

Just a thought... I wonder if the real reason for all these plane crashes is that a passenger didn't complete one of their rituals that morning :eek:

Sorry, just trying to lighten the mood!

I do love disaster programmes, but they put the fear of god up me! Watched a plane one once where some tiny little thing under the plane froze over. Something about 'pure ice' or 'pure' something or other. OMG that scared the bejesus out of me and I'm even more paranoid when I fly now. I actually cry most times I take off in a plane.

I've spent a few lunch hours rushing home to check I've not left the iron or straighteners on! (Of course, never have.)

Jx