Yellow brick road

*peridot*

Despite my largely positive attitude, the start to the year gets worse every day., with yet another blow. However, a golden oppurtunity will present itself twice, next week. Will i take the opportunity, even though i'm not in that mindset?



Thought for now :-









Wait before you wonder what Tomorrow will unfold.Wait before you worry what it's going to hold. Do not peer in fear along the road that lies ahead. Many things may happen to prevent the things you dread . . . Do you really think that only evil things can be? Live in hope and confidence, by nothing be depressed - then you'll draw unto yourself the good things and the best.

*peridot*

Ok, the opportunities came and went. Why does the courage always fail me? Or maybe i'm more courageous than i think?

Paid off first debt, but will now have to reinstate it. Why do i feel so tired today? Maybe its after the euphoria of yesterday. I finally received the life changing letter. A stranger sat behind a desk somewhere. One who doesn't know me from adam, finally sent me a letter , something everyone takes for granted. Not me. How many years has it taken? It has taken its toll on me. Destroyed me. I realise that now. Stress to unbelievable extremes. Now relief, excitement, disbelief. No, just relief, relief, relief. But there is always something sent to challenge. Now a court case to face, and i have to accept the letter.


The thought for today:-


Why do i feel so tired?

Itsadogslife_2

Hi Peridot,

Sorry to hear your journey has been peaks and troughs so far It seems like you have rather a lot on your plate at the moment - sorry to hear that you have a Court case, I have been to Court before after being robbed (by a sales man from my home when he came to measure up) and I had to go and give evidence - it was horrible. In the end when he heard I had turned up to give evidence he changed his plea to guilty :mad:

Make sure you have an early night if you are tired

*peridot*

Hi Itsadogslife and thankyou

Despite all the positivity, today i am tired and stressed. Today is the day. The culmination of the last five years, maybe, and even that, has its difficulties. Just seen ** on tv. Sometimes you want to wipe that supercilious look off his face. Do you have any idea what it's like in the real world? I suspect you don't. You say in 12 years of mse you have never seen a debt problem which can't be solved? I challenge you to solve my debt problem. Its almost impossible to dig yourself out of the poverty trap. Is that what its called? THE POVERTY TRAP. Its not just something that wastrels find themselves in. But then aren't we all mioddle class? Teachers, lawyers, proffessionals? Not your classic down and out?


I was asked twice yesterday, once for the price of a cup of coffee, once, to buy the big issue. Sorry mate. Can you lend ME the price of a cup of coffee? And by the way, i'm homeless too, even though i might not look it.

There is anger here today too, isn't there?


I must get ready for the morning whcih might change my future forever. I don't have any choice. My right to choices were taken away from me a long time ago. Oh, and i went for a job interview yesterday, which seemed to be going fine, until i was told i have to pay for crb check, and for my training. Thats that one down the tubes then, because i know from experience the job centre won't help.


Then there looks as if i might have a second court case. But i'm not going to be walked over in that department any more.


My thought for today:-