Tribunal result

carolannie

quick update.
a few days ago, i got a report about the tribunals decision.
i'm gutted and angry.
it's lies and they have twisted what i said.

i can't do anything about it now. it's too late.

they ignored what i told them.
after the atos medical, i did 6 sessions in a mind group, and have just done 8 sessions with orchard training, to test literacy, and improve it.

they used this to say i am ok.

not how i was at the medical, 12 months ago.

and ignored my gp saying i have many problems.

and i'm so angry with the welfare worker. i should have won.

i have lost confidence and the backpay and feel less than nothing.

i sign on again yet still haven't been payed.
but i daren't complain because i break down and cry and look like an idiot.

last year, i had help from the local mental health team.
i couldn't make an appointment one day so rang to cancel.
was told i would get a call back with a new appointment. i didn't and thought (stupid i know) that she was glad to see the back of me. so i never chased it up.

that was november and last week i received a letter asking did i still want to be seen.

i rang and she wasn't there and this time she did ring me back.

i told her i had rung but she said we would always ring back. i told her that i honestly did ring to cancel, but anyway, someone in your care doesn't turn up and you leave it till now to send me a letter!

so i'm back on the waiting list for cbt. and she told me it's different now. people don't get a cpn.

don't have anyone to talk to.

could a social worker help me?

thankyou again.

i feel like cutting myself and walking into the hospital and showing them how bad i feel. i won't because i have my kids to look after.

and i really want a job so i get off benefit and stop getting treated like s*it on peoples' shoes.

carolannie

unfortunately, DIAL are closing down their advice line, but i have emailed and asked if they could point me in the right direction for help.

carolannie

Well, it seems i can't go any further, as the law was followed and i can't argue that the tribunal was wrong.

So 2 people can get away with writing rubbish about me and deny me my benefits!

i hate to sound like a moaner, but it's so hard to feel gutted that these "experts" have either twisted what i said or lied.

if both the medical and tribunal had been recorded, i would have had proof of what was said.

i just don't understand how some people get dla and esa for s.a.d or panic attacks yet i was shafted twice.
and have a useless advisor, who has just agreed with me it was all wrong.

how unlucky can one person be?

carolannie

UPDATE!

Well, after the tribunal result and feeling absolutely crap, I signed on and thought, I can stay depressed and feel sorry for myself or I could do something with my life.

I took all the help I could get from the job centre, and went on al the courses I could.

Joined Learn Direct and am nearly finished my ECDL

Got help from a disability adviser and careers adviser helped with my CV.

I now have a job! I start on Monday in an office job as an administrator!

If I can do it, with my illness and family situation, anyone can!

mary2012

Well done OP!!! This is really great news for you.. I have just read your journey and it was very sad indeed.. I did not expect to be reading your last post!
Good luck in all you do

ELIZA_D

FANTASTIC!!!
agree with mary2012 ...i read your post with sympathy and wished you well,then...........your update blew me away....im smiling
As i type im looking out the window at the sky,and yes its very grey today,but......i think i can see a silver lining .....thankyou

carolannie

Thank you.

It has been really hard, I won't say it hasn't. I had 6 sessions with a therapist from Mind, who was amazing, and I got an awful lot off my chest. That was very hard, upsetting and I felt drained afterwards.

I went to college and did a short admin course, and a few others and got out and about with people, made friends and enjoyed myself.

I was thinking depression is a disability, but it only is, if you let it.

I had to force myself to get up and go to these places and mix with people and be brave.

I did end up at the GP and had to ask for some diazepan and a change of medication, because I was getting in a state with panic attacks again. But he listened and was a great support for me.

I have a small prescription of 2mg, which is in my drawer, just in case I need it.

Got away from a bad marriage and abuse. I stick up for myself now.
(thanks to Mind course-self esteem)

I will probably be no better off financially, but I am working and can hold my head high and not have to go cap in hand to the DWP for money, I will be earning my own.

sunnyone

carolannie wrote: »

UPDATE!

Well, after the tribunal result and feeling absolutely crap, I signed on and thought, I can stay depressed and feel sorry for myself or I could do something with my life.

I took all the help I could get from the job centre, and went on al the courses I could.

Joined Learn Direct and am nearly finished my ECDL

Got help from a disability adviser and careers adviser helped with my CV.

I now have a job! I start on Monday in an office job as an administrator!

If I can do it, with my illness and family situation, anyone can!

There are plenty of posters on here with similar problems to you who refuse to believe that there is any help available to them and that have no hope for the future, I hope this post makes a few more help themselves to get a better future though I doubt it very much.

carolannie

When you are depressed, you are your own worst enemy.
I had horrible negative thoughts and told myself i was stupid and too ill - my psychiatrist told me i could get dla and needed to be looked after and have no stress. It didn't help me at all really.
I ended up not knowing my own mind. I decided to take control of my life and update my skills and find a job! Not bad, seeing as I only signed on early Feb 2012!

I got angry instead of depressed after the tribunal result, which I still think was wrong. I should have been in the WRAG.

I still have off days. I am still on anti depressants and will probably stay on them for a long time, as I go down quickly if I don't take them. but I am so happy! I know the people who I will be working with and it's a lovely place. So I can't see any work problems, and I will get lots of on the job training.

You can't stay on benefits forever, if you have mental health problems, as just by staying home and doing nothing, you will never move on in your life! Being poor and having no job or life keeps you ill.

You have to force yourself to get out there. It's scary, walking into a room full of people, but you can do it!

sunnyone

carolannie wrote: »

When you are depressed, you are your own worst enemy.
I had horrible negative thoughts and told myself i was stupid and too ill - my psychiatrist told me i could get dla and needed to be looked after and have no stress. It didn't help me at all really.
I ended up not knowing my own mind. I decided to take control of my life and update my skills and find a job! Not bad, seeing as I only signed on early Feb 2012!

I got angry instead of depressed after the tribunal result, which I still think was wrong. I should have been in the WRAG.

I still have off days. I am still on anti depressants and will probably stay on them for a long time, as I go down quickly if I don't take them. but I am so happy! I know the people who I will be working with and it's a lovely place. So I can't see any work problems, and I will get lots of on the job training.

You can't stay on benefits forever, if you have mental health problems, as just by staying home and doing nothing, you will never move on in your life! Being poor and having no job or life keeps you ill.

You have to force yourself to get out there. It's scary, walking into a room full of people, but you can do it!

I totally agree with you, I had clinical depression and PTSD following my accident and while I will always be prone to depressive periods according to my psycologist I have won the major battle.

I wish my physical disabilities were so easily treated/beaten but they are not, though beating the depression has certainly made my life much easier because as you say you are your own worst enemy when you have depression.